I was over him.
Really. Truthfully Over him.
I hadn't really thought about him that much.
He was beginning to fade from my mind like that.
He was just my friend. We were JUST friends. Really.
So what happened today that changed that?
We were having fun, fooling around as always, nothing new, nothing different.
So why do I have feelings for him again?
I thought I was over him.
Could it have been when he had my hand in his? Did it feel right like it did with George? It couldn't have...could it?
Doesn't matter, maybe it's a good thing I can't go Wednesday, maybe I need a break from both of them, so I'm not going to George's house tomorrow...but another day I might...who knows?
Right now I just need some time to think. And I don't even know what brought it on.
Monday, April 28, 2008
1 word...OBNOXIOUS
Ok so it seems like a lot of my posts are about Salad and George, so why don't we keep that going here? Here is yet another post about those two losers.
This took place last Wednesday, after school.
Ok so the school day ended and I go with George to his house to spend time with him. I like his house, it's right by my church where the houses are big and have several different families in them. I was surprised though, out of all the time I spent in his room nobody in his family dared enter. My parents would be in front of the door listening in to everything.
Don't worry I didn't sleep with George though, we spent about an hour and a half making out in his chair but we didn't have sex. I promise. Although I can't promise that we were both completely clothed.
Anyway after about an hour and a half of that, we straightened ourselves up and walked to Frank's house (which is conveniently a short walk away) and he played video games with this other guy, we had dinner with Frank, Frank's parents, and a few other people, I got my book back. (I got this book in Florida about soccer, I figured that I wouldn't be the only person reading it because I figured Frank, George and Salad would read it too. Unfortunately I was right, I got it last Friday in Florida, I brought it to school Monday, Salad had it that whole day, Frank had it until Wednesday night and George...still has it) And then Salad came.
All was fine...except for when Frank's mom drove me, Salad and George to Soccer. We were terrible to each other, seriously we were terrorizing each other. Arguing about everything from Chemistry to well...that and what we are actually capable of doing.
It didn't stop there, I was bored and had time to kill before group stuff started so I went into the guy's room, it was just the three of them and their "teacher" and while their teacher let me stay, the boys threw a fit. And I gave them a reason to, I gave them attitude's, I hit Salad a few times and when Frank threw his sandals at me I threw them right back. Frank even tried stripping in front of me to get me to go away (it didn't work, he chickened out), finally they said something so I stepped out. George tried to kiss me but I told him that I wouldn't give him anything because of that, so he slammed the door in my face. I re-opened the door Salad tried to close it on me, I gave George a hug and left.
Then at soccer it was basically just me, Salad and George and they were...well just as obnoxious as they were earlier. Although I can't say that I was much better. I fought fire with fire and we all came out burned.
This took place last Wednesday, after school.
Ok so the school day ended and I go with George to his house to spend time with him. I like his house, it's right by my church where the houses are big and have several different families in them. I was surprised though, out of all the time I spent in his room nobody in his family dared enter. My parents would be in front of the door listening in to everything.
Don't worry I didn't sleep with George though, we spent about an hour and a half making out in his chair but we didn't have sex. I promise. Although I can't promise that we were both completely clothed.
Anyway after about an hour and a half of that, we straightened ourselves up and walked to Frank's house (which is conveniently a short walk away) and he played video games with this other guy, we had dinner with Frank, Frank's parents, and a few other people, I got my book back. (I got this book in Florida about soccer, I figured that I wouldn't be the only person reading it because I figured Frank, George and Salad would read it too. Unfortunately I was right, I got it last Friday in Florida, I brought it to school Monday, Salad had it that whole day, Frank had it until Wednesday night and George...still has it) And then Salad came.
All was fine...except for when Frank's mom drove me, Salad and George to Soccer. We were terrible to each other, seriously we were terrorizing each other. Arguing about everything from Chemistry to well...that and what we are actually capable of doing.
It didn't stop there, I was bored and had time to kill before group stuff started so I went into the guy's room, it was just the three of them and their "teacher" and while their teacher let me stay, the boys threw a fit. And I gave them a reason to, I gave them attitude's, I hit Salad a few times and when Frank threw his sandals at me I threw them right back. Frank even tried stripping in front of me to get me to go away (it didn't work, he chickened out), finally they said something so I stepped out. George tried to kiss me but I told him that I wouldn't give him anything because of that, so he slammed the door in my face. I re-opened the door Salad tried to close it on me, I gave George a hug and left.
Then at soccer it was basically just me, Salad and George and they were...well just as obnoxious as they were earlier. Although I can't say that I was much better. I fought fire with fire and we all came out burned.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Sacrafices
When I started hanging out with Salad, Frank and George I ended up losing four of my best friends. But I didn't care...much. I had three better friends who were older than me and didn't make me feel stupid all the time.
It wasn't until recently that I realized that because of them I am going to have a hard time fitting in with other girls. I'm saying this seriously here so don't laugh.
Brie was my best friend, and we never let a guy get in the middle of us before because she usually got the guy so it was really no use for me to try that hard. So over a year ago when she started going out with Frank, I became friends with Frank instead of trying to date him but I didn't realize how close we were as friends until Frank and Brie broke up. After that we stayed friends but I would never say that to her, I would always twist it to make it seem like I was hurting him which she and most of her friends believed until this year...which she left and took Cael and Nate with her because neither of them liked Frank either.
Lane had been a good friend of mine for years, and since I was used to only fighting with Brie over a guy, I never thought I would fight with Lane over a guy. Which is apparently what I'm doing now. Lane and I used to talk a lot but after she said hi to George and I (which we didn't hear) she got annoyed because we didn't answer her so she went to Kate and bitched to her to which Kate shut her up by saying that since George and I were dating we didn't have to listen to anybody. After that she's been talking to me less and less.
Chrissy was the first person I met when I started middle school. She sat next to me in homeroom and English class, we were both quiet so we didn't have much of a conversation...ever...until she started dating Salad. I learned more about her from him than I did from her. Of course they broke up and when she sees me in Global class (she sits next to me) she doesn't say hi like she used to, and if she needs to talk to somebody at our table, she'll talk to Brae or Chloe but never me. I think she thinks that I'm upset with her for breaking up with Salad...but I'm not...it's none of my business.
Chloe is even getting annoying when it comes to those three. She doesn't like them, they don't like her...great isn't it? Well it wasn't that bad until a few weeks ago when she came to my lunch period after we got back from a trip, she and George HATE each other and without saying anything to each other (anything they had to say about the other went to me) they got into a fight. Things seemed to calm down after that...but today...well you could tell the guys probably didn't want me to hang out with her because between homeroom and Global, Frank stopped me in the hallway so I was talking to him instead of Chloe because she was further down the hall, then between Global and study hall, George stopped me in the hallway and started talking to me so Chloe went on without me and finally between study hall and art, Salad pulled me away from her because he had a problem...truthfully I don't think he had a problem because he was looking for Sherry but she was pretty much right in front of us.
So because of these 3 guys who are all 2 years older than me I have lost several friends and I could lose several more because I've already ticked off Will when I didn't go sit with him the two days I said I would, one day because Salad came to my lunch period and the other because George and Frank wouldn't let me go. Maybe hanging out with them is doing more bad than good to my social life, I mean they will be gone before these people will be, and with my luck I'll never see them again...so for the friendship of three guys I lose the friendship of several others. That's just my luck.
It wasn't until recently that I realized that because of them I am going to have a hard time fitting in with other girls. I'm saying this seriously here so don't laugh.
Brie was my best friend, and we never let a guy get in the middle of us before because she usually got the guy so it was really no use for me to try that hard. So over a year ago when she started going out with Frank, I became friends with Frank instead of trying to date him but I didn't realize how close we were as friends until Frank and Brie broke up. After that we stayed friends but I would never say that to her, I would always twist it to make it seem like I was hurting him which she and most of her friends believed until this year...which she left and took Cael and Nate with her because neither of them liked Frank either.
Lane had been a good friend of mine for years, and since I was used to only fighting with Brie over a guy, I never thought I would fight with Lane over a guy. Which is apparently what I'm doing now. Lane and I used to talk a lot but after she said hi to George and I (which we didn't hear) she got annoyed because we didn't answer her so she went to Kate and bitched to her to which Kate shut her up by saying that since George and I were dating we didn't have to listen to anybody. After that she's been talking to me less and less.
Chrissy was the first person I met when I started middle school. She sat next to me in homeroom and English class, we were both quiet so we didn't have much of a conversation...ever...until she started dating Salad. I learned more about her from him than I did from her. Of course they broke up and when she sees me in Global class (she sits next to me) she doesn't say hi like she used to, and if she needs to talk to somebody at our table, she'll talk to Brae or Chloe but never me. I think she thinks that I'm upset with her for breaking up with Salad...but I'm not...it's none of my business.
Chloe is even getting annoying when it comes to those three. She doesn't like them, they don't like her...great isn't it? Well it wasn't that bad until a few weeks ago when she came to my lunch period after we got back from a trip, she and George HATE each other and without saying anything to each other (anything they had to say about the other went to me) they got into a fight. Things seemed to calm down after that...but today...well you could tell the guys probably didn't want me to hang out with her because between homeroom and Global, Frank stopped me in the hallway so I was talking to him instead of Chloe because she was further down the hall, then between Global and study hall, George stopped me in the hallway and started talking to me so Chloe went on without me and finally between study hall and art, Salad pulled me away from her because he had a problem...truthfully I don't think he had a problem because he was looking for Sherry but she was pretty much right in front of us.
So because of these 3 guys who are all 2 years older than me I have lost several friends and I could lose several more because I've already ticked off Will when I didn't go sit with him the two days I said I would, one day because Salad came to my lunch period and the other because George and Frank wouldn't let me go. Maybe hanging out with them is doing more bad than good to my social life, I mean they will be gone before these people will be, and with my luck I'll never see them again...so for the friendship of three guys I lose the friendship of several others. That's just my luck.
April Fool's Prank
I know this is really late but I didn't have a lot of time or interest to type stuff up lately. But here's something important that I figured I'd post on here.
So on March 31st I sent an email to my cousin Terri as an April Fool's prank that George got me pregnant. A lie...to me, George and everybody we know but Terri lives hours away so wouldn't know.
So she called me the next day and I tried to avoid it but after awhile I gave in and said: April Fools. So we chatted for a little bit after that but then she went on Salad's myspace and wrote that I turn guys gay.
So it started out as pure innocent fun...now I'm annoyed. My guy friends think it's funny but really I am so mad at her. George is mad at her too, and doesn't like her because of it. He called her a jerk once but I don't think she really understood it.
Sorry for the quick post but I'm not really in the writing mood.
So on March 31st I sent an email to my cousin Terri as an April Fool's prank that George got me pregnant. A lie...to me, George and everybody we know but Terri lives hours away so wouldn't know.
So she called me the next day and I tried to avoid it but after awhile I gave in and said: April Fools. So we chatted for a little bit after that but then she went on Salad's myspace and wrote that I turn guys gay.
So it started out as pure innocent fun...now I'm annoyed. My guy friends think it's funny but really I am so mad at her. George is mad at her too, and doesn't like her because of it. He called her a jerk once but I don't think she really understood it.
Sorry for the quick post but I'm not really in the writing mood.
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