My Decision...

After a very long and hard thinking session...all weekend...I came up with no choice for that bet, despite the fact that I was probably being hinted at a certain answer the whole time.

I came up with a decision today though...during math. After Kate told me that in the future I'd be making harder decisions that will affect my life more, after Angie told me not to bring myself down, that he might like me, after Salad and I had a conversation...a short conversation which made me realize that our friendship wasn't that great anyway...but his skin is soft...very soft..., and after I talked to Frank and George...

But it wasn't until I learned that Will had no intentions to give him the book in the first place that I really came up with my decision...

You see, my whole life...I've been playing it safe, I would never fall for a guy for fear of being hurt, I always tried to do what I was told, and I had always kept quiet, even when I had a problem. Not anymore. New friends, new life. I can't change the past, and you can't repeat the past but you can use the past against yourself to force yourself into doing something different. I thought about how I wanted to get back at Cael for everything he did, and how I would always help Brie with her love problems but never thought about my own love problems.

I'm going to do it...I'm going to kiss Salad, life's too short you know? And if Angie could muster up enough courage to ask Bancurra out...I could muster up enough courage to kiss Salad, which would not only make me happy but would earn me a lot more respect than I'm used to. My friendship with Salad might be strained or broken, but at least I could say that I kissed him...it might not be a "real" kiss but it's better than nothing...right?

Now to muster up enough courage to actually kiss him.