Crammed in a Room with my Past and Present

Even as I remind myself of this, I tell myself that it could have been worse...much worse.

You see it started out as a typical day in my life and high school...except for the fact that nobody really got a chance to sleep last night, but I walked up to Global with Chloe and to my horror Cael, Nate and Rayna were there. And once Brie entered the classroom, I did the first thing that came to mind. I flaunted my present in front of my past...sort of. I really just hugged Aaron.

Cael and Nate stayed a little longer, long enough to have short conversations with Rayna and Brie before they left.

It still hurt though...because for those of you who don't know, Rayna, Brie, Cael and Nate used to be my best friends at school. We did a lot together, we went shopping, went to movies...you know stuff like that. We were close, or I thought we were, even though they unintentionally (maybe intentionally) brought down my self esteem by saying that they were better than me (without actually saying those words most of the time).

And then one day Cael dropped me, and slowly the rest of them went too, they took me out of their mall plans and movie plans and replaced me with other people, and even when I reconciled with them for whatever I did, things weren't that great. And things haven't been better since they all left me in September, two of them try to act like they didn't but they rarely, talk to me and when they do, it usually isn't for very long.

So needless to say being crammed in a room with those four people wasn't exactly my favorite moment, especially since my "replacements" were in the same room too. I felt sick the whole rest of the day.