Boy Trouble

First day back from a 9 day break and I already have boy trouble! Isn't that just my luck? And it isn't all "trouble" it's more like..."How can I stand to hang out with the boys I hang out with?" It's not that they are bad...it's more like they are extremely fucking annoying and they are all completely different! Seriously...DIFFERENT! Like if all of my guy friends got together...yeah, that just won't work out well.

It all started in gym class this morning, I gave Aaron and Laquan a hug and they sandwiched me. Laquan also let me and Angie ride on his back...actually he begged us and we were forced into it. And since soccer is finished, the transition between the new sport we'll be playing and soccer was to play mat ball. I hate mat ball...okay...I STRONGLY dislike mat ball. I feel terrible if I'm not playing but I really don't like playing. But it was okay, Angie, Kate, Lara, Aaron, and I watched as Frank, Salad, and Chris played...on the same team unfortunately. And when Aaron and I decided to play a little bit...I real little bit, I mean like half of one inning, and we were outfield, we really didn't do much. On the way back to the wall though, Chris stopped me and told me that he got DDR for the Wii and that I should come over sometime. Then at the wall Kate joked around that John was the kid Salad and I had together. Thankfully Salad wasn't around to hear, and John...he probably forgot already.

But the fun doesn't stop there! During lunch there was a new guy, he was cool...I still don't know his name but he made Frank and George's brain work. I'll explain in another post, I promise. Then the next time I saw them, Will had just gotten me in my ticklish spot and because I playfully hit them, Frank and George turned around and got me several times in the same area.

Speaking of Will, during math class (which I found out I passed my math regents with an 89! I did better than Wren! And I barely studied!) we played truth or dare...actually he played really, and he dared me to ask Salad out. My alternative? Kiss Salad. Sounds easy right? I mean, he doesn't have to say yes I just have to say those words...but those are the words I'll never say.

Speaking of Salad (like my transitions between people?) because it's a whole new semester, our schedules are a little different, and we had homeroom first instead of 1st period. So needless to say that when Kate, Angie and I got to chemistry, I was surprised to see that Salad was already there and sitting down...he's usually late. Eh...we really only looked at each other, we barely talked in gym...actually we didn't talk in gym...we usually don't unless we're playing soccer or something. And then...um....oh the next time we saw each other was between study hall and art, he said hi, I said hi...really low because my day was really sucking. And hey, it usually didn't matter, I mean we go through this often. But of course when I was walking halfway across the school to meet up with Kate and Angie, and sort of see Salad, then turn around and walk back to where I just was...we were walking right past Salad, past him as in, I sort of half turned to pass him otherwise I would have bumped right into him. But instead of just doing what we usually do, he stopped me in the hallway, held his rolled up schedule (at least I think it was his schedule) up to my chest and says, "You didn't talk to me earlier." and I answered, "Yes I did, I said hi you just didn't hear me." and thus there was a small, tiny, itty bitty conversation there. I think he thinks I'm mad at him or something...actually he would be correct, I am sort of mad at him. So I figured that would be the last I saw of him, no more Salad, that's how it always is. But no, I go down to my locker to get the book I need to hand in for English class, he's on the staircase not to far in front of me. Maybe Will is right...maybe God is trying to say that we're supposed to go out...but if we did, one of us would end up getting hurt sooner or later because if I stand in front of a mirror and ask myself "Forever?" I cannot truthfully say "Forever" back...about anything.