Lately it's seemed like Salad is acting a little bit like Cael was back in September. I'm kind of upset because I still really like Salad and I am having trouble getting over him...I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY I LIKE HIM! And it's driving me crazy.
Especially now.
Now that Salad seems to be ignoring me. The last time we talked (before today) was Monday. I pretty much had to force a conversation out of him. I'm starting to wonder who spilled the beans, Frank, George or Aaron...or did I? Did I make it so obvious that I like him? Great because if I did...that really sucks because he seems to be ignoring me and it's reminding me of Cael. I really hate it when people all of the sudden just stop talking to me without any explanation and I think I would cry if Salad stopped talking to me again because I'm still interested in him and I think I will have trouble stopping my crush on him. It's really bothering me now.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Bubbly
Bubbly...kinda like the song by Colbie Caillat except different. Because you see I've sorta kinda been out of it, I was in Dreamland and I thought that I was spiraling back into depression. Of course depression cannot defeat my friends! It actually loses pretty quickly.
Of course in English class, none of my friends are there, it has a ton of people that I don't like, and worst of all, now we are reading "The Bell Jar" which is...ironically, about depression. So in English class we had a nice long talk about depression, I was seriously waiting for somebody to look over at me and say, "Hey you fit the description. Do you have depression?" to which I would answer truthfully by saying, "Not anymore."
Because you see I have great friends now, who hate to see me upset, and vise versa, I hate seeing them upset. At least now people really care about my feelings and my life. That's good, so I'm happy now.
Of course in English class, none of my friends are there, it has a ton of people that I don't like, and worst of all, now we are reading "The Bell Jar" which is...ironically, about depression. So in English class we had a nice long talk about depression, I was seriously waiting for somebody to look over at me and say, "Hey you fit the description. Do you have depression?" to which I would answer truthfully by saying, "Not anymore."
Because you see I have great friends now, who hate to see me upset, and vise versa, I hate seeing them upset. At least now people really care about my feelings and my life. That's good, so I'm happy now.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Who am I?
So I mentioned in the last post that there was this new kid at lunch. He's in my grade but he has a ton of the same interests as Frank and George, plus he's following in Aaron's footsteps so he not only hangs out with Frank and George, but Will and Angie too.
He was cool, he was asking about me, like what I liked and stuff and then he said, "I'm trying to figure out what you like because I can't figure out what kind of person you are" or something like that, and then Frank and George pause for a millisecond and then realize "Hey we don't know anything about her either."
When they bring that up, I don't know what to say...I'm not the kind of person somebody could easily classify. I listen to different kinds of music, I don't have a defined style, I have a diverse group of friends...although some may say that all my friends are just geeks...which they all very well may be.
I just answered, "I'm a mystery to everybody...even myself" because I sort of am...I know what I like and it fits into different labels but I'm not going to blurt everything I like, hate, want and fear to people. I learned the hard way that the more you open up to people, the harder it is to say good-bye. And in my case, good-bye always comes sooner than I want it to.
He was cool, he was asking about me, like what I liked and stuff and then he said, "I'm trying to figure out what you like because I can't figure out what kind of person you are" or something like that, and then Frank and George pause for a millisecond and then realize "Hey we don't know anything about her either."
When they bring that up, I don't know what to say...I'm not the kind of person somebody could easily classify. I listen to different kinds of music, I don't have a defined style, I have a diverse group of friends...although some may say that all my friends are just geeks...which they all very well may be.
I just answered, "I'm a mystery to everybody...even myself" because I sort of am...I know what I like and it fits into different labels but I'm not going to blurt everything I like, hate, want and fear to people. I learned the hard way that the more you open up to people, the harder it is to say good-bye. And in my case, good-bye always comes sooner than I want it to.
Boy Trouble
First day back from a 9 day break and I already have boy trouble! Isn't that just my luck? And it isn't all "trouble" it's more like..."How can I stand to hang out with the boys I hang out with?" It's not that they are bad...it's more like they are extremely fucking annoying and they are all completely different! Seriously...DIFFERENT! Like if all of my guy friends got together...yeah, that just won't work out well.
It all started in gym class this morning, I gave Aaron and Laquan a hug and they sandwiched me. Laquan also let me and Angie ride on his back...actually he begged us and we were forced into it. And since soccer is finished, the transition between the new sport we'll be playing and soccer was to play mat ball. I hate mat ball...okay...I STRONGLY dislike mat ball. I feel terrible if I'm not playing but I really don't like playing. But it was okay, Angie, Kate, Lara, Aaron, and I watched as Frank, Salad, and Chris played...on the same team unfortunately. And when Aaron and I decided to play a little bit...I real little bit, I mean like half of one inning, and we were outfield, we really didn't do much. On the way back to the wall though, Chris stopped me and told me that he got DDR for the Wii and that I should come over sometime. Then at the wall Kate joked around that John was the kid Salad and I had together. Thankfully Salad wasn't around to hear, and John...he probably forgot already.
But the fun doesn't stop there! During lunch there was a new guy, he was cool...I still don't know his name but he made Frank and George's brain work. I'll explain in another post, I promise. Then the next time I saw them, Will had just gotten me in my ticklish spot and because I playfully hit them, Frank and George turned around and got me several times in the same area.
Speaking of Will, during math class (which I found out I passed my math regents with an 89! I did better than Wren! And I barely studied!) we played truth or dare...actually he played really, and he dared me to ask Salad out. My alternative? Kiss Salad. Sounds easy right? I mean, he doesn't have to say yes I just have to say those words...but those are the words I'll never say.
Speaking of Salad (like my transitions between people?) because it's a whole new semester, our schedules are a little different, and we had homeroom first instead of 1st period. So needless to say that when Kate, Angie and I got to chemistry, I was surprised to see that Salad was already there and sitting down...he's usually late. Eh...we really only looked at each other, we barely talked in gym...actually we didn't talk in gym...we usually don't unless we're playing soccer or something. And then...um....oh the next time we saw each other was between study hall and art, he said hi, I said hi...really low because my day was really sucking. And hey, it usually didn't matter, I mean we go through this often. But of course when I was walking halfway across the school to meet up with Kate and Angie, and sort of see Salad, then turn around and walk back to where I just was...we were walking right past Salad, past him as in, I sort of half turned to pass him otherwise I would have bumped right into him. But instead of just doing what we usually do, he stopped me in the hallway, held his rolled up schedule (at least I think it was his schedule) up to my chest and says, "You didn't talk to me earlier." and I answered, "Yes I did, I said hi you just didn't hear me." and thus there was a small, tiny, itty bitty conversation there. I think he thinks I'm mad at him or something...actually he would be correct, I am sort of mad at him. So I figured that would be the last I saw of him, no more Salad, that's how it always is. But no, I go down to my locker to get the book I need to hand in for English class, he's on the staircase not to far in front of me. Maybe Will is right...maybe God is trying to say that we're supposed to go out...but if we did, one of us would end up getting hurt sooner or later because if I stand in front of a mirror and ask myself "Forever?" I cannot truthfully say "Forever" back...about anything.
It all started in gym class this morning, I gave Aaron and Laquan a hug and they sandwiched me. Laquan also let me and Angie ride on his back...actually he begged us and we were forced into it. And since soccer is finished, the transition between the new sport we'll be playing and soccer was to play mat ball. I hate mat ball...okay...I STRONGLY dislike mat ball. I feel terrible if I'm not playing but I really don't like playing. But it was okay, Angie, Kate, Lara, Aaron, and I watched as Frank, Salad, and Chris played...on the same team unfortunately. And when Aaron and I decided to play a little bit...I real little bit, I mean like half of one inning, and we were outfield, we really didn't do much. On the way back to the wall though, Chris stopped me and told me that he got DDR for the Wii and that I should come over sometime. Then at the wall Kate joked around that John was the kid Salad and I had together. Thankfully Salad wasn't around to hear, and John...he probably forgot already.
But the fun doesn't stop there! During lunch there was a new guy, he was cool...I still don't know his name but he made Frank and George's brain work. I'll explain in another post, I promise. Then the next time I saw them, Will had just gotten me in my ticklish spot and because I playfully hit them, Frank and George turned around and got me several times in the same area.
Speaking of Will, during math class (which I found out I passed my math regents with an 89! I did better than Wren! And I barely studied!) we played truth or dare...actually he played really, and he dared me to ask Salad out. My alternative? Kiss Salad. Sounds easy right? I mean, he doesn't have to say yes I just have to say those words...but those are the words I'll never say.
Speaking of Salad (like my transitions between people?) because it's a whole new semester, our schedules are a little different, and we had homeroom first instead of 1st period. So needless to say that when Kate, Angie and I got to chemistry, I was surprised to see that Salad was already there and sitting down...he's usually late. Eh...we really only looked at each other, we barely talked in gym...actually we didn't talk in gym...we usually don't unless we're playing soccer or something. And then...um....oh the next time we saw each other was between study hall and art, he said hi, I said hi...really low because my day was really sucking. And hey, it usually didn't matter, I mean we go through this often. But of course when I was walking halfway across the school to meet up with Kate and Angie, and sort of see Salad, then turn around and walk back to where I just was...we were walking right past Salad, past him as in, I sort of half turned to pass him otherwise I would have bumped right into him. But instead of just doing what we usually do, he stopped me in the hallway, held his rolled up schedule (at least I think it was his schedule) up to my chest and says, "You didn't talk to me earlier." and I answered, "Yes I did, I said hi you just didn't hear me." and thus there was a small, tiny, itty bitty conversation there. I think he thinks I'm mad at him or something...actually he would be correct, I am sort of mad at him. So I figured that would be the last I saw of him, no more Salad, that's how it always is. But no, I go down to my locker to get the book I need to hand in for English class, he's on the staircase not to far in front of me. Maybe Will is right...maybe God is trying to say that we're supposed to go out...but if we did, one of us would end up getting hurt sooner or later because if I stand in front of a mirror and ask myself "Forever?" I cannot truthfully say "Forever" back...about anything.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
School's In Session
*GROAN* That will be the first sound I make when I try to wake up tomorrow morning, for my first day of school in about 9 days. I am going to go crazy!
I forgot so many things today because I had completely forgotten that I had to do them, I was so used to staying home...and I this wasn't even a long break!
Anyway, tomorrow is back to school and I'm looking forward to it...but at the same time...I really don't want to go back. I don't feel up to going to school...I'm not sick...well not physically sick but I feel like I'm going sick mentally. Nothing seems to be going right for me you know?
I feel terrible. I used to have 4 best friends, and two of them completely ignore me, 1 of them ignores me but will say "hi" and "how are you" to make up for the fact that she decided not to sit next to me anymore during English class, and the one person who seemed to really and truly care about me...he's gone...he moved away.
And the people I'm friends with now...I'm afraid that our friendship won't last much longer...I'm afraid that one day Kate will say "You know...Cael had the right idea. A is so stupid." and when she leaves she'll take Angie, Lara, Aaron...everybody. I'm afraid of being alone again...I want friends but I feel incapable of making them and keeping them. Like I can't talk to people...but my friends, I can talk to them...which is really saying something, and I'm afraid of losing that with the few people who can really get me to talk.
I cry at night again because I feel like a failure...I feel like I can't do anything right when it comes to friends. In fact I turn events over in my head and wince when I realize I said something stupid, that most people would stop talking to me for...I'm just waiting for them to do that...I don't want it to happen but I feel like it will happen...and I've already gotten too close to them! I love seeing them because they make me feel good, they get me out of any slump...and it sucks because one day it will all be over, like it was last time...and I'll be alone again. That is, unless I step up and stop saying stupid things.
I forgot so many things today because I had completely forgotten that I had to do them, I was so used to staying home...and I this wasn't even a long break!
Anyway, tomorrow is back to school and I'm looking forward to it...but at the same time...I really don't want to go back. I don't feel up to going to school...I'm not sick...well not physically sick but I feel like I'm going sick mentally. Nothing seems to be going right for me you know?
I feel terrible. I used to have 4 best friends, and two of them completely ignore me, 1 of them ignores me but will say "hi" and "how are you" to make up for the fact that she decided not to sit next to me anymore during English class, and the one person who seemed to really and truly care about me...he's gone...he moved away.
And the people I'm friends with now...I'm afraid that our friendship won't last much longer...I'm afraid that one day Kate will say "You know...Cael had the right idea. A is so stupid." and when she leaves she'll take Angie, Lara, Aaron...everybody. I'm afraid of being alone again...I want friends but I feel incapable of making them and keeping them. Like I can't talk to people...but my friends, I can talk to them...which is really saying something, and I'm afraid of losing that with the few people who can really get me to talk.
I cry at night again because I feel like a failure...I feel like I can't do anything right when it comes to friends. In fact I turn events over in my head and wince when I realize I said something stupid, that most people would stop talking to me for...I'm just waiting for them to do that...I don't want it to happen but I feel like it will happen...and I've already gotten too close to them! I love seeing them because they make me feel good, they get me out of any slump...and it sucks because one day it will all be over, like it was last time...and I'll be alone again. That is, unless I step up and stop saying stupid things.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Boy Record
In track they have times you have to beat to get records and all that stuff, and in chick flick movies when a girl is talking about how she "Doesn't have the best track record when it comes to boys" or something along those lines.
So I was thinking today about boys that have actually/are actually attracted to me...wow...the list sucks. Not to be mean or anything but the guys are all geeks, losers, the kind of guy that other people (especially girls) don't like much.
So here's my list (note that this is only from about 6th grade on up)
Cael- Sad I know, but he did like me a few times in our lives...until he moved onto liking Wren.
Justin- I don't believe I ever mentioned him before, he was my 1st ex-bf. He's kinda ugly now...and WAY too nice.
Sean- Okay, everybody hates him. Nate and Pi would literally try to escape him as often as possible.
Nate- Yeah...we dated a little but decided to just stay friends...now he's gone.
Will- Eww I know, he told me he has a little crush on me.
Chris- This is not a little crush...he got me 2 x-mas gifts! And wants to run over Salad with a car!
Aaron- He told me he had a crush on me once...he also said he had a crush on Lara too.
John- I don't know if he ever liked me, but we flirted a little bit. The guy flirts with anything though.
Yeah...I still kind of wish that a guy like Salad would like me...I mean can't every girl daydream about a hot guy instead of a...not hot guy?
So I was thinking today about boys that have actually/are actually attracted to me...wow...the list sucks. Not to be mean or anything but the guys are all geeks, losers, the kind of guy that other people (especially girls) don't like much.
So here's my list (note that this is only from about 6th grade on up)
Cael- Sad I know, but he did like me a few times in our lives...until he moved onto liking Wren.
Justin- I don't believe I ever mentioned him before, he was my 1st ex-bf. He's kinda ugly now...and WAY too nice.
Sean- Okay, everybody hates him. Nate and Pi would literally try to escape him as often as possible.
Nate- Yeah...we dated a little but decided to just stay friends...now he's gone.
Will- Eww I know, he told me he has a little crush on me.
Chris- This is not a little crush...he got me 2 x-mas gifts! And wants to run over Salad with a car!
Aaron- He told me he had a crush on me once...he also said he had a crush on Lara too.
John- I don't know if he ever liked me, but we flirted a little bit. The guy flirts with anything though.
Yeah...I still kind of wish that a guy like Salad would like me...I mean can't every girl daydream about a hot guy instead of a...not hot guy?
Comparisons
Yeah so I was checking myspace because I was bored...but I didn't spend too much time on it because it's really boring. But I checked Salad's page just for the hell of it and he put up this survey thing about himself (obviously). And I checked Wren's page too...again just for the hell of it. Truthfully myspace bores the shit out of me, so I really don't bother sending comments and stuff because it just...well it's boring to me.
But anyway back to Salad and Wren...did you know that if you put the two of them together it would probably be a person somewhat like me? I'm totally serious here...serious as in...really, really serious, scary serious.
to make this easier on me (and anybody else who reads this) I'm just going to make a list.
My Comparisons with Salad
we both love soccer
we both like a few of the same music artists
neither of us really believe in love (although I might when it hits me)
we both feel the same way about certain people.
He's one of the few people I know that has gone through a phase sort of like depression, like I did last year.
People to us, are hard to forget
We would rather talk to somebody in person rather than over the phone
My Comparisons with Wren
We have the same opinions on books
we both want to be authors
we both like some of the same musical artists
she likes musicals too!
We watch the same tv shows
We idolize most of the same people.
We both hate talking on the phone.
There is more...I think, those are just the ones I remember.
But while we have many comparisons...there are still MANY contrasts. Like Wren is a grammar person...I'm not, and Wren is terrified of sports equipment and putting her hair up. And Salad is a boy, older than me, has different clothes opinions (thank God!) and food opinions. Ya know stuff like that.
But anyway back to Salad and Wren...did you know that if you put the two of them together it would probably be a person somewhat like me? I'm totally serious here...serious as in...really, really serious, scary serious.
to make this easier on me (and anybody else who reads this) I'm just going to make a list.
My Comparisons with Salad
we both love soccer
we both like a few of the same music artists
neither of us really believe in love (although I might when it hits me)
we both feel the same way about certain people.
He's one of the few people I know that has gone through a phase sort of like depression, like I did last year.
People to us, are hard to forget
We would rather talk to somebody in person rather than over the phone
My Comparisons with Wren
We have the same opinions on books
we both want to be authors
we both like some of the same musical artists
she likes musicals too!
We watch the same tv shows
We idolize most of the same people.
We both hate talking on the phone.
There is more...I think, those are just the ones I remember.
But while we have many comparisons...there are still MANY contrasts. Like Wren is a grammar person...I'm not, and Wren is terrified of sports equipment and putting her hair up. And Salad is a boy, older than me, has different clothes opinions (thank God!) and food opinions. Ya know stuff like that.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Lost...
Yesterday night I got a phone call from Nate, I was surprised to hear his voice over the phone because he hasn't called me in months...actually I'm pretty sure that the last time he called me, it was over the summer.
Anyway he called me last night and told me that he was moving away, he was going to live with his father in a whole other part of the state and he was packing up as we spoke.
I know it seems kind of sad to be upset about this but he was one of my closest friend for awhile, and he was the only one of my old friends who never put me down. And he always asked me how I was doing and how journalism was doing for me. He was always a great friend and always cared for me. I'm really going to miss him, but I can't bring myself to cry or anything, even though I want to. I feel...lost and even somewhat alone.
Anyway he called me last night and told me that he was moving away, he was going to live with his father in a whole other part of the state and he was packing up as we spoke.
I know it seems kind of sad to be upset about this but he was one of my closest friend for awhile, and he was the only one of my old friends who never put me down. And he always asked me how I was doing and how journalism was doing for me. He was always a great friend and always cared for me. I'm really going to miss him, but I can't bring myself to cry or anything, even though I want to. I feel...lost and even somewhat alone.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Poor Salad...not!
Okay so on Thursday, before the soccer game really got started, Salad was kneeling on the ground. When I asked, he said he was okay.
When I talked to him later he told me that he was upset and guess what his problem was....Chrissy...again. He told me that J.M told him that Chrissy was a player, he also told me that he had told Chrissy again...that he liked her but she just wouldn't listen. So later, I talked to Angie and I told her everything, everything that he had once told me not to tell and everything that I knew. She said that before the game started he said that he was feeling faint...like he was going to pass out. I was beginning to feel REALLY bad for him.
That is...until I talked to Frank during lunch, he told me that Salad told him that he and Chrissy broke it off mutually. She didn't break up with him and he didn't break up with her, they both decided it wasn't going anywhere. She did of course tell him that he was too in love with his ex-girlfriend. I was kind of angry with that...I mean Frank always...well not always...but when it comes to love/like/romance/that stuff he's pretty good at telling the truth, and he and Salad are close friends so...yeah.
But I think what's really bothering me is when I checked his myspace a few days ago, to show Anna what he looked like, he was right back to feeling depressed again. And it really bothers me because he's a great guy but he acts like he is the only person who has ever felt this way. And I really want to tell him that I understand what he's going through, because I do. Everything he's said so far, I've felt. How you can't stop thinking about that person, how you still care about that person even though you know they don't care about you back, how you can only think of the good things about them...everything he's said I've felt with my now ex-friend Cael. I went through the same heartache three times with him, and Salad...he's lucky he's only really been through it once with Chrissy. The only thing is I don't know how to say it to him because every time I try to talk to him about it, I sound stupid. Maybe I just need to suck it up and let it out, fuck giving him advice I'll just tell it to him straight, next time I see him, which will be like...Monday I think.
My horoscope: (it really fits the situation)
This is your Full Moon, increasing the magnitude of your emotions enough to complicate the day. It's difficult to hide your needs, for they -- along with your dreams -- are right on the surface now. But attempting to bury your feelings won't work. You'll be better off bringing them up to the surface and expressing your heart.
When I talked to him later he told me that he was upset and guess what his problem was....Chrissy...again. He told me that J.M told him that Chrissy was a player, he also told me that he had told Chrissy again...that he liked her but she just wouldn't listen. So later, I talked to Angie and I told her everything, everything that he had once told me not to tell and everything that I knew. She said that before the game started he said that he was feeling faint...like he was going to pass out. I was beginning to feel REALLY bad for him.
That is...until I talked to Frank during lunch, he told me that Salad told him that he and Chrissy broke it off mutually. She didn't break up with him and he didn't break up with her, they both decided it wasn't going anywhere. She did of course tell him that he was too in love with his ex-girlfriend. I was kind of angry with that...I mean Frank always...well not always...but when it comes to love/like/romance/that stuff he's pretty good at telling the truth, and he and Salad are close friends so...yeah.
But I think what's really bothering me is when I checked his myspace a few days ago, to show Anna what he looked like, he was right back to feeling depressed again. And it really bothers me because he's a great guy but he acts like he is the only person who has ever felt this way. And I really want to tell him that I understand what he's going through, because I do. Everything he's said so far, I've felt. How you can't stop thinking about that person, how you still care about that person even though you know they don't care about you back, how you can only think of the good things about them...everything he's said I've felt with my now ex-friend Cael. I went through the same heartache three times with him, and Salad...he's lucky he's only really been through it once with Chrissy. The only thing is I don't know how to say it to him because every time I try to talk to him about it, I sound stupid. Maybe I just need to suck it up and let it out, fuck giving him advice I'll just tell it to him straight, next time I see him, which will be like...Monday I think.
My horoscope: (it really fits the situation)
This is your Full Moon, increasing the magnitude of your emotions enough to complicate the day. It's difficult to hide your needs, for they -- along with your dreams -- are right on the surface now. But attempting to bury your feelings won't work. You'll be better off bringing them up to the surface and expressing your heart.
Songwriter dream...gone already
So on Thursday I was upset with Salad (which I will mention in the next post...it was not because of Gina it was because of Chrissy) so I decided to write a song...I don't know what drove me to do that but I started writing and just kept going.
In a matter of a few hours I had a song...a really bad song that sounded terrible when I tried singing it the next day, but a song that I figured I would fix over time.
I started coming up with really crazy ideas of making music videos, putting them on Youtube and sending a cd to Disney Channel to make me famous...but in a matter of days, the whole "I want to be a singer/songwriter" dream...left my mind. Now I just want to be a famous writer...who writes novels and tv shows and maybe, if I'm really lucky...I'll act too.
Hmm...let's see how long this dream'll last.
In a matter of a few hours I had a song...a really bad song that sounded terrible when I tried singing it the next day, but a song that I figured I would fix over time.
I started coming up with really crazy ideas of making music videos, putting them on Youtube and sending a cd to Disney Channel to make me famous...but in a matter of days, the whole "I want to be a singer/songwriter" dream...left my mind. Now I just want to be a famous writer...who writes novels and tv shows and maybe, if I'm really lucky...I'll act too.
Hmm...let's see how long this dream'll last.
Uh-oh Spaghetti-o's.
I know this is really late, but I haven't really wanted to blog in awhile, besides since I don't have any school right now, there really isn't anything to blog.
But this is from Thursday during gym class.
So it was a normal day, chemistry was boring and gym class soccer is violent. I mean REALLY violent. Like Salad and I were almost kicked off the field for playing rough violent. But my gym teacher is really dumb, her first words before the game started were "Don't push" in soccer, you have to push people out of the way, soccer is a contact sport. That's why people used to die playing soccer.
But I got in trouble because...well first I kicked the ball and it flew from my foot and made perfect contact with Frank's face, luckily he was okay. And then later on, me and this other guy both hit each other head on...or body on. Neither of us fell, but he was bleeding in his mouth a little bit and both of us were really sore. But the way my gym teacher looked at me...she looked at me like I did that on purpose, or that I should die, or that she would take me out of the game if she really wanted to...but instead she just asked if I was okay and then re-started the game.
Salad on the other hand...was taken out of the game for a minute because our gym teacher accused him of slide tackling somebody...which he didn't.
So we play soccer a little violently in gym class. We are among friends and none of us take the injuries personally, it's the competition, the drive, the feeling winning brings...even though it isn't as great as it would be for a real soccer game.
But this is from Thursday during gym class.
So it was a normal day, chemistry was boring and gym class soccer is violent. I mean REALLY violent. Like Salad and I were almost kicked off the field for playing rough violent. But my gym teacher is really dumb, her first words before the game started were "Don't push" in soccer, you have to push people out of the way, soccer is a contact sport. That's why people used to die playing soccer.
But I got in trouble because...well first I kicked the ball and it flew from my foot and made perfect contact with Frank's face, luckily he was okay. And then later on, me and this other guy both hit each other head on...or body on. Neither of us fell, but he was bleeding in his mouth a little bit and both of us were really sore. But the way my gym teacher looked at me...she looked at me like I did that on purpose, or that I should die, or that she would take me out of the game if she really wanted to...but instead she just asked if I was okay and then re-started the game.
Salad on the other hand...was taken out of the game for a minute because our gym teacher accused him of slide tackling somebody...which he didn't.
So we play soccer a little violently in gym class. We are among friends and none of us take the injuries personally, it's the competition, the drive, the feeling winning brings...even though it isn't as great as it would be for a real soccer game.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Feelin a Little Jealous Maybe?
I admit it, because I have guy friends I do get a little jealous of other girls. Not all girls because it's not like I can ban them from all girls (that's evil) just a few girls...like Kat, Jen and Mar...and their friends.
But I never really got really hurt or annoyed if Kat, Jen, Mar (and friends) hung out with the guys because...well the guys don't like them.
I did not believe I would ever get this jealous about a guy.
You see, last year my friend Nate started talking to me less when he was hanging out with "Gina" I didn't mind it much because it got him off my back and she was cool (and she played soccer) and besides, she was nice to me (despite the fact that she walks like a man and acts like one sometimes) but it really started to poke at me when she didn't see me as a threat to her friendship with Nate (apparently she is territorial) which somehow seemed to bother me. It didn't bother me until she started hanging out with Cael like I did, well not exactly like me, she's a little more "touchy-feely" towards him than I was with him.
Well now it really bothered me when Salad pretty much ignored me to talk to Gina about stuff, they were playing with each others hands and laughing, smiling, looking into each others eyes...everything that I want to do. And it bothered me, about a minute into it, when I realized that this was going on for awhile, I just left but my inside's died and I knew I wanted to stop liking Salad but I can't...I just...I can't...why can't I?
But I never really got really hurt or annoyed if Kat, Jen, Mar (and friends) hung out with the guys because...well the guys don't like them.
I did not believe I would ever get this jealous about a guy.
You see, last year my friend Nate started talking to me less when he was hanging out with "Gina" I didn't mind it much because it got him off my back and she was cool (and she played soccer) and besides, she was nice to me (despite the fact that she walks like a man and acts like one sometimes) but it really started to poke at me when she didn't see me as a threat to her friendship with Nate (apparently she is territorial) which somehow seemed to bother me. It didn't bother me until she started hanging out with Cael like I did, well not exactly like me, she's a little more "touchy-feely" towards him than I was with him.
Well now it really bothered me when Salad pretty much ignored me to talk to Gina about stuff, they were playing with each others hands and laughing, smiling, looking into each others eyes...everything that I want to do. And it bothered me, about a minute into it, when I realized that this was going on for awhile, I just left but my inside's died and I knew I wanted to stop liking Salad but I can't...I just...I can't...why can't I?
Friends are Real Friends when...
...when they are going through the same things, feeling the same feelings.
Today in study hall, my good friend Chloe was telling me that her friends told the guy she liked that she likes him...really likes him. Chloe was telling me that she liked everything about him, they liked the same music, the same bands, they were afraid of the same things, they were equally smart/dumb, and most of all she was able to look through all his flaws...strike that...she loves his flaws. To her, he has no flaws...but she isn't looking for a boyfriend, just a date to the prom so she doesn't have to go alone.
As she was telling me this...I was able to follow exactly what she was saying because I feel the exact same way about Salad...too bad he's busy with every girl that isn't me.
Sad huh? I wish I was in Chloe's situation, at least Chloe's guy is being nice to her and everything, Salad...although nice, never made an attempt to play with my feelings. Sad...even though it's wrong, I really wish he did.
Today in study hall, my good friend Chloe was telling me that her friends told the guy she liked that she likes him...really likes him. Chloe was telling me that she liked everything about him, they liked the same music, the same bands, they were afraid of the same things, they were equally smart/dumb, and most of all she was able to look through all his flaws...strike that...she loves his flaws. To her, he has no flaws...but she isn't looking for a boyfriend, just a date to the prom so she doesn't have to go alone.
As she was telling me this...I was able to follow exactly what she was saying because I feel the exact same way about Salad...too bad he's busy with every girl that isn't me.
Sad huh? I wish I was in Chloe's situation, at least Chloe's guy is being nice to her and everything, Salad...although nice, never made an attempt to play with my feelings. Sad...even though it's wrong, I really wish he did.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
White Jacket = Great Day
Over the weekend my mom took me to the mall to get a new sweat jacket because I only had a black one that had been stepped on by Wren during the PSAT's, had things thrown at it by George, has been hugged a trillion times by Aaron, Kate and Will, and has been pulled at by me more times in a day than I can count. So I bought a white one from American Eagle because white goes with everything.
The first time I ever really wore it was today, and today happened to be a really good day...in my opinion of course.
It all started when I woke up and found a $100 bill lying on the floor of my bedroom...okay that didn't happen...but wouldn't it be so cool if I did? No...my morning was like any other morning, get up, get ready for school, go to school, die there. But the day wasn't as sucky as I had originally made it out to be. In between chem classes, Kate and Angie left me with the guys, which was great because even though I love spending time with them, I love spending time with the guys too. So I talked with them for a few minutes and then went back to my seat when the bell rang. I had time to write my story for the first time in months during study hall because Chloe went to the library and today it was supposed to be just me and her.
After study hall, when I usually take a long walk to go see Salad, I was apparently later than I usually am, because when I got downstairs he was waiting for me. Waiting...for...me...I thought that was just so cool! Probably because he hasn't waited for me to show up in...awhile. This is definitely a step forward. Especially since the bet is now officially over, but in math class Will and I started scheming a way to get Cael and Wren together. Because you see, when Cael and I were talking, he spent a lot of time talking about Wren because he liked her. Also at the beginning of the year, Will, Kate and I knew this and were thinking up ways to get them together...not that Cael would ever talk to her. He doesn't have the balls to do so. So I brought it up today during one of the numerous infamous notes that Will and I pass during math class. He made a crude joke and then threatened to give it to Wren in the hallway, which he almost did if I hadn't have intercepted numerous times while Wren talked to Kate. It took Kate to hold Will down so I could rip the paper, grab the remains and run up to English.
This is the funny thing...I was running down the hallway so Will couldn't catch me and so I wouldn't be late for English and I ran straight into/through (depending on how you look at it) Kat and Jen (who were going in the same direction as I was) and Nate and Cael (at the same time as Kat and Jen, but they were going in the opposite direction) I muttered sorry but I really didn't mean it. It was fun...for me at least.
Then in my last class I actually talked to people...it was the first time in a long time because I don't know the people in the class that well (aside from Wren, Kay, Sherry and "May" plus Kiki's annoying older brother) but it was nice, we talked about books.
The bad thing...I haven't done any of my homework. I still have chem labs to finish and hand in but I haven't done that yet...and my mom has been bothering me about it, plus I have to read two things for Global by Friday and I haven't even tried to read them yet. I am really hoping for a snow day Thurs. it would give me more time for some stuff.
The first time I ever really wore it was today, and today happened to be a really good day...in my opinion of course.
It all started when I woke up and found a $100 bill lying on the floor of my bedroom...okay that didn't happen...but wouldn't it be so cool if I did? No...my morning was like any other morning, get up, get ready for school, go to school, die there. But the day wasn't as sucky as I had originally made it out to be. In between chem classes, Kate and Angie left me with the guys, which was great because even though I love spending time with them, I love spending time with the guys too. So I talked with them for a few minutes and then went back to my seat when the bell rang. I had time to write my story for the first time in months during study hall because Chloe went to the library and today it was supposed to be just me and her.
After study hall, when I usually take a long walk to go see Salad, I was apparently later than I usually am, because when I got downstairs he was waiting for me. Waiting...for...me...I thought that was just so cool! Probably because he hasn't waited for me to show up in...awhile. This is definitely a step forward. Especially since the bet is now officially over, but in math class Will and I started scheming a way to get Cael and Wren together. Because you see, when Cael and I were talking, he spent a lot of time talking about Wren because he liked her. Also at the beginning of the year, Will, Kate and I knew this and were thinking up ways to get them together...not that Cael would ever talk to her. He doesn't have the balls to do so. So I brought it up today during one of the numerous infamous notes that Will and I pass during math class. He made a crude joke and then threatened to give it to Wren in the hallway, which he almost did if I hadn't have intercepted numerous times while Wren talked to Kate. It took Kate to hold Will down so I could rip the paper, grab the remains and run up to English.
This is the funny thing...I was running down the hallway so Will couldn't catch me and so I wouldn't be late for English and I ran straight into/through (depending on how you look at it) Kat and Jen (who were going in the same direction as I was) and Nate and Cael (at the same time as Kat and Jen, but they were going in the opposite direction) I muttered sorry but I really didn't mean it. It was fun...for me at least.
Then in my last class I actually talked to people...it was the first time in a long time because I don't know the people in the class that well (aside from Wren, Kay, Sherry and "May" plus Kiki's annoying older brother) but it was nice, we talked about books.
The bad thing...I haven't done any of my homework. I still have chem labs to finish and hand in but I haven't done that yet...and my mom has been bothering me about it, plus I have to read two things for Global by Friday and I haven't even tried to read them yet. I am really hoping for a snow day Thurs. it would give me more time for some stuff.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Keep it away from the bimbo's
OMG my first comment! (I just saw that now and I'm so happy *jumps for joy*) Yes Whitters24, Salad is a nickname, Kate and Will made it up for him back in October...he doesn't know about it...which is good otherwise he would know what we talk about in Chemistry class.
Anyway...we played soccer in gym class today and...it made for an interesting story.
My gym teacher was out today so we had a sub and he knew very little about soccer. And since originally our teams were uneven, he had us stand on a blue line so he could put us on teams. "You should do 1, 2, 1, 2" Salad said. And of course that is what the guy did. Salad was smart though, he stood on one side of me and Angie stood on the other so I would be on the other team (because it just isn't the same when Salad and I are on the same team...and the same goes with Angie and I) The teams ended up being Salad, Angie, Frank and several other varsity soccer players up against me, John, Aaron, 1 varsity soccer player and...well basically we were just a whole bunch of losers.
Jen, Mar, and Kat came onto the field once again. Now, if you don't know...none of the boys, nor Angie, nor I like these girls, and we hate them more when they play soccer because:
1) They can't play well
2) They don't even try
3) When they do "try" they just mess up the game for the rest of us.
4) They aren't the nicest people
5) They are freakin' idiots!
So they came on the field and created turmoil. The first thing they did to set me off was when I heard them say "Keep the ball away from Angie" but according to Angie they said, "Keep it away from the witch" meaning Angie.
The boys did everything they could to keep the ball away from them but it is really hard to do that when they are standing in the middle of the field. And Mar kept blowing her whistle whenever there was a handball, the first time she blew the whistle everybody stopped but I told everybody to play it and so we did, and then ignored every other time she blew the whistle.
I tried to keep my distance and keep myself from defenestrating them (defenestrate is the act of throwing somebody out a window...it is my favorite long word.) and focused myself on getting the ball away from Salad...which I did several times. I also fell several times, crashed into Salad, Angie and Frank and have some interesting stories from there, but none I'm going to put in here, there are too many and this post would be way too long.
Anyway...we played soccer in gym class today and...it made for an interesting story.
My gym teacher was out today so we had a sub and he knew very little about soccer. And since originally our teams were uneven, he had us stand on a blue line so he could put us on teams. "You should do 1, 2, 1, 2" Salad said. And of course that is what the guy did. Salad was smart though, he stood on one side of me and Angie stood on the other so I would be on the other team (because it just isn't the same when Salad and I are on the same team...and the same goes with Angie and I) The teams ended up being Salad, Angie, Frank and several other varsity soccer players up against me, John, Aaron, 1 varsity soccer player and...well basically we were just a whole bunch of losers.
Jen, Mar, and Kat came onto the field once again. Now, if you don't know...none of the boys, nor Angie, nor I like these girls, and we hate them more when they play soccer because:
1) They can't play well
2) They don't even try
3) When they do "try" they just mess up the game for the rest of us.
4) They aren't the nicest people
5) They are freakin' idiots!
So they came on the field and created turmoil. The first thing they did to set me off was when I heard them say "Keep the ball away from Angie" but according to Angie they said, "Keep it away from the witch" meaning Angie.
The boys did everything they could to keep the ball away from them but it is really hard to do that when they are standing in the middle of the field. And Mar kept blowing her whistle whenever there was a handball, the first time she blew the whistle everybody stopped but I told everybody to play it and so we did, and then ignored every other time she blew the whistle.
I tried to keep my distance and keep myself from defenestrating them (defenestrate is the act of throwing somebody out a window...it is my favorite long word.) and focused myself on getting the ball away from Salad...which I did several times. I also fell several times, crashed into Salad, Angie and Frank and have some interesting stories from there, but none I'm going to put in here, there are too many and this post would be way too long.
Once Again...No Bet. No problem
I posted the same thing about two months ago...exactly (in my time thing) 2 months and a day ago.
But once again, the problem has been resolved. I do not have to kiss Salad THANK GOD!
I kept saying that I was going to do it but I realized that I was NOT going to do it, that I was just building myself up for it to make myself feel better about myself. But I value my friendship with Salad more than I would that kiss...even though I still do want to kiss him, I would rather us stay friends. We are too good together as friends, a winning team...even in soccer...but we rarely, if ever play on the same team.
Actually, Kate ended the bet for me. Will was getting really annoying about it and I couldn't take it anymore. I hadn't seriously meant it when I said after Angie asks out John. I was joking and I seriously doubted that she would ever ask him out...EVER.
But Will took it seriously and it was like he was pressuring me into something I didn't want to do. Not like Aaron, who wanted me to do it but at the same time respected my feelings about the subject and would back off when I felt uncomfortable.
So during math class, Will and I were passing notes, and I asked Kate for help. And help came, she told him something, he shut up for the rest of the period and at the end of the day, Will and I had a confrontation and I am 99% sure that I don't have to kiss him. So that's good, you won't have to hear about my failures and shit anymore.
But once again, the problem has been resolved. I do not have to kiss Salad THANK GOD!
I kept saying that I was going to do it but I realized that I was NOT going to do it, that I was just building myself up for it to make myself feel better about myself. But I value my friendship with Salad more than I would that kiss...even though I still do want to kiss him, I would rather us stay friends. We are too good together as friends, a winning team...even in soccer...but we rarely, if ever play on the same team.
Actually, Kate ended the bet for me. Will was getting really annoying about it and I couldn't take it anymore. I hadn't seriously meant it when I said after Angie asks out John. I was joking and I seriously doubted that she would ever ask him out...EVER.
But Will took it seriously and it was like he was pressuring me into something I didn't want to do. Not like Aaron, who wanted me to do it but at the same time respected my feelings about the subject and would back off when I felt uncomfortable.
So during math class, Will and I were passing notes, and I asked Kate for help. And help came, she told him something, he shut up for the rest of the period and at the end of the day, Will and I had a confrontation and I am 99% sure that I don't have to kiss him. So that's good, you won't have to hear about my failures and shit anymore.
Monday, January 14, 2008
That Stupid Bet
I have mentioned this stupid bet several times in several posts and it's really starting to bother me.
See Will, Aaron and I had made a deal that if I didn't kiss Salad, then I would have to do something. Well today that something was revealed. Will told me that if I didn't kiss Salad by Friday (I forgot all about regents week which takes out a whole chunk of January) then I would have to date him (Will...not Salad) and his girlfriend for four months, and kiss three guys and two girls...of his choice. One of those boys being Cael and the other two being these guys in my math class.
I told Aaron later on and he gave me some pretty good advice...advice that while I'm typing right now I can barely remember. He did say though, that I could refuse to do all of it, that nobody can make me do anything.
Aaron is right, I know that but as I was looking back at some of my other posts I've been having mixed emotions about this. I mean, I want respect, I want that kiss and I want a life that is better than the one I had with Cael, Brie, Rayna and Nate as my best friends. But...at the same time I really want to keep my friendship with Salad, he is such a great person and it would be...well terrible to stop being friends again, besides the drama should have subsided back in November when we made up.
So why do I still like him?
I have no clue...it is really bugging me that I can't figure out why I like Salad...usually I can figure it out and get over it...why is he so different? I don't find him that attractive...well I sort of do...but I don't think he's that sexy. He isn't that great at sports...but he is good I'll give him that, plus he is competitive especially against me, which I like....and his voice is weird...but I love to listen to it. He's thin and not muscular but his skin is so soft...I don't know...this whole bet thing is getting old, and it could all end in 2 seconds...not even...but then everything would end.
See Will, Aaron and I had made a deal that if I didn't kiss Salad, then I would have to do something. Well today that something was revealed. Will told me that if I didn't kiss Salad by Friday (I forgot all about regents week which takes out a whole chunk of January) then I would have to date him (Will...not Salad) and his girlfriend for four months, and kiss three guys and two girls...of his choice. One of those boys being Cael and the other two being these guys in my math class.
I told Aaron later on and he gave me some pretty good advice...advice that while I'm typing right now I can barely remember. He did say though, that I could refuse to do all of it, that nobody can make me do anything.
Aaron is right, I know that but as I was looking back at some of my other posts I've been having mixed emotions about this. I mean, I want respect, I want that kiss and I want a life that is better than the one I had with Cael, Brie, Rayna and Nate as my best friends. But...at the same time I really want to keep my friendship with Salad, he is such a great person and it would be...well terrible to stop being friends again, besides the drama should have subsided back in November when we made up.
So why do I still like him?
I have no clue...it is really bugging me that I can't figure out why I like Salad...usually I can figure it out and get over it...why is he so different? I don't find him that attractive...well I sort of do...but I don't think he's that sexy. He isn't that great at sports...but he is good I'll give him that, plus he is competitive especially against me, which I like....and his voice is weird...but I love to listen to it. He's thin and not muscular but his skin is so soft...I don't know...this whole bet thing is getting old, and it could all end in 2 seconds...not even...but then everything would end.
Theives and Diets
So my good friend Frank is joining the millions of other people in the world who have decided that they need to lose weight.
But Frank is the kind of person who buys food and then when the lunch lady has her back turned, steals several bagels, milk's, fries and/or whatever they are serving that day.
Well not today, today he brought a healthy lunch with him...but he blew off his thousand calorie diet and bought school lunch. But he didn't steal anything...from the lunch line I mean. From our chemistry teacher...well that's another story...a story that I will now tell you.
Frank got to school twenty minutes before our chemistry teacher, and somehow got into the classroom (this part isn't exactly very clear to me) and while our chem teacher was out of the room he used the opportunity to steal a 280 pack of straws and a liquid in a container that was marked under the hazardous section of the many liquids there. Stupidly Frank smells the liquid, it smells terrible but he sticks it in his jacket pocket anyway.
Frank brings the smelly liquid to lunch and shows it to Rose, George and I, George bravely smells it first. He takes off the top and sticks his nose right by it, the liquid stinks terribly and George's eyes are watering because of the liquid. Frank cleans off the top of the bottle the liquid is in with the paper from his brown bag lunch. He gives it to me to smell, I don't get a whiff of it like George does but I do smell it. Yes it stinks and yes it did bother my nose...George got out his chemistry reference table and hands it to Frank. Frank tells us that the liquid was ammonia peroxide (or something like that) and that it is an acid.
Wow...so that was weird...we'll see what happens tomorrow.
But Frank is the kind of person who buys food and then when the lunch lady has her back turned, steals several bagels, milk's, fries and/or whatever they are serving that day.
Well not today, today he brought a healthy lunch with him...but he blew off his thousand calorie diet and bought school lunch. But he didn't steal anything...from the lunch line I mean. From our chemistry teacher...well that's another story...a story that I will now tell you.
Frank got to school twenty minutes before our chemistry teacher, and somehow got into the classroom (this part isn't exactly very clear to me) and while our chem teacher was out of the room he used the opportunity to steal a 280 pack of straws and a liquid in a container that was marked under the hazardous section of the many liquids there. Stupidly Frank smells the liquid, it smells terrible but he sticks it in his jacket pocket anyway.
Frank brings the smelly liquid to lunch and shows it to Rose, George and I, George bravely smells it first. He takes off the top and sticks his nose right by it, the liquid stinks terribly and George's eyes are watering because of the liquid. Frank cleans off the top of the bottle the liquid is in with the paper from his brown bag lunch. He gives it to me to smell, I don't get a whiff of it like George does but I do smell it. Yes it stinks and yes it did bother my nose...George got out his chemistry reference table and hands it to Frank. Frank tells us that the liquid was ammonia peroxide (or something like that) and that it is an acid.
Wow...so that was weird...we'll see what happens tomorrow.
WHY?!??!
Why does Salad have to be such an amazing person? Why does he have to have an interesting laugh that sounds really weird but at the same time I kind of like it? Why do I have to like him? Because I know he doesn't feel the same way about me and all I'm doing is throwing away our friendship after we rebuilt it two months ago?
Why do my friends have to criticize me about him? And how come they go on different sides, some say go for it and other say don't.
Maybe I shouldn't listen to them...
My only priority should be myself, and I really shouldn't be tending to crushes like Salad...
Why do my friends have to criticize me about him? And how come they go on different sides, some say go for it and other say don't.
Maybe I shouldn't listen to them...
My only priority should be myself, and I really shouldn't be tending to crushes like Salad...
Friday, January 11, 2008
The Failure...(#4, 5, 6, and 7)
3 failures in one day! I'm getting better at this...or maybe worse because I still haven't kissed him.
Failure Numero Cuatro
So my first failure of the day was in the last few minutes of my gym class. Angie, Salad and I were the last people still on the "field" because according to Salad we still had time left. So we were talking...Salad, Angie and I...not very long but it was long enough for me to lean in and kiss him lightly...not that I would want to do that right then and there. He was sweaty, I was sweaty and Chris had just given me a late Christmas present. (but that's for a later post)
#5 on my List of Failures Thus Far
My 5th failure this week (2nd today) was right after Gym class...several minutes after my previous failure. I had just walked out of gym class and to my surprise there he was right next to me. Yes this is surprising because he never walks out that door, and never at the same time I am. So we talked for about a minute...maybe not even and once again I could have just leaned in and kissed him.
The Sixth Failure
6th Failure! 3rd today! Gosh I suck at this kissing/love/like thingamabob. Actually...this was my third failure in 10 minutes...doesn't that suck? It was right before homeroom, and I had gone down the hallway his homeroom was in so I could talk to my math teacher about a retake test that I kept forgetting to take. We were once again so close but I chickened out...yes again.
7 Failures...
So in 1 week I have had AT LEAST 7 failures. These are the only ones that really surface in my mind. And this one is the most recent one. It was between my study hall and my art class, we usually talk between classes then because...I dunno we just do, that and before homeroom usually. So because of me we got on the topic of Cael and he was so sweet to me! He walked me to my art class and talked to me, he told me that Cael wasn't a real friend. HE IS SO SWEET! I couldn't lean in and kiss him then! It would ruin the moment! So Monday maybe...we'll see.
Failure Numero Cuatro
So my first failure of the day was in the last few minutes of my gym class. Angie, Salad and I were the last people still on the "field" because according to Salad we still had time left. So we were talking...Salad, Angie and I...not very long but it was long enough for me to lean in and kiss him lightly...not that I would want to do that right then and there. He was sweaty, I was sweaty and Chris had just given me a late Christmas present. (but that's for a later post)
#5 on my List of Failures Thus Far
My 5th failure this week (2nd today) was right after Gym class...several minutes after my previous failure. I had just walked out of gym class and to my surprise there he was right next to me. Yes this is surprising because he never walks out that door, and never at the same time I am. So we talked for about a minute...maybe not even and once again I could have just leaned in and kissed him.
The Sixth Failure
6th Failure! 3rd today! Gosh I suck at this kissing/love/like thingamabob. Actually...this was my third failure in 10 minutes...doesn't that suck? It was right before homeroom, and I had gone down the hallway his homeroom was in so I could talk to my math teacher about a retake test that I kept forgetting to take. We were once again so close but I chickened out...yes again.
7 Failures...
So in 1 week I have had AT LEAST 7 failures. These are the only ones that really surface in my mind. And this one is the most recent one. It was between my study hall and my art class, we usually talk between classes then because...I dunno we just do, that and before homeroom usually. So because of me we got on the topic of Cael and he was so sweet to me! He walked me to my art class and talked to me, he told me that Cael wasn't a real friend. HE IS SO SWEET! I couldn't lean in and kiss him then! It would ruin the moment! So Monday maybe...we'll see.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
The Failure...(#3)
Yet another failed attempt to kiss Salad. Seriously...why am I even bothering? We have a good relationship as friends...I shouldn't push it, but this time it wasn't my fault.
Before homeroom Salad and I were talking by one of the classrooms in the math wing, I was very close to him (physically...and maybe emotionally too) and I was waiting for Aaron and Will to come so that they would believe me if I said I kissed him (although they could just ask him and he'd tell them the truth if I had lied) so technically I was stalling and they never showed up.
But I found it interesting that when I was beginning to run late for my art class, (which I usually see Salad right before that class) I figured I wouldn't see him and just as I'm coming out of the hallway, there he is, walking past me. How weird is that?
Before homeroom Salad and I were talking by one of the classrooms in the math wing, I was very close to him (physically...and maybe emotionally too) and I was waiting for Aaron and Will to come so that they would believe me if I said I kissed him (although they could just ask him and he'd tell them the truth if I had lied) so technically I was stalling and they never showed up.
But I found it interesting that when I was beginning to run late for my art class, (which I usually see Salad right before that class) I figured I wouldn't see him and just as I'm coming out of the hallway, there he is, walking past me. How weird is that?
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
The Perks of Being a "Soccer Girl"
Soccer Girl is a made up term, I couldn't think of anything else to say because technically I wouldn't be considered a tom boy...because my hair is long and I do wear girls clothes.
Anyways...Angie and I are the only Soccer Girl's in my gym class...well Kay plays soccer too...but since she hangs out with Wren and Rayna during gym...she isn't a Gym Class Soccer Girl. Right...moving on now...well since Angie and I always play soccer with the guys...after several games, we have finally made a rank as "one of the guys" which basically means that the guys will go tougher on us than they would other girls...but at the same time they are just as sweet. (this is one of those aww... moments)
Today in soccer, the game was tied 2-2. I finally scored a goal! But Salad scored two goals...so that really ruined that victory. But anyway...onto the perks...you see I fell like a million times and got a whole bunch of bruises all over myself. But one time I fell, Salad was right near by and he asked me if I was okay and I think he was about to help me up...if I didn't do it myself. He asked me if I was okay another time right after we both had been fighting for the soccer ball...I hadn't fallen or anything, but he did make me dizzy.
Angie...oh she had it even better. She and R had a run in and he grabbed her around the waist to keep her from falling, and then held onto her for a couple seconds after to make sure she was okay. (Just so you know R is HOT! Well in my opinion, but I like Latino boys, and Angie likes white boys with long hair)
And just so you know...Kat, Mar and Jen all went on the field today, the guys did whatever they could to make sure they didn't get the ball. In fact, once Kat was going to head the ball but Frank hit the ball right before it hit her and the guys started kicking it again. I thought it was pretty funny.
Finally, while we were going to the locker room to change Angie was telling me that Salad didn't want to go hard on Angie's friends because he was afraid of them getting hurt, and Angie just told him to go for it because we really didn't care.
Anyways...Angie and I are the only Soccer Girl's in my gym class...well Kay plays soccer too...but since she hangs out with Wren and Rayna during gym...she isn't a Gym Class Soccer Girl. Right...moving on now...well since Angie and I always play soccer with the guys...after several games, we have finally made a rank as "one of the guys" which basically means that the guys will go tougher on us than they would other girls...but at the same time they are just as sweet. (this is one of those aww... moments)
Today in soccer, the game was tied 2-2. I finally scored a goal! But Salad scored two goals...so that really ruined that victory. But anyway...onto the perks...you see I fell like a million times and got a whole bunch of bruises all over myself. But one time I fell, Salad was right near by and he asked me if I was okay and I think he was about to help me up...if I didn't do it myself. He asked me if I was okay another time right after we both had been fighting for the soccer ball...I hadn't fallen or anything, but he did make me dizzy.
Angie...oh she had it even better. She and R had a run in and he grabbed her around the waist to keep her from falling, and then held onto her for a couple seconds after to make sure she was okay. (Just so you know R is HOT! Well in my opinion, but I like Latino boys, and Angie likes white boys with long hair)
And just so you know...Kat, Mar and Jen all went on the field today, the guys did whatever they could to make sure they didn't get the ball. In fact, once Kat was going to head the ball but Frank hit the ball right before it hit her and the guys started kicking it again. I thought it was pretty funny.
Finally, while we were going to the locker room to change Angie was telling me that Salad didn't want to go hard on Angie's friends because he was afraid of them getting hurt, and Angie just told him to go for it because we really didn't care.
The Failure...(#2)
I know what your thinking, "today is Wednesday! Didn't she say that her next attempt was Thursday and that she's actually going to do it?"
Yes I did...thank you for noticing! But guess what? An unexpected attempt at Salad came up today...and I guess some would say that I chickened out. I say...I completely forgot about that bet...for that moment at least.
The school day ended early so the whole school would be out there and I was one of the first people to get out thinking that Salad would already be out. I was wrong. I ended up on the sidewalk waiting for him...or anybody that was considered my friend to come out. Lara was the first one out and we talked for a little, Chris was next and he waited with us. Then Angie and Will came out and we were talking and joking when Salad and his friend "Ray" came out and walked towards us. When they were right nearby, without thinking, I started talking to Salad about how violent he and the other guys were in soccer, to which he responded that I ran over him and kicked him...several times (I swear I didn't) and then just as he and Ray had begun to walk away, I turned back towards my friends they stared quietly at me for a second and then Will spoke up and asked me why I didn't kiss him right then and there while he was right in my grasp.
Truthfully, while I was talking to Salad, all I could think about was talking to him...not the bet. I didn't chicken out!
Yes I did...thank you for noticing! But guess what? An unexpected attempt at Salad came up today...and I guess some would say that I chickened out. I say...I completely forgot about that bet...for that moment at least.
The school day ended early so the whole school would be out there and I was one of the first people to get out thinking that Salad would already be out. I was wrong. I ended up on the sidewalk waiting for him...or anybody that was considered my friend to come out. Lara was the first one out and we talked for a little, Chris was next and he waited with us. Then Angie and Will came out and we were talking and joking when Salad and his friend "Ray" came out and walked towards us. When they were right nearby, without thinking, I started talking to Salad about how violent he and the other guys were in soccer, to which he responded that I ran over him and kicked him...several times (I swear I didn't) and then just as he and Ray had begun to walk away, I turned back towards my friends they stared quietly at me for a second and then Will spoke up and asked me why I didn't kiss him right then and there while he was right in my grasp.
Truthfully, while I was talking to Salad, all I could think about was talking to him...not the bet. I didn't chicken out!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
The Failure...(#1)
No, I did not kiss Salad which is why this post is called The Failure. (by the way #1 means I have a pretty good feeling this won't be the last time.) I didn't chicken out I swear! But Frank diverted my attention so I had to run down the hall and hit him, then run in the opposite direction. By the time I got downstairs, I saw Salad go into homeroom. So it wasn't my fault okay?
I did talk to Aaron and Will though, they said I have until the end of the month to kiss him...or else. We haven't figured out what the or else is yet but we will by tomorrow. Of course just as they were bothering me about loving Salad, to which I answered that I don't believe in love...only like. Salad walked out the door. Just my luck huh? And just as I was walking away, the three guys started talking, so I started cursing them out under my breath.
Thankfully...Salad did not bring me up in the conversation, nor did he ask what we were talking about. Aaron says he doesn't think Salad knows what is going on but he isn't completely sure. Just goes to show you...guys can be great sometimes...but keeping secrets? You need certain guys for that...and certain secrets...liking somebody...yeah...that's not exactly one of them...especially when the guy is one of your guy friend's friends.
Aside from Aaron and Will...who really didn't bring up my failure...the only person who brought it up was George who took my silence as a no before I could explain...I did end up explaining...and yes, he did laugh.
Thursday is my next try...let's see if I do it right this time.
I did talk to Aaron and Will though, they said I have until the end of the month to kiss him...or else. We haven't figured out what the or else is yet but we will by tomorrow. Of course just as they were bothering me about loving Salad, to which I answered that I don't believe in love...only like. Salad walked out the door. Just my luck huh? And just as I was walking away, the three guys started talking, so I started cursing them out under my breath.
Thankfully...Salad did not bring me up in the conversation, nor did he ask what we were talking about. Aaron says he doesn't think Salad knows what is going on but he isn't completely sure. Just goes to show you...guys can be great sometimes...but keeping secrets? You need certain guys for that...and certain secrets...liking somebody...yeah...that's not exactly one of them...especially when the guy is one of your guy friend's friends.
Aside from Aaron and Will...who really didn't bring up my failure...the only person who brought it up was George who took my silence as a no before I could explain...I did end up explaining...and yes, he did laugh.
Thursday is my next try...let's see if I do it right this time.
Monday, January 7, 2008
My Decision...
After a very long and hard thinking session...all weekend...I came up with no choice for that bet, despite the fact that I was probably being hinted at a certain answer the whole time.
I came up with a decision today though...during math. After Kate told me that in the future I'd be making harder decisions that will affect my life more, after Angie told me not to bring myself down, that he might like me, after Salad and I had a conversation...a short conversation which made me realize that our friendship wasn't that great anyway...but his skin is soft...very soft..., and after I talked to Frank and George...
But it wasn't until I learned that Will had no intentions to give him the book in the first place that I really came up with my decision...
You see, my whole life...I've been playing it safe, I would never fall for a guy for fear of being hurt, I always tried to do what I was told, and I had always kept quiet, even when I had a problem. Not anymore. New friends, new life. I can't change the past, and you can't repeat the past but you can use the past against yourself to force yourself into doing something different. I thought about how I wanted to get back at Cael for everything he did, and how I would always help Brie with her love problems but never thought about my own love problems.
I'm going to do it...I'm going to kiss Salad, life's too short you know? And if Angie could muster up enough courage to ask Bancurra out...I could muster up enough courage to kiss Salad, which would not only make me happy but would earn me a lot more respect than I'm used to. My friendship with Salad might be strained or broken, but at least I could say that I kissed him...it might not be a "real" kiss but it's better than nothing...right?
Now to muster up enough courage to actually kiss him.
I came up with a decision today though...during math. After Kate told me that in the future I'd be making harder decisions that will affect my life more, after Angie told me not to bring myself down, that he might like me, after Salad and I had a conversation...a short conversation which made me realize that our friendship wasn't that great anyway...but his skin is soft...very soft..., and after I talked to Frank and George...
But it wasn't until I learned that Will had no intentions to give him the book in the first place that I really came up with my decision...
You see, my whole life...I've been playing it safe, I would never fall for a guy for fear of being hurt, I always tried to do what I was told, and I had always kept quiet, even when I had a problem. Not anymore. New friends, new life. I can't change the past, and you can't repeat the past but you can use the past against yourself to force yourself into doing something different. I thought about how I wanted to get back at Cael for everything he did, and how I would always help Brie with her love problems but never thought about my own love problems.
I'm going to do it...I'm going to kiss Salad, life's too short you know? And if Angie could muster up enough courage to ask Bancurra out...I could muster up enough courage to kiss Salad, which would not only make me happy but would earn me a lot more respect than I'm used to. My friendship with Salad might be strained or broken, but at least I could say that I kissed him...it might not be a "real" kiss but it's better than nothing...right?
Now to muster up enough courage to actually kiss him.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Boys, Boys, Boys...
Boys...what can I say about them? Aside from the fact that I hang out with WAY too many of them? Um...how about the guys I know...are all FUCKING CRAZY! (yes that is the only way to describe them...and since I am too lazy to describe my whole day, let's put this in parts.)
Will
So...I mentioned earlier that we had this bet and I figured he wouldn't remember. Was I wrong or what? The stakes are really high now. If I don't kiss Salad on Tuesday right before homeroom with Will present, on Wednesday, he is going to give Salad a story which has um...very perverted thoughts on it...which he will pass off as mine. If I do kiss him, the story doesn't go out and Will shuts up for a week. Sounds easy doesn't it? I get to kiss the guy I like, and the most annoying guy I know shuts up during math class. I wish it were that easy. Salad and I just rebuilt our friendship, we have a fluctuating relationship, sometimes we're up, sometimes we're down...and he's just getting over Chrissy...the odds are not in my favor here.
Salad
Speaking of Salad...we had chem today and he and Frank spent the whole class talking. Salad and I were talking after class and he showed me what he and Frank were doing all period. Apparently, they were playing with Salad's mp3 player thing where they can edit pictures, so they were making a montage of their favorite things. Apparently, Frank likes soccer, girls, beer and some other things that I can't remember, and Salad likes soccer, music, girls...and some other stuff that I can't remember. Yeah...I don't remember everything, I just remember that we were close together, leaning over one little mp3 player...heads almost touching... *sigh* ...but not quite.
George
My first encounter with George today was when he was dancing outside our chemistry classroom waiting for the bell to ring while trying to get Wren's attention so she could get Frank's attention. I didn't see him again until lunch where he was just as crazy as ever, we were playing a game similar to spin the bottle (but it was more like spin the weight) and Frank kept landing on him, so George tried to make himself look available.
Frank
And when Frank wasn't getting George, he was getting me. We just looked at each other, he didn't even bother pretend, and I didn't even bother look available...not like George at least. Eh...basically I told his story through everybody else.
Nate
Wow Nate and Pi actually sat with us today...I guess we are the closest things they have to friends. So far today he seemed to be one of the coolest guys. He asked about journalism, I said I loved it and he told me that he always thought I seemed like the journalist type.
Pi
I think this is the first time I ever mentioned him...he's this guy who goes to my church and my high school. He plays tennis with Nate and they are good friends...and we have pretty much ignored each other for most of our lives...even though we had art and lunch together this year. So anyway today we talked a little bit since he came to our table today, actually he insulted me...in German. He called me a slut/tramp (that was the definition) so I went over and slapped him...you know all the guys I know do the same thing when they don't want to get hit. They put their hoodies up and put their heads on the table.
John
So yesterday Angie asked John out, and today right before lunch I was going up to Angie and she practically ran over to me and told me that John came up to her and said, "you look hot" and she couldn't stop smiling. Then when she went for an answer at the end of the day, he told her that he couldn't have a girlfriend because he only wanted to think about his grades right now and his last girlfriend distracted him from his schoolwork. Angie was sort of hurt...but we both agreed that she should go home and drown her sorrows in music.
So these are the guys I interacted with today...I didn't really get a chance to talk to Aaron...all I really said to him was "it's all your fault Aaron" because of the bet, and Salad chimed in and said, "Yeah Aaron it's all your fault" poor Aaron...and he forgot too...I should have cut him more slack.
Will
So...I mentioned earlier that we had this bet and I figured he wouldn't remember. Was I wrong or what? The stakes are really high now. If I don't kiss Salad on Tuesday right before homeroom with Will present, on Wednesday, he is going to give Salad a story which has um...very perverted thoughts on it...which he will pass off as mine. If I do kiss him, the story doesn't go out and Will shuts up for a week. Sounds easy doesn't it? I get to kiss the guy I like, and the most annoying guy I know shuts up during math class. I wish it were that easy. Salad and I just rebuilt our friendship, we have a fluctuating relationship, sometimes we're up, sometimes we're down...and he's just getting over Chrissy...the odds are not in my favor here.
Salad
Speaking of Salad...we had chem today and he and Frank spent the whole class talking. Salad and I were talking after class and he showed me what he and Frank were doing all period. Apparently, they were playing with Salad's mp3 player thing where they can edit pictures, so they were making a montage of their favorite things. Apparently, Frank likes soccer, girls, beer and some other things that I can't remember, and Salad likes soccer, music, girls...and some other stuff that I can't remember. Yeah...I don't remember everything, I just remember that we were close together, leaning over one little mp3 player...heads almost touching... *sigh* ...but not quite.
George
My first encounter with George today was when he was dancing outside our chemistry classroom waiting for the bell to ring while trying to get Wren's attention so she could get Frank's attention. I didn't see him again until lunch where he was just as crazy as ever, we were playing a game similar to spin the bottle (but it was more like spin the weight) and Frank kept landing on him, so George tried to make himself look available.
Frank
And when Frank wasn't getting George, he was getting me. We just looked at each other, he didn't even bother pretend, and I didn't even bother look available...not like George at least. Eh...basically I told his story through everybody else.
Nate
Wow Nate and Pi actually sat with us today...I guess we are the closest things they have to friends. So far today he seemed to be one of the coolest guys. He asked about journalism, I said I loved it and he told me that he always thought I seemed like the journalist type.
Pi
I think this is the first time I ever mentioned him...he's this guy who goes to my church and my high school. He plays tennis with Nate and they are good friends...and we have pretty much ignored each other for most of our lives...even though we had art and lunch together this year. So anyway today we talked a little bit since he came to our table today, actually he insulted me...in German. He called me a slut/tramp (that was the definition) so I went over and slapped him...you know all the guys I know do the same thing when they don't want to get hit. They put their hoodies up and put their heads on the table.
John
So yesterday Angie asked John out, and today right before lunch I was going up to Angie and she practically ran over to me and told me that John came up to her and said, "you look hot" and she couldn't stop smiling. Then when she went for an answer at the end of the day, he told her that he couldn't have a girlfriend because he only wanted to think about his grades right now and his last girlfriend distracted him from his schoolwork. Angie was sort of hurt...but we both agreed that she should go home and drown her sorrows in music.
So these are the guys I interacted with today...I didn't really get a chance to talk to Aaron...all I really said to him was "it's all your fault Aaron" because of the bet, and Salad chimed in and said, "Yeah Aaron it's all your fault" poor Aaron...and he forgot too...I should have cut him more slack.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
I Told You So
Yesterday I said today would be interesting...especially gym class. And guess what? I was right.
It all started in gym class...when we were playing soccer. Angie chickened out at first and wouldn't talk to John or ask him out. So then we started playing soccer, and unfortunately for me, Salad and I were on the same team. I know what your thinking, you are wondering, "Wait...doesn't she like Salad? Why doesn't she want him on her team?"
and for a great question, there is a great answer! You see I do still like Salad (although Will believes I am in love with him because after all this time, I still like him and I get a rush whenever I'm around him.) but the point of soccer is for me to take the ball away from him, I can't do that if he's on my soccer team! It ruins the purpose! I can't gloat if we're on the same team. I even said that to him...well not those exact words. All I said was that it wouldn't be as fun...I think he was kind of hurt by that...but whatever. Surprisingly...Salad and I make a pretty good team and the game ended up tied 2-2 and we both took a few shots on goal, but I headed the ball several times and together with "J.M" and J we ruled the field for our team. Unfortunately Kat and her friend Mar joined in too, the guys humored them a little and let them kick the ball a few times but not really much. And then further into the game, Chris got hit by the ball in the gut and was on the ground so Aaron had to step in as our goalie, but Chris came back later.
So, knowing that Angie wouldn't tell John how she felt about him, or ask him out...I made a deal with Will that I would kiss Salad. I had a feeling I would at least have a day so I wouldn't have to worry about it until Monday...but no...she talked to him during 9th period (when I couldn't get to her) and when I saw them walking together after school, I knew I was too late. Then everybody found out and now I have to to this dare thing...with Aaron and Will present. This is not going to go well...
It all started in gym class...when we were playing soccer. Angie chickened out at first and wouldn't talk to John or ask him out. So then we started playing soccer, and unfortunately for me, Salad and I were on the same team. I know what your thinking, you are wondering, "Wait...doesn't she like Salad? Why doesn't she want him on her team?"
and for a great question, there is a great answer! You see I do still like Salad (although Will believes I am in love with him because after all this time, I still like him and I get a rush whenever I'm around him.) but the point of soccer is for me to take the ball away from him, I can't do that if he's on my soccer team! It ruins the purpose! I can't gloat if we're on the same team. I even said that to him...well not those exact words. All I said was that it wouldn't be as fun...I think he was kind of hurt by that...but whatever. Surprisingly...Salad and I make a pretty good team and the game ended up tied 2-2 and we both took a few shots on goal, but I headed the ball several times and together with "J.M" and J we ruled the field for our team. Unfortunately Kat and her friend Mar joined in too, the guys humored them a little and let them kick the ball a few times but not really much. And then further into the game, Chris got hit by the ball in the gut and was on the ground so Aaron had to step in as our goalie, but Chris came back later.
So, knowing that Angie wouldn't tell John how she felt about him, or ask him out...I made a deal with Will that I would kiss Salad. I had a feeling I would at least have a day so I wouldn't have to worry about it until Monday...but no...she talked to him during 9th period (when I couldn't get to her) and when I saw them walking together after school, I knew I was too late. Then everybody found out and now I have to to this dare thing...with Aaron and Will present. This is not going to go well...
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Crammed in a Room with my Past and Present
Even as I remind myself of this, I tell myself that it could have been worse...much worse.
You see it started out as a typical day in my life and high school...except for the fact that nobody really got a chance to sleep last night, but I walked up to Global with Chloe and to my horror Cael, Nate and Rayna were there. And once Brie entered the classroom, I did the first thing that came to mind. I flaunted my present in front of my past...sort of. I really just hugged Aaron.
Cael and Nate stayed a little longer, long enough to have short conversations with Rayna and Brie before they left.
It still hurt though...because for those of you who don't know, Rayna, Brie, Cael and Nate used to be my best friends at school. We did a lot together, we went shopping, went to movies...you know stuff like that. We were close, or I thought we were, even though they unintentionally (maybe intentionally) brought down my self esteem by saying that they were better than me (without actually saying those words most of the time).
And then one day Cael dropped me, and slowly the rest of them went too, they took me out of their mall plans and movie plans and replaced me with other people, and even when I reconciled with them for whatever I did, things weren't that great. And things haven't been better since they all left me in September, two of them try to act like they didn't but they rarely, talk to me and when they do, it usually isn't for very long.
So needless to say being crammed in a room with those four people wasn't exactly my favorite moment, especially since my "replacements" were in the same room too. I felt sick the whole rest of the day.
You see it started out as a typical day in my life and high school...except for the fact that nobody really got a chance to sleep last night, but I walked up to Global with Chloe and to my horror Cael, Nate and Rayna were there. And once Brie entered the classroom, I did the first thing that came to mind. I flaunted my present in front of my past...sort of. I really just hugged Aaron.
Cael and Nate stayed a little longer, long enough to have short conversations with Rayna and Brie before they left.
It still hurt though...because for those of you who don't know, Rayna, Brie, Cael and Nate used to be my best friends at school. We did a lot together, we went shopping, went to movies...you know stuff like that. We were close, or I thought we were, even though they unintentionally (maybe intentionally) brought down my self esteem by saying that they were better than me (without actually saying those words most of the time).
And then one day Cael dropped me, and slowly the rest of them went too, they took me out of their mall plans and movie plans and replaced me with other people, and even when I reconciled with them for whatever I did, things weren't that great. And things haven't been better since they all left me in September, two of them try to act like they didn't but they rarely, talk to me and when they do, it usually isn't for very long.
So needless to say being crammed in a room with those four people wasn't exactly my favorite moment, especially since my "replacements" were in the same room too. I felt sick the whole rest of the day.
This Should Be Interesting...
So today was the first day back at school. And guess what? Nobody slept.
Everybody was up late, most were trying to go to sleep but just couldn't, others just didn't even bother.
And it showed.
On a typical day in school, my mornings are spent talking to Kate, Angie, Aaron, Frank and Salad. Today though...it wasn't like that. the guys only talked to the guys and the girls only talked to the girls. It took Aaron over an hour to hug me when it usually takes a couple minutes. Frank didn't talk to me until lunch...and Salad and I pretty much ignored each other once again.
Thankfully tomorrow is a gym day...or at least I think this should be thankfully. Because I have a feeling this gym class will be VERY interesting.
Because, you see at the beginning of the year my friend Angie had this HUGE crush on John and right before I started this blog she decided she didn't like him like that (hence the reason this is the first time anybody is reading about this) but today she asks me, "When do you see John?"
"Why?" I asked her, eyebrow arched.
"Just tell me when you see him." Angie answered.
"Between 4th and 5th, and/or 5th and 6th" I said.
"Can you ask him if he is dating anybody or if he likes anybody for me?" she asks me.
"Okay..." I say slowly.
And since I am a good friend who always "helps out" in my friends love lives I do approach John and ask him if he is dating anybody and if he likes anybody. He tells me that he isn't dating anybody and that he likes his friends, then we parted before he could find out who likes him.
Then Chris asked me if I wanted to go to this dance thing. I have only been to one once but I had a lot of fun and I am thinking about going again, but before I started my homework I thought about it, and came up with the idea of Salad tagging along so he can get over Chrissy. I mean at this dance there is slow dancing and there are a lot of eligible girls who would love for somebody like Salad to dance with her. So...maybe it would help. All I would have to do is convince Chris to allow Salad to come with us, and convince Salad to come with us. Or I could throw my own party...that would be...interesting-er.
And so...since my gym class features yours truly, Kate, Angie, John, Chris, Frank, Aaron, Chrissy, Sherry, Kay, Wren, Salad, Lyle, Laquan and Lara...with all the drama...there doesn't seem to be any time for soccer!
So Gym class tomorrow...will be VERY interesting.
Everybody was up late, most were trying to go to sleep but just couldn't, others just didn't even bother.
And it showed.
On a typical day in school, my mornings are spent talking to Kate, Angie, Aaron, Frank and Salad. Today though...it wasn't like that. the guys only talked to the guys and the girls only talked to the girls. It took Aaron over an hour to hug me when it usually takes a couple minutes. Frank didn't talk to me until lunch...and Salad and I pretty much ignored each other once again.
Thankfully tomorrow is a gym day...or at least I think this should be thankfully. Because I have a feeling this gym class will be VERY interesting.
Because, you see at the beginning of the year my friend Angie had this HUGE crush on John and right before I started this blog she decided she didn't like him like that (hence the reason this is the first time anybody is reading about this) but today she asks me, "When do you see John?"
"Why?" I asked her, eyebrow arched.
"Just tell me when you see him." Angie answered.
"Between 4th and 5th, and/or 5th and 6th" I said.
"Can you ask him if he is dating anybody or if he likes anybody for me?" she asks me.
"Okay..." I say slowly.
And since I am a good friend who always "helps out" in my friends love lives I do approach John and ask him if he is dating anybody and if he likes anybody. He tells me that he isn't dating anybody and that he likes his friends, then we parted before he could find out who likes him.
Then Chris asked me if I wanted to go to this dance thing. I have only been to one once but I had a lot of fun and I am thinking about going again, but before I started my homework I thought about it, and came up with the idea of Salad tagging along so he can get over Chrissy. I mean at this dance there is slow dancing and there are a lot of eligible girls who would love for somebody like Salad to dance with her. So...maybe it would help. All I would have to do is convince Chris to allow Salad to come with us, and convince Salad to come with us. Or I could throw my own party...that would be...interesting-er.
And so...since my gym class features yours truly, Kate, Angie, John, Chris, Frank, Aaron, Chrissy, Sherry, Kay, Wren, Salad, Lyle, Laquan and Lara...with all the drama...there doesn't seem to be any time for soccer!
So Gym class tomorrow...will be VERY interesting.
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