Teardrops on My Guitar

You may be wondering why I'm posting a video of Taylor Swift on my blog because I'm not even much of a Country music fan. But I heard this song a few weeks ago and it just started going through my head today. Why?

Well here's my little story...

Today started out to be a normal day, it was rainy and sort of warm and it was a Thursday...and Thursday's are my favorite day of the week because my favorite shows Smallville, Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy come on today so I usually can't wait to watch them. But today I realized that I have to work a lot on my graphic organizer for Global because it is due tomorrow, and I haven't completely finished it yet (but at least I'm ahead of most of the class...who didn't even finish the book yet) That wasn't the worst of my problems though, during the break between my double chem class I talked to a couple of my friends and then talked to Salad. I told him that I was going to Texas, I meant for it to be a joke but apparently he knew before I said anything that I was joking. (Stupid Frank!) You know here's our little dialogue.
S = Salad
Me = me (duh)

Me: Hey Salad, I've got good news for you.
S: What?
Me: I'm going to Texas.
S: For Thanksgiving?
Me: No I'm moving there.
S: *not at all convinced* Really?
Me: No, I've just been telling people that as a joke.
S: Hey I need to talk to you 4th period...or between 4th and 5th.
Me: Good because I need to talk to you too.

And that's really the end of that conversation, I went over to Frank told him I needed to tell him something but before I could say anything Angie and Kate pulled me over to talk to them.

So blah blah blah, I couldn't wait to get out of all my classes so I could go see Salad, even though I knew very well that he was going to say something like, "I don't want to break your heart or anything" and then I would say, "After what my friend Cael did to me I don't think my heart can break."

But I was really, really wrong. So I walked the way I usually walk to see Salad between 4th and 5th and when I got to that hallway I slowed down because so far I hadn't seen him. 'Oh great, he bailed on me..." was my first thought when I didn't see him. So I continued walking and surprise surprise I passed Cael and Nick as they were coming out of their class, so I said hey to Nick but not Cael (I'm not stupid here) and when Salad finally came by I was so grateful because Nick and Cael were right nearby (I'll explain later) I was waiting for him to say that he didn't like me like that or if I was extremely lucky: I like you too.

But I wasn't prepared for what happened next...

So we started talking, and he told me that he was caught off guard with my comment because he thought of me as a good friend that he could play soccer with and that he liked another girl in our chem class but even after much prodding he wouldn't tell me who the girl is!

Okay so that doesn't sound that bad because after all we are friends and we are talking to each other but the issue is coming up soon, I promise.

So I went to lunch later on and sat with Frank and George (after Frank had shaven George's head so instead of the sort of long hair he used to have, he has a Mohawk now. That's not the problem though) and now instead of it being the three of us, there are three other girls there who the guys like to bother and while two of the girls were wrestling with Frank and George, all of Salad's words came back to me...most of all: "Your my good friend"

That's when I realized something. In the past I had so many guy friends and if I ever started to develop feelings for them, I was jolted back to reality when I found out that they liked another girl. It has happened with every one of my guy friends, even the guys I don't like, like another girl better than me! Doesn't that suck? I'll always be some guy's "good friend" but I'll never be close enough to be considered his "girl friend." So much for getting a boyfriend this year, I doubt that'll happen with my luck with guys.