Okay so yesterday I broke the news to Will that Salad told me he liked two other girls and neither of them were me.
Now Will is a good friend and I knew he would be angry when he heard that (Most of my friends would...come to think of it) so I told him not to tell anybody and not to beat him up or inflict any harm on him in any way, then at the end of math class I took the note, stuffed it in my backpack and threw it out once I got home.
But it wasn't just telling him about me and Salad...there was something else to it...Will asked me to...get this...MARRY HIM! Now I saw that and I was stunned, I learned last month that in 8th grade he had liked me (I didn't believe him though) but since he has two girlfriends (who are both dating him and each other) and I liked other boys, I figured he was over me. Apparently not. I told him no, and he asked me why not.
Now understand that yesterday all my friends were asking about Salad, for awhile it was a quiet topic but yesterday there was nothing quiet about it. Rose asked about him, and I told her that we decided to just be friends, this annoying kid in my math class asked the same question, to which I replied with the same answer, and now this...
Truthfully I wasn't (and still am not) completely over him, I don't know why exactly but it is taking me a long time to get over him. I couldn't let anybody know that I was broken up about this because I didn't want that kind of cooing and coddling (same with my secret) so I just said that I liked somebody else.
It wasn't a complete lie, I do like somebody else but I know I don't have a shot with him so it won't last long but at least it's something to tell 'em.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Take Me Away
Today was...eh...I wouldn't say uneventful but I wouldn't say that it was particularly great.
So Salad and I are definitely friends, Aaron and Frank once again...present for that...of course hanging out with those three, making deals, and stuff made me late for homeroom. But who cares? It's homeroom, everybody is late for homeroom.
Yeah...not much else really happened. I started working on "Your Winter" and I got a few people reading it and actually enjoying it. So that is an accomplishment...and George wasn't there so for lunch it was me, Frank, Rose and another girl "Joellyn" and we had fun.
And I learned something this week, hot sauce, ketchup and mustard makes an addicting combo.
Other than that...yeah...I've got nothing.
So Salad and I are definitely friends, Aaron and Frank once again...present for that...of course hanging out with those three, making deals, and stuff made me late for homeroom. But who cares? It's homeroom, everybody is late for homeroom.
Yeah...not much else really happened. I started working on "Your Winter" and I got a few people reading it and actually enjoying it. So that is an accomplishment...and George wasn't there so for lunch it was me, Frank, Rose and another girl "Joellyn" and we had fun.
And I learned something this week, hot sauce, ketchup and mustard makes an addicting combo.
Other than that...yeah...I've got nothing.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Strength Test
Okay, as you all may or may not know, most of my friends are guys so yes, I do have to be pretty tough to survive. (I still get bruises though, my first week eating lunch with Frank and George, I ended up with a huge bruise on my leg and right now I have a cut on my finger.) Today the debate on men vs women came up during lunch and strength didn't really get involved.
You see, I am a soccer player (if I wasn't then I probably wouldn't be talking to or be friends with Salad, Frank or Aaron) and Frank mentioned to George at lunch that there would be an indoor soccer season this winter...for guys. So I said that I wanted to go and they told me that I couldn't go because I was a girl and girls can't play soccer...you know maybe I should just make a script thing:
F = Frank
A = Me
G = George
F- Did you hear there is an indoor soccer team this winter? You should try out for goalie (to me) He's a great goalie.
G- I used to be the best. Unlike you I'm sure.
A- True...I suck at being goalie, but I'm a good soccer player.
G- But you can't go.
F- Yeah because you're a girl.
A- I play better than most boys.
F- True.
A- I'm gonna go.
G- You're a girl.
A- I'll disguise myself as a guy, I'll put a wig on and I'll wear one of Frank's shirts.
G- No!
Anyway as you can imagine this went on and on. Now that I think about it, even though girls are considered to be less physically fit than guys are, they aren't. Frank and George joked that if we ever had a woman president it would be terrible because women are too emotional. That's not entirely true but here's my look on it:
Boys
1) don't think as much
2) rely on girls for some things
3) They barely wait to go to the bathroom!
4) Are considered to be "dominant"
5) Are paid a normal salary
6) ROBOTS!
7) Can stand some pain.
Girls
1) over analyze, think constantly
2) Usually have to do those some things
3) They wait for hours just to go to the bathroom!
4) Crawled our way up from being the "underdog" we now have just as many rights as the guys do.
5) Are paid about .375 cents less than men.
6) Unlike boys, girls have emotions and they do use them.
7) Seriously? They go through a lot more pain than boys could ever imagine!
I'm sure there are plenty more things to add but I really can't think of any more right now. Comment if you have any other ideas that I can add to this.
Anyway...as you can see what girls don't have with muscles they make up for with in brains and emotion. They have more passion than a guy will ever see...besides, most guys are sexist, good for nothing losers who need to be kept on a chain by the girls.
I have a few examples for that based on my own experiences.
Nick- "Oh yeah, we're best friends." puh-lease he spent more time with the girls who hate my guts than he did with me yet still claimed we were close.
John- I mentioned before that he's overly flirtatious, especially with me and my friends, sex talk comes up a lot when it comes to him.
Frank- Read The Rant Above.
George- See Frank's and do what it says.
Salad- ...after a lot of thought I came up with: He didn't tell me that he liked somebody despite the fact that we were "good friends" he waited until after I embarrassed myself in front of 3 of my guy friends to say that and then tells me he likes another girl and after he feeds me all that information he ignores me just like Cael did...like other guys have or are doing now...
Cael- Okay...Cael and I were best friends for about 6 or 7 years and he ditched me to hang out with the girls who hate my guts for several reasons, that I will put up here at a later date.
Aaron- Can be very touchy-feely, which kind of bugs me.
Chris- Flirtatious, show-offy annoying person, who has been annoying me since he moved to my neighborhood when I was like...6.
Will- TOO MUCH SEX TALK! That's like all he talks about and after awhile it's soo annoying!
You see, I am a soccer player (if I wasn't then I probably wouldn't be talking to or be friends with Salad, Frank or Aaron) and Frank mentioned to George at lunch that there would be an indoor soccer season this winter...for guys. So I said that I wanted to go and they told me that I couldn't go because I was a girl and girls can't play soccer...you know maybe I should just make a script thing:
F = Frank
A = Me
G = George
F- Did you hear there is an indoor soccer team this winter? You should try out for goalie (to me) He's a great goalie.
G- I used to be the best. Unlike you I'm sure.
A- True...I suck at being goalie, but I'm a good soccer player.
G- But you can't go.
F- Yeah because you're a girl.
A- I play better than most boys.
F- True.
A- I'm gonna go.
G- You're a girl.
A- I'll disguise myself as a guy, I'll put a wig on and I'll wear one of Frank's shirts.
G- No!
Anyway as you can imagine this went on and on. Now that I think about it, even though girls are considered to be less physically fit than guys are, they aren't. Frank and George joked that if we ever had a woman president it would be terrible because women are too emotional. That's not entirely true but here's my look on it:
Boys
1) don't think as much
2) rely on girls for some things
3) They barely wait to go to the bathroom!
4) Are considered to be "dominant"
5) Are paid a normal salary
6) ROBOTS!
7) Can stand some pain.
Girls
1) over analyze, think constantly
2) Usually have to do those some things
3) They wait for hours just to go to the bathroom!
4) Crawled our way up from being the "underdog" we now have just as many rights as the guys do.
5) Are paid about .375 cents less than men.
6) Unlike boys, girls have emotions and they do use them.
7) Seriously? They go through a lot more pain than boys could ever imagine!
I'm sure there are plenty more things to add but I really can't think of any more right now. Comment if you have any other ideas that I can add to this.
Anyway...as you can see what girls don't have with muscles they make up for with in brains and emotion. They have more passion than a guy will ever see...besides, most guys are sexist, good for nothing losers who need to be kept on a chain by the girls.
I have a few examples for that based on my own experiences.
Nick- "Oh yeah, we're best friends." puh-lease he spent more time with the girls who hate my guts than he did with me yet still claimed we were close.
John- I mentioned before that he's overly flirtatious, especially with me and my friends, sex talk comes up a lot when it comes to him.
Frank- Read The Rant Above.
George- See Frank's and do what it says.
Salad- ...after a lot of thought I came up with: He didn't tell me that he liked somebody despite the fact that we were "good friends" he waited until after I embarrassed myself in front of 3 of my guy friends to say that and then tells me he likes another girl and after he feeds me all that information he ignores me just like Cael did...like other guys have or are doing now...
Cael- Okay...Cael and I were best friends for about 6 or 7 years and he ditched me to hang out with the girls who hate my guts for several reasons, that I will put up here at a later date.
Aaron- Can be very touchy-feely, which kind of bugs me.
Chris- Flirtatious, show-offy annoying person, who has been annoying me since he moved to my neighborhood when I was like...6.
Will- TOO MUCH SEX TALK! That's like all he talks about and after awhile it's soo annoying!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Going Out of My Mind
I mentioned before that I was thinking about telling Salad my secret and my fears (Frank would hear more of my fears) but that didn't go as planned. I did go up and tell them that I needed to talk to them but we never got around to talking. Which is okay because I was beginning to have second thoughts about it.
I made up my mind though, tomorrow I will tell Salad my secret no matter what.
In the meantime...I've got homework and a lot of it I don't understand or I can't do, I need to do something therapeutic to do with my time, so tonight while Dwts is on, instead of writing, I think I'll draw something. The editor-in-chief of the school paper has been bugging me about my sketches (he says he really wants to see them) so maybe I'll do that and tomorrow I will get through everything that comes my way.
I made up my mind though, tomorrow I will tell Salad my secret no matter what.
In the meantime...I've got homework and a lot of it I don't understand or I can't do, I need to do something therapeutic to do with my time, so tonight while Dwts is on, instead of writing, I think I'll draw something. The editor-in-chief of the school paper has been bugging me about my sketches (he says he really wants to see them) so maybe I'll do that and tomorrow I will get through everything that comes my way.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Show Information
Since the writers strike, I've been trying to write a television series (that's sort of based on my life) so that the people of America will have a television show to tune into that isn't re-runs or reality because I would write the scripts even if I didn't make much or any money at all.
The show is called: "Your Winter" and it takes place in the fictional town of Winter Plains, New York. And unlike most other shows this show has more diversity (it has to if it's based off of a Poughkeepsie school) and maybe if the audience likes the show and the Arabella/Sal couple, I would write it in even if Salad and I didn't go together in reality. Hey I did say that it was based off of my life in 10th grade, I never said it went exactly as is. Of course some of the quotes are the same as they were in reality, especially if they are funny, it isn't as good if they aren't funny. Because reality is funny as well as dramatic, and the bad girl...doesn't have to be in every stinkin' episode, my main characters can cause enough trouble without her.
And of course the tagline: Who says Guys and Girls can't be friends?
Hmm...maybe the age old question will finally be answered.
The show is called: "Your Winter" and it takes place in the fictional town of Winter Plains, New York. And unlike most other shows this show has more diversity (it has to if it's based off of a Poughkeepsie school) and maybe if the audience likes the show and the Arabella/Sal couple, I would write it in even if Salad and I didn't go together in reality. Hey I did say that it was based off of my life in 10th grade, I never said it went exactly as is. Of course some of the quotes are the same as they were in reality, especially if they are funny, it isn't as good if they aren't funny. Because reality is funny as well as dramatic, and the bad girl...doesn't have to be in every stinkin' episode, my main characters can cause enough trouble without her.
And of course the tagline: Who says Guys and Girls can't be friends?
Hmm...maybe the age old question will finally be answered.
Home Again
So yesterday I got home at around 10:00 and I was so happy! New York and Texas are completely different and I really didn't like sharing a bed with my cousin because I barely know her and it was just weird sleeping in a bed with somebody you barely know.
I didn't get the chance to blog yesterday but can you blame me? After traveling for 11 hours I was exhausted and worried because I didn't want my mp3 player to run out of power before I reached home, otherwise it would be a long trip before I got home.
I took a few pictures of things that people wanted, like: the lone star, a pony, a cowboy boot, a cowboy hat etc. I don't know when I'll be able to show everybody their gifts and I haven't exactly thought about it. Right now there are other things I need to get through. After a lot of thought I decided that since I've bugged Salad enough about the girls he likes and his stuff maybe I should tell him something that a lot of other people have been trying to find out about. I've been thinking about telling him about it for awhile but I just now think that I'm ready to do it. I'm sure if I told Frank he would be skeptical about it since it is a touchy subject that has so many other problems attached to it. But over the break, on that one night where I had my cousin's room to myself I started thinking about that (probably because I had a nightmare about it the night before) and after much thought I decided that if anybody should know besides Frank (who already knows) it would have to be Salad, George and maybe Aaron...actually no...just Salad and George. Aaron would be just like Kate and Angie would and I don't want that, I want people who will still be the same around me, without worrying. And it's a known fact that boys are less likely to think about that stuff than girls are...they are less likely to care (Frank and Cael are perfect examples of that but they still reacted differently) which is fine because I'd probably cry if somebody kept asking me about it, and I don't want that. I've had the reputation of cry baby before and I don't want to get it again, which means I will stay strong and to stay strong I can't tell this to anybody who will make a big deal about it and will see me and try to make me feel good or will change what they do because I'm around.
I don't want that and I don't think I deserve that kind of compassion about this.
I didn't get the chance to blog yesterday but can you blame me? After traveling for 11 hours I was exhausted and worried because I didn't want my mp3 player to run out of power before I reached home, otherwise it would be a long trip before I got home.
I took a few pictures of things that people wanted, like: the lone star, a pony, a cowboy boot, a cowboy hat etc. I don't know when I'll be able to show everybody their gifts and I haven't exactly thought about it. Right now there are other things I need to get through. After a lot of thought I decided that since I've bugged Salad enough about the girls he likes and his stuff maybe I should tell him something that a lot of other people have been trying to find out about. I've been thinking about telling him about it for awhile but I just now think that I'm ready to do it. I'm sure if I told Frank he would be skeptical about it since it is a touchy subject that has so many other problems attached to it. But over the break, on that one night where I had my cousin's room to myself I started thinking about that (probably because I had a nightmare about it the night before) and after much thought I decided that if anybody should know besides Frank (who already knows) it would have to be Salad, George and maybe Aaron...actually no...just Salad and George. Aaron would be just like Kate and Angie would and I don't want that, I want people who will still be the same around me, without worrying. And it's a known fact that boys are less likely to think about that stuff than girls are...they are less likely to care (Frank and Cael are perfect examples of that but they still reacted differently) which is fine because I'd probably cry if somebody kept asking me about it, and I don't want that. I've had the reputation of cry baby before and I don't want to get it again, which means I will stay strong and to stay strong I can't tell this to anybody who will make a big deal about it and will see me and try to make me feel good or will change what they do because I'm around.
I don't want that and I don't think I deserve that kind of compassion about this.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Texas Bound part 3
Obviously, you aren't getting the full story on my trip here, but if you know me then you'll probably hear about all the key events later.
Anyway, here's today's "letter"
Dear everybody,
The other night my cousin got sick so I had the whole room to myself...and I ended up thinking a lot about you guys. Well...really only a few people in particular stuck out in my mind and I realized that I wasn't missing everybody back in Poughkeepsie...well I missed maybe 10 people (exactly 10 people not one more or one less) and I'm not going to make a list of people because the people who aren't on the list would be upset, and the people who are actually on the list would gloat. Anyway, so when I woke up the next morning I jumped in the shower, got dressed, ate breakfast and ran out of the house to go Black Friday shopping.
Now, as we all know shopping on Black Friday is hectic, I imagined it to be like it is in New York. People fighting over the last thing on the shelf and sleeping outside the mall at midnight. And since I left around 9:30-10:00, I expected to be fighting the crowds.
Was I wrong or what?
As I passed by some stores on the road, I noticed that the parking lots were borderline empty, and then I got to the closest mall (45 minutes away from my aunt and uncle's house) and there were plenty of parking spaces. It wasn't even that crowded in the stores! Actually, that's a lie, it got more crowded just as we were leaving so instead of going to get fast food like we had originally planned, we stopped at a hot dog stand right in the parking lot.
So we ate our hot dogs in the car and rushed to the museum to see the movie "Polar Express" in 3-D. The movie was okay, it was sort of boring but it was interesting watching the train ride in 3-D. It was after the movie that interested me, we went to the #1 bookstore in America (in the year 2005) and the people who worked there were amazing! One person who worked there gave me so many recommendations for books, I couldn't choose what books to buy with the money I had! I ended up only getting 2 books out of the 10 books I had originally picked out, and now I owe my parents $10 because of the money I borrowed from them to get my books, and since Wren's birthday is tomorrow, I figure I'd give her the bag from the bookstore.
So after the bookstore my whole family headed to the restaurant to eat dinner, I had chili and some of my brother's chicken while telling my family all about you guys...okay not all about every one of you but about a couple of you. Really I was just talking about how Frank and George were the craziest people I know right now. After dinner we went to the grocery store, well my parents, brother and I sat in the car while everybody else went to get banana's for desert. (Isn't that what George wanted from Texas?)
So, here I am now! In front of my computer listening to music, while typing up this letter so you guys know what I have been doing in Texas. Today ends the Texas Bound letters because at this time tomorrow, I'll be back at home relaxing after eating at my favorite restaurant. I'll miss Texas, but I'd probably miss it more if it were warmer here in Texas than it is in New York.
Missing 10 of you,
A
Anyway, here's today's "letter"
Dear everybody,
The other night my cousin got sick so I had the whole room to myself...and I ended up thinking a lot about you guys. Well...really only a few people in particular stuck out in my mind and I realized that I wasn't missing everybody back in Poughkeepsie...well I missed maybe 10 people (exactly 10 people not one more or one less) and I'm not going to make a list of people because the people who aren't on the list would be upset, and the people who are actually on the list would gloat. Anyway, so when I woke up the next morning I jumped in the shower, got dressed, ate breakfast and ran out of the house to go Black Friday shopping.
Now, as we all know shopping on Black Friday is hectic, I imagined it to be like it is in New York. People fighting over the last thing on the shelf and sleeping outside the mall at midnight. And since I left around 9:30-10:00, I expected to be fighting the crowds.
Was I wrong or what?
As I passed by some stores on the road, I noticed that the parking lots were borderline empty, and then I got to the closest mall (45 minutes away from my aunt and uncle's house) and there were plenty of parking spaces. It wasn't even that crowded in the stores! Actually, that's a lie, it got more crowded just as we were leaving so instead of going to get fast food like we had originally planned, we stopped at a hot dog stand right in the parking lot.
So we ate our hot dogs in the car and rushed to the museum to see the movie "Polar Express" in 3-D. The movie was okay, it was sort of boring but it was interesting watching the train ride in 3-D. It was after the movie that interested me, we went to the #1 bookstore in America (in the year 2005) and the people who worked there were amazing! One person who worked there gave me so many recommendations for books, I couldn't choose what books to buy with the money I had! I ended up only getting 2 books out of the 10 books I had originally picked out, and now I owe my parents $10 because of the money I borrowed from them to get my books, and since Wren's birthday is tomorrow, I figure I'd give her the bag from the bookstore.
So after the bookstore my whole family headed to the restaurant to eat dinner, I had chili and some of my brother's chicken while telling my family all about you guys...okay not all about every one of you but about a couple of you. Really I was just talking about how Frank and George were the craziest people I know right now. After dinner we went to the grocery store, well my parents, brother and I sat in the car while everybody else went to get banana's for desert. (Isn't that what George wanted from Texas?)
So, here I am now! In front of my computer listening to music, while typing up this letter so you guys know what I have been doing in Texas. Today ends the Texas Bound letters because at this time tomorrow, I'll be back at home relaxing after eating at my favorite restaurant. I'll miss Texas, but I'd probably miss it more if it were warmer here in Texas than it is in New York.
Missing 10 of you,
A
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Texas Bound part 2
Here is my second installment, in the four part "Texas Bound" series. Right now I have no idea why I am calling it Texas bound because I'm already here, I'm not heading for it.
Dear everybody,
Okay, so after all the events today, I haven't had too much time to work on my letters. Everybody else is doing something, and I just want a few minutes to myself. So far today, I watched 3 movies, kicked a soccer ball around in the cold for about half an hour, played video games, did some artwork, and I ate a full Thanksgiving meal and since it is my cuz's birthday, I had cookies for desert. It doesn't seem like a lot right now, but trust me, it's about 8:00 right now, and I woke up 11 hours ago. All of that has gotten me through the day.
Despite the fact that it's cold here, it is actually really nice...well, inside it is. It isn't exactly like I remember it but it's still nice here. I do miss having the companionship of other teenagers though but it's nice hanging out with my family...but I really don't like being asked "So what did you dream about last night?"
Good news though, I actually found some cacti! I'll bring a piece home with me and if I remember, I'll bring it to school. I haven't found much else though, but I'm going shopping tomorrow, on black Friday. I don't have any money but I figure I'd take a picture and maybe give Jordan a quote for his article on black Friday for the paper. Believe it or not, despite all I've done today, there really isn't anything else I want to write, except: I miss you guys...believe it or not...but, you know, last time I left the state I left things in pretty bad shape with my friends. None of them were talking to me, and I wasn't talking to them. Now...now, I've gotten rid of a couple of them (actually they got rid of me, but that isn't the point here) and I got friends that are...so much better. I mean, you guys know when I'm down and want to help me through whatever problems I have...and you make fun of my old best friends! And right now, I actually need that. Besides, over the summer, I gave up on boys and all hope of having a crush but right now...there are actually two boys that I like.
Can't wait to see all of you!
-A
Dear everybody,
Okay, so after all the events today, I haven't had too much time to work on my letters. Everybody else is doing something, and I just want a few minutes to myself. So far today, I watched 3 movies, kicked a soccer ball around in the cold for about half an hour, played video games, did some artwork, and I ate a full Thanksgiving meal and since it is my cuz's birthday, I had cookies for desert. It doesn't seem like a lot right now, but trust me, it's about 8:00 right now, and I woke up 11 hours ago. All of that has gotten me through the day.
Despite the fact that it's cold here, it is actually really nice...well, inside it is. It isn't exactly like I remember it but it's still nice here. I do miss having the companionship of other teenagers though but it's nice hanging out with my family...but I really don't like being asked "So what did you dream about last night?"
Good news though, I actually found some cacti! I'll bring a piece home with me and if I remember, I'll bring it to school. I haven't found much else though, but I'm going shopping tomorrow, on black Friday. I don't have any money but I figure I'd take a picture and maybe give Jordan a quote for his article on black Friday for the paper. Believe it or not, despite all I've done today, there really isn't anything else I want to write, except: I miss you guys...believe it or not...but, you know, last time I left the state I left things in pretty bad shape with my friends. None of them were talking to me, and I wasn't talking to them. Now...now, I've gotten rid of a couple of them (actually they got rid of me, but that isn't the point here) and I got friends that are...so much better. I mean, you guys know when I'm down and want to help me through whatever problems I have...and you make fun of my old best friends! And right now, I actually need that. Besides, over the summer, I gave up on boys and all hope of having a crush but right now...there are actually two boys that I like.
Can't wait to see all of you!
-A
Texas Bound part 1
Okay, so yesterday I took an 11 hour trip to Texas. It was about 2 hours in the car, another 2 or 3 hours waiting in the airport, a 4 hour flight to Texas, and then a 45 minute trip to my aunt and uncle's house. Every day of my trip I'll post a blurb on things that have happened so far and after I get home, I'll print it all out and show my friends what I really did in Texas. So maybe the next time I go I won't be bombarded with requests for guns and cowboy hats. (Although I did see a couple cow boy hats in the airport, but the store was closed and I left my money back at home.)
Anyway....
Dear everybody,
Hey what's up? I left the house at about 12:30 and believe it or not I was actually excited. I wanted to see everybody's look when they saw the list of "presents" and I also couldn't wait to see the family I never get to see and get out of Poughkeepsie. (Isn't that what we are all planning on doing sooner or later?) The car ride to the airport was extremely long, the car was hot and I was scrunched in the back between two people, but I was listening to my music so I was able to forget about the trip and focus on what I was listening to for a couple minutes. The airport was...well it was a different airport than I usually go to so I was in a word...lost. After about an hour of waiting to get all the luggage checked in, getting our boarding passes and getting through airport security, I was extremely hungry. The airport only had two places to eat, Burger King and Sam Adams. So we all got a seat and waited for something to eat. I think that waiting for food took as long as the car ride, and for what seemed like an hour wait for soda and a pizza, it wasn't that good.
After we ate, we went down to the gate where we were supposed to be waiting...only for me to learn that the plane was headed to Alabama. Who in their right mind would go to F***ing Alabama? What's in Alabama anyway? I was reassured though, that the plane would only be stopping there for 15 minutes to re-fuel at a stop and then go from Alabama to Texas. The flight was supposed to be at 5:30 and it didn't seem like there were any problems, but apparently there were because my flight was delayed until 8 that night and after we called my aunt and uncle to tell them that the flight was delayed 2 1/2 hours the flight time was changed to 6...and then 6:30.
I don't know the exact time we actually left the airport though, it was probably almost 7...and the trip to Alabama was harsh, there were a lot of winds so the plane was pushed around in the air a little bit, and the pizza? It wasn't sitting well. (Sorry to tell you guys this but I said I'd give the full story) The layover in Alabama was much longer than 15 minutes and we had to stay on the plane, so...sorry guys but I didn't get you any gifts from Alabama, I barely set foot in there anyway. After about an hour in Birmingham, Alabama the plane took off again, and this time it went to Austin, Texas.
The flight was less harsh than the last flight, but there were thunderstorms so it still wasn't exactly a smooth ride, but at least when we got the airport in Austin, we could find out luggage easily and could leave quickly. Then we began our trek to my aunt and uncles house, we got lost several times (maybe we should have bought neverlost for the trip) and finally ended up at their front door around 11:3o. Oh and before I forget...in the airport in Austin, there was a store that had a rack full of cowboy hats of all colors, if the store wasn't closed maybe I would have bought one...and in the same store there were a ton of cups, shirts and other miscellaneous objects with the words "Keep Austin Weird" painted on them, just thought you guys would get a kick out of that.
Sincerely,
A.
Anyway....
Dear everybody,
Hey what's up? I left the house at about 12:30 and believe it or not I was actually excited. I wanted to see everybody's look when they saw the list of "presents" and I also couldn't wait to see the family I never get to see and get out of Poughkeepsie. (Isn't that what we are all planning on doing sooner or later?) The car ride to the airport was extremely long, the car was hot and I was scrunched in the back between two people, but I was listening to my music so I was able to forget about the trip and focus on what I was listening to for a couple minutes. The airport was...well it was a different airport than I usually go to so I was in a word...lost. After about an hour of waiting to get all the luggage checked in, getting our boarding passes and getting through airport security, I was extremely hungry. The airport only had two places to eat, Burger King and Sam Adams. So we all got a seat and waited for something to eat. I think that waiting for food took as long as the car ride, and for what seemed like an hour wait for soda and a pizza, it wasn't that good.
After we ate, we went down to the gate where we were supposed to be waiting...only for me to learn that the plane was headed to Alabama. Who in their right mind would go to F***ing Alabama? What's in Alabama anyway? I was reassured though, that the plane would only be stopping there for 15 minutes to re-fuel at a stop and then go from Alabama to Texas. The flight was supposed to be at 5:30 and it didn't seem like there were any problems, but apparently there were because my flight was delayed until 8 that night and after we called my aunt and uncle to tell them that the flight was delayed 2 1/2 hours the flight time was changed to 6...and then 6:30.
I don't know the exact time we actually left the airport though, it was probably almost 7...and the trip to Alabama was harsh, there were a lot of winds so the plane was pushed around in the air a little bit, and the pizza? It wasn't sitting well. (Sorry to tell you guys this but I said I'd give the full story) The layover in Alabama was much longer than 15 minutes and we had to stay on the plane, so...sorry guys but I didn't get you any gifts from Alabama, I barely set foot in there anyway. After about an hour in Birmingham, Alabama the plane took off again, and this time it went to Austin, Texas.
The flight was less harsh than the last flight, but there were thunderstorms so it still wasn't exactly a smooth ride, but at least when we got the airport in Austin, we could find out luggage easily and could leave quickly. Then we began our trek to my aunt and uncles house, we got lost several times (maybe we should have bought neverlost for the trip) and finally ended up at their front door around 11:3o. Oh and before I forget...in the airport in Austin, there was a store that had a rack full of cowboy hats of all colors, if the store wasn't closed maybe I would have bought one...and in the same store there were a ton of cups, shirts and other miscellaneous objects with the words "Keep Austin Weird" painted on them, just thought you guys would get a kick out of that.
Sincerely,
A.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Stressed or not? You decide
Okay, so today had it's ups and it's downs, sometimes I felt so stressed out and just full out terrible but other times I felt calm and rejuvenated, and of course those guys made all the difference.
Frank and George
...The two of them can relax me and make me feel so much better no matter what. It's like a special trait they possess. They talk to me when I need to be talked to and make me laugh, but they know when to show up...unlike some people...who will remain unnamed. Although, we did talk about weight today and I felt extremely thin but other than that...no problems.
Chris and Salad
I don't know what they did more of...stressing me out or de-stressing me. Salad didn't come to chem, which we took a test in...a test I obviously failed. Which isn't exactly a problem...sort of. Anyway, so gym class came and he was having a long talk with "Sherry" at first I thought he liked her but now I have other ideas...which I will share tomorrow. Anyway, Salad finally came over when John and I were playing with the racquet's and asked, "Why didn't you start?" and then we all went to a net and played badminton...with Chris unfortunately. It was me, John and Chris versus Angie, Aaron, and Salad for most of the game. I got a lot of anger and frustration out until Chris suggested trading John for Salad. Now don't get me wrong, I do like Salad and he is a good badminton player but the point of this was to play against him, not with him. Then later on, Salad started giving me pointers, now I know I'm not perfect at the sport but seriously?! We didn't talk for weeks, then he tells me out of the blue that he likes a girl, then the next school day he tells me that he likes two girls but can't decide which he likes better and expects me to understand and be friends...which I want to be with him but it is still hard to watch the person you like tell you that he likes two other girls and then that you aren't trying hard enough, which became even harder when Chris and John totally ditched me and "Karl" and "Lyle" had to come and play on my side, which they suck and Lyle fell down at least 3 times, which Salad of course took advantage of.
And then to top it all off, a nightmare that I recently had kept replaying in my mind. ARGH!!!
Frank and George
...The two of them can relax me and make me feel so much better no matter what. It's like a special trait they possess. They talk to me when I need to be talked to and make me laugh, but they know when to show up...unlike some people...who will remain unnamed. Although, we did talk about weight today and I felt extremely thin but other than that...no problems.
Chris and Salad
I don't know what they did more of...stressing me out or de-stressing me. Salad didn't come to chem, which we took a test in...a test I obviously failed. Which isn't exactly a problem...sort of. Anyway, so gym class came and he was having a long talk with "Sherry" at first I thought he liked her but now I have other ideas...which I will share tomorrow. Anyway, Salad finally came over when John and I were playing with the racquet's and asked, "Why didn't you start?" and then we all went to a net and played badminton...with Chris unfortunately. It was me, John and Chris versus Angie, Aaron, and Salad for most of the game. I got a lot of anger and frustration out until Chris suggested trading John for Salad. Now don't get me wrong, I do like Salad and he is a good badminton player but the point of this was to play against him, not with him. Then later on, Salad started giving me pointers, now I know I'm not perfect at the sport but seriously?! We didn't talk for weeks, then he tells me out of the blue that he likes a girl, then the next school day he tells me that he likes two girls but can't decide which he likes better and expects me to understand and be friends...which I want to be with him but it is still hard to watch the person you like tell you that he likes two other girls and then that you aren't trying hard enough, which became even harder when Chris and John totally ditched me and "Karl" and "Lyle" had to come and play on my side, which they suck and Lyle fell down at least 3 times, which Salad of course took advantage of.
And then to top it all off, a nightmare that I recently had kept replaying in my mind. ARGH!!!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Recipe for Disaster
So most of my excitement today came from Chem. since that's where all the interesting stuff usually happens because it involves a recipe for disaster.
Recipe:
1 Salad
1 Frank
1 Aaron
1 Angie
1 Kay
1 Wren
1 Kate
1 Me
Dangerous Chemicals
A small enclosed space
(mix together for 41 minutes, until the bell rings then release)
Like I said. Recipe for disaster. But we had fun today, because we were originally supposed to have a test but it would have had to start right at the beginning of the period but there were only 5 people there so that idea was scratched. Instead the test was postponed until tomorrow and since she had nothing planned for us we basically just sat around and talked, until 2nd period when we saw a thermite reaction...but that only lasted for about 10 minutes.
Anyway, so it was definitely interesting. Salad and I actually had a couple real conversations, and it seems like we're friends again, Aaron and Frank thought I was crazy because I can easily "sit" on my feet without actually sitting, Kate, Angie and I were...ourselves. Aaron lifted up Kay and me, Wren bitched about our chem teacher and we all studied for our history test next period (or...like 8 of us did).
Then the big shocker...dun dun duh! So Frank and I have been bad people, I told Salad that he told me who he liked (it turned out that the girl was only one out of two girls he liked) and Frank told Salad that I asked if Salad was gay. Which seemed like a funny thing to say at the time...until Salad asked me if I seriously thought he was gay...which was sort of funny but at the same time it wasn't. But at least we're even now right? Even so, to be completely equal, Salad can get a few secrets about me from Frank, then all three of us will be equal and I can totally beat Salad at badminton tomorrow!
Recipe:
1 Salad
1 Frank
1 Aaron
1 Angie
1 Kay
1 Wren
1 Kate
1 Me
Dangerous Chemicals
A small enclosed space
(mix together for 41 minutes, until the bell rings then release)
Like I said. Recipe for disaster. But we had fun today, because we were originally supposed to have a test but it would have had to start right at the beginning of the period but there were only 5 people there so that idea was scratched. Instead the test was postponed until tomorrow and since she had nothing planned for us we basically just sat around and talked, until 2nd period when we saw a thermite reaction...but that only lasted for about 10 minutes.
Anyway, so it was definitely interesting. Salad and I actually had a couple real conversations, and it seems like we're friends again, Aaron and Frank thought I was crazy because I can easily "sit" on my feet without actually sitting, Kate, Angie and I were...ourselves. Aaron lifted up Kay and me, Wren bitched about our chem teacher and we all studied for our history test next period (or...like 8 of us did).
Then the big shocker...dun dun duh! So Frank and I have been bad people, I told Salad that he told me who he liked (it turned out that the girl was only one out of two girls he liked) and Frank told Salad that I asked if Salad was gay. Which seemed like a funny thing to say at the time...until Salad asked me if I seriously thought he was gay...which was sort of funny but at the same time it wasn't. But at least we're even now right? Even so, to be completely equal, Salad can get a few secrets about me from Frank, then all three of us will be equal and I can totally beat Salad at badminton tomorrow!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Tests, Tests, Tests...
So tomorrow I have several tests. My first and test and probably the one I am least prepared for is my chem test, then my history test and finally my math test, which I am sure I'll ace since this is easy stuff. But the test I'm most afraid and maybe even less prepared for than my chem test is my guy test.
I know, I've been talking about guys a lot lately but I'm a teenage girl...we talk about guys all the time! But this guy test isn't like other tests...I have to try to convince Salad that we should still be friends, tell him that the girl he likes may like him back (without telling him how I found out who he liked in the first place) and I have to tell him why I told him I liked him in the first place...without saying what really happened (because I had this dream a Wednesday night that the next person I told my deepest darkest secret to, would die.). So instead of worrying about Chemistry, I have Salad to worry about!
I know, I've been talking about guys a lot lately but I'm a teenage girl...we talk about guys all the time! But this guy test isn't like other tests...I have to try to convince Salad that we should still be friends, tell him that the girl he likes may like him back (without telling him how I found out who he liked in the first place) and I have to tell him why I told him I liked him in the first place...without saying what really happened (because I had this dream a Wednesday night that the next person I told my deepest darkest secret to, would die.). So instead of worrying about Chemistry, I have Salad to worry about!
Guys and Girls can't be friends? Wha?
So while surfing google on Mozilla Firefox, I typed in guys and girls when I was upset and one thing that came up was "Guys and Girls Can't be Friends" So naturally I clicked on that because most of my friends are guys.
Needless to say that I found a lot of interesting things about why guys and girls can't be friends and I realized something that was good. See a few posts ago, "Teardrops on my Guitar post" I quote that
But when I think about it now, maybe that's a good thing. Not many people can pull of a guy-girl friendship but for me, most of my friendships have been with guys and that's a good thing. Right? I mean, so far I've done pretty well with mostly guy friends and even if I liked a few of them for awhile...it doesn't mean I can't still be friends with them. Who needs to be #1? First is worst, second is best! That's how the rhyme goes and for most guys, I'm the #2 girl. In other words, not the girlfriend but a close friend that just so happens to be a girl.
Needless to say that I found a lot of interesting things about why guys and girls can't be friends and I realized something that was good. See a few posts ago, "Teardrops on my Guitar post" I quote that
"In the past I had so many guy friends and if I ever started to develop feelings for them, I was jolted back to reality when I found out that they liked another girl. It has happened with every one of my guy friends, even the guys I don't like, like another girl better than me! Doesn't that suck? I'll always be some guy's "good friend" but I'll never be close enough to be considered his 'girl friend.'"
But when I think about it now, maybe that's a good thing. Not many people can pull of a guy-girl friendship but for me, most of my friendships have been with guys and that's a good thing. Right? I mean, so far I've done pretty well with mostly guy friends and even if I liked a few of them for awhile...it doesn't mean I can't still be friends with them. Who needs to be #1? First is worst, second is best! That's how the rhyme goes and for most guys, I'm the #2 girl. In other words, not the girlfriend but a close friend that just so happens to be a girl.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Boys...good or bad?
So as we all know, I've been having guy problems lately, and I've done stuff like this before where I make lists, and after I make a list I feel a lot better about my subject...and my subject usually is the guys I know. So here is a list of reasons why boys can be good or bad.
The Good
Frank- Well...he listens to me, and is there when I need him...plus he gives me valuable information about the other guys I know.
George- He is one of the few people who can make me laugh when I'm having a hard time. He and Frank always make me feel better when I'm depressed.
Salad- When we were "good friends" (which we are going to become again) he was pretty sweet to me, he'd talk to me and was actually competitive with me during sports. Plus he said he'd get rid of the picture of Cael and I really like that.
Nick- He's been my best friend since 7th grade! He'll listen to me and I'll listen to him, plus he's funny.
Cael- He used to be my best friend, and my writing partner, we did practically everything together.
Aaron- He's another good friend, I can talk to him easily and we can laugh at each other openly.
Chris- Well...he's cool...in the lowest sense of cool.
Will- He's fun to be around, and kind of crazy but fun...
John- I dunno what to say, he's fun to be around despite the fact that he's too flirtatious.
The Bad
Frank- ...wow...um...let's see...he likes Chemistry. I dunno he's really a good person, kind of dumb, but a good person, except when we fool around too much and I end up getting hurt.
George- um...he get's annoying sometimes, and when we fool around we both end up getting hurt somehow.
Salad- I told him my feelings and he ignored me because he likes another girl, and then like...a month later he tells me that he likes another girl.
Nick- We barely talk, and I think he's secretly hoping that I stay in Texas. But who isn't?
Cael- He ditched me to be with Kat, Jen & all of their friends 3 times, and ignores me and the people I talk to (except for Nick, Chloe and Angie)
Aaron- Sometimes he's too touchy-feely with me, and that bugs me.
Chris- Um...how about I don't like him more than a friend but he's showing off for me, wants to be near me, keeps inviting me to dances, and is making me a ring.
Will- See Aaron's but times it by 10 and also add completely annoying in the mix.
John- He flirts way too much!
My First Thoughts on These Guys...
(This is so funny to think about, the words in italics are what I thought when I first saw that person and in normal text is what I think of that first statement)
Frank- "Oh my God! He's cute but since he's cute and in my biology class then he must be dumb and a jerk"
^ Wow...I was off with that comment, he is sort of cute and dumb but a jerk? Never, Frank is sweet.
George- "This guy must be a wierdo! He hangs out with Nick and Cael at lunch!"
^ not totally off, he is sort of a wierdo but in a good way, and he doesn't hang out with those two anymore.
Salad- "I hate him, he thinks he's so cool because he can play soccer."
^ Um...true, I did hate him for most of my freshman year, and he didn't like me either because we were constantly competing for the soccer ball...but he doesn't think he's so cool.
Nick- "New kid. Hmm...yeah I'll probably never talk to him"
^ Only part true there, he was new at the time but I ended up talking to him at lunch that day, and it was the beginning of a great friendship.
Cael- "He's ugly, he looks like he has no neck!"
^ What can I say? That's totally true!
Aaron- "He's a geek, and I probably won't ever talk to him."
^ Wrong and wrong again, we ended up talking a month or two later, and he is not a geek.
Chris- "New neighbor, yeah whatever, I'm never going to see him."
^ Sort of true, for a while we never talked or even acknowledged each other's presence. Now though...I wish we didn't acknowledge each other's presence.
Will- "He really is a wierdo"
^ Finally something that's true!
John- "He's kind of cute...not as cute as Salad though."
^ First part = totally stupid thing for me to think, second part = totally true, Salad is hotter than John...but he's three years older.
The Good
Frank- Well...he listens to me, and is there when I need him...plus he gives me valuable information about the other guys I know.
George- He is one of the few people who can make me laugh when I'm having a hard time. He and Frank always make me feel better when I'm depressed.
Salad- When we were "good friends" (which we are going to become again) he was pretty sweet to me, he'd talk to me and was actually competitive with me during sports. Plus he said he'd get rid of the picture of Cael and I really like that.
Nick- He's been my best friend since 7th grade! He'll listen to me and I'll listen to him, plus he's funny.
Cael- He used to be my best friend, and my writing partner, we did practically everything together.
Aaron- He's another good friend, I can talk to him easily and we can laugh at each other openly.
Chris- Well...he's cool...in the lowest sense of cool.
Will- He's fun to be around, and kind of crazy but fun...
John- I dunno what to say, he's fun to be around despite the fact that he's too flirtatious.
The Bad
Frank- ...wow...um...let's see...he likes Chemistry. I dunno he's really a good person, kind of dumb, but a good person, except when we fool around too much and I end up getting hurt.
George- um...he get's annoying sometimes, and when we fool around we both end up getting hurt somehow.
Salad- I told him my feelings and he ignored me because he likes another girl, and then like...a month later he tells me that he likes another girl.
Nick- We barely talk, and I think he's secretly hoping that I stay in Texas. But who isn't?
Cael- He ditched me to be with Kat, Jen & all of their friends 3 times, and ignores me and the people I talk to (except for Nick, Chloe and Angie)
Aaron- Sometimes he's too touchy-feely with me, and that bugs me.
Chris- Um...how about I don't like him more than a friend but he's showing off for me, wants to be near me, keeps inviting me to dances, and is making me a ring.
Will- See Aaron's but times it by 10 and also add completely annoying in the mix.
John- He flirts way too much!
My First Thoughts on These Guys...
(This is so funny to think about, the words in italics are what I thought when I first saw that person and in normal text is what I think of that first statement)
Frank- "Oh my God! He's cute but since he's cute and in my biology class then he must be dumb and a jerk"
^ Wow...I was off with that comment, he is sort of cute and dumb but a jerk? Never, Frank is sweet.
George- "This guy must be a wierdo! He hangs out with Nick and Cael at lunch!"
^ not totally off, he is sort of a wierdo but in a good way, and he doesn't hang out with those two anymore.
Salad- "I hate him, he thinks he's so cool because he can play soccer."
^ Um...true, I did hate him for most of my freshman year, and he didn't like me either because we were constantly competing for the soccer ball...but he doesn't think he's so cool.
Nick- "New kid. Hmm...yeah I'll probably never talk to him"
^ Only part true there, he was new at the time but I ended up talking to him at lunch that day, and it was the beginning of a great friendship.
Cael- "He's ugly, he looks like he has no neck!"
^ What can I say? That's totally true!
Aaron- "He's a geek, and I probably won't ever talk to him."
^ Wrong and wrong again, we ended up talking a month or two later, and he is not a geek.
Chris- "New neighbor, yeah whatever, I'm never going to see him."
^ Sort of true, for a while we never talked or even acknowledged each other's presence. Now though...I wish we didn't acknowledge each other's presence.
Will- "He really is a wierdo"
^ Finally something that's true!
John- "He's kind of cute...not as cute as Salad though."
^ First part = totally stupid thing for me to think, second part = totally true, Salad is hotter than John...but he's three years older.
This is why I changed my blog's name
*takes a deep breath* In the post "Teardrops on My Guitar" I mentioned that Salad liked this other girl in our Chem class but wouldn't tell me. Well I found out who it was...Frank and George told me...well actually Frank told me and George instantly knew who we were talking about. So...I kinda guessed the answer and they kind of gave it away. I thought that I would be glad to know who he liked as long as it wasn't Kat and/or Jen or Ray, I was fine. But I guess I was wrong about feeling okay because I feel as bad as I did yesterday, maybe because I'm pretty sure that she likes him back. I guess if she didn't like him back I wouldn't feel this way about the subject because maybe just maybe...he'll decide that he likes me more...that probably won't happen anytime soon.
I won't mention who the girl is because if anybody from my school reads this they may, sooner or later figure out who the girl is...and who everybody else is for that matter.
I won't mention who the girl is because if anybody from my school reads this they may, sooner or later figure out who the girl is...and who everybody else is for that matter.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Guys like what girls?
You would think that after having a ton of friends that are guys (Salad, Frank, "Aaron", Will, Chris, Cael, George, John and Nick to name a few) I would know just what guys look for in girls...and this is what I've come up with so far: low cut shirts (isn't that what all guys like though?). After that things vary...Cael likes smart girls who like reading, Nick, John, Will, Chris and Aaron'll probably date any girl who wants him, Frank liked girls with make-up and low cut shirts (don't know if he still likes that now because I don't know his girlfriend.) and I have no clue what George and Salad like.
Still though...my guess is that they like prettier girls (anything better than me I suppose.) but how am I supposed to know? Girls and guys have completely different mindsets and thoughts, I could hang out with them every second for the next month and still not know everything about them...which would be pretty hard because how would we go to the bathroom?
Still though, can't a guy like a girl like me for once? One with little or no make-up, decent grades, one that'll actually play most sports with them unless it's baseball or basketball and won't run away when the ball is coming right at them.
Still though...my guess is that they like prettier girls (anything better than me I suppose.) but how am I supposed to know? Girls and guys have completely different mindsets and thoughts, I could hang out with them every second for the next month and still not know everything about them...which would be pretty hard because how would we go to the bathroom?
Still though, can't a guy like a girl like me for once? One with little or no make-up, decent grades, one that'll actually play most sports with them unless it's baseball or basketball and won't run away when the ball is coming right at them.
Hard Times
I just want to use this as a spot to vent about school.
For one class we had to read Hard Times by Charles Dickens in about a week and a half. The book is 300 f***ing pages long and doesn't get interesting until after page 100! Then in Chemistry my teacher gives us a ton of homework to do, an essay that's due Monday which is when our next test is. Speaking of tests I have a math test tomorrow based on what we learned yesterday and also on Monday I have a history test and I barely know the material since I'm so worried about finishing the organizer for the book Hard Times.
School is too hard sometimes.
For one class we had to read Hard Times by Charles Dickens in about a week and a half. The book is 300 f***ing pages long and doesn't get interesting until after page 100! Then in Chemistry my teacher gives us a ton of homework to do, an essay that's due Monday which is when our next test is. Speaking of tests I have a math test tomorrow based on what we learned yesterday and also on Monday I have a history test and I barely know the material since I'm so worried about finishing the organizer for the book Hard Times.
School is too hard sometimes.
Teardrops on My Guitar
You may be wondering why I'm posting a video of Taylor Swift on my blog because I'm not even much of a Country music fan. But I heard this song a few weeks ago and it just started going through my head today. Why?
Well here's my little story...
Today started out to be a normal day, it was rainy and sort of warm and it was a Thursday...and Thursday's are my favorite day of the week because my favorite shows Smallville, Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy come on today so I usually can't wait to watch them. But today I realized that I have to work a lot on my graphic organizer for Global because it is due tomorrow, and I haven't completely finished it yet (but at least I'm ahead of most of the class...who didn't even finish the book yet) That wasn't the worst of my problems though, during the break between my double chem class I talked to a couple of my friends and then talked to Salad. I told him that I was going to Texas, I meant for it to be a joke but apparently he knew before I said anything that I was joking. (Stupid Frank!) You know here's our little dialogue.
S = Salad
Me = me (duh)
Me: Hey Salad, I've got good news for you.
S: What?
Me: I'm going to Texas.
S: For Thanksgiving?
Me: No I'm moving there.
S: *not at all convinced* Really?
Me: No, I've just been telling people that as a joke.
S: Hey I need to talk to you 4th period...or between 4th and 5th.
Me: Good because I need to talk to you too.
And that's really the end of that conversation, I went over to Frank told him I needed to tell him something but before I could say anything Angie and Kate pulled me over to talk to them.
So blah blah blah, I couldn't wait to get out of all my classes so I could go see Salad, even though I knew very well that he was going to say something like, "I don't want to break your heart or anything" and then I would say, "After what my friend Cael did to me I don't think my heart can break."
But I was really, really wrong. So I walked the way I usually walk to see Salad between 4th and 5th and when I got to that hallway I slowed down because so far I hadn't seen him. 'Oh great, he bailed on me..." was my first thought when I didn't see him. So I continued walking and surprise surprise I passed Cael and Nick as they were coming out of their class, so I said hey to Nick but not Cael (I'm not stupid here) and when Salad finally came by I was so grateful because Nick and Cael were right nearby (I'll explain later) I was waiting for him to say that he didn't like me like that or if I was extremely lucky: I like you too.
But I wasn't prepared for what happened next...
So we started talking, and he told me that he was caught off guard with my comment because he thought of me as a good friend that he could play soccer with and that he liked another girl in our chem class but even after much prodding he wouldn't tell me who the girl is!
Okay so that doesn't sound that bad because after all we are friends and we are talking to each other but the issue is coming up soon, I promise.
So I went to lunch later on and sat with Frank and George (after Frank had shaven George's head so instead of the sort of long hair he used to have, he has a Mohawk now. That's not the problem though) and now instead of it being the three of us, there are three other girls there who the guys like to bother and while two of the girls were wrestling with Frank and George, all of Salad's words came back to me...most of all: "Your my good friend"
That's when I realized something. In the past I had so many guy friends and if I ever started to develop feelings for them, I was jolted back to reality when I found out that they liked another girl. It has happened with every one of my guy friends, even the guys I don't like, like another girl better than me! Doesn't that suck? I'll always be some guy's "good friend" but I'll never be close enough to be considered his "girl friend." So much for getting a boyfriend this year, I doubt that'll happen with my luck with guys.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
Wow...I'm finally up to date! Just a few minutes ago I had a couple days to explain but now...nope nothing just what happened today! Horray!
So what can I say about Today? Well I have a lot to say so I'm going to split this one into subcategories, which I promise I won't do too often.
Competitive Nature
I have mentioned numerous amounts of times that I really like Salad (7 posts out of 10 and most of them mentioned his name more than once.) But I never really thought about why I liked him...because it never really occurred to me. See I met him last year, during gym class when we started playing soccer and we hated each other instantly because we were sort of evenly matched despite the age difference and the fact that he's a guy and I'm a girl and girls are supposed to be weaker. And this competitiveness went on with hockey and badminton...but not baseball...we both hate baseball. Anyway, it sometimes got to the point where if we were on opposite teams we could probably rip each others heads off...which at one time last year he pretended to strangle me so I kicked him...that didn't make anything easier. But despite all of that there was one day last year that I really actually liked him, and it didn't last very long...see I was sitting in lunch with my good friend Meka (who I rarely see now) and I saw him sitting with this other guy in our gym class, I figured he was skipping his class because I had never seen him in the cafeteria. Anyway, I pointed him out to Meka and said that I sort of liked him because I sort of did like him...as a friend really, but for the rest of the day I forgot about him and didn't think about liking him until the day of my Spanish Regent where I spent the whole test thinking about him...yet still passed with an 85.
The only reason I'm writing all this down is because we were competing against each other again. See in gym we just finished playing hockey (we were on the same team the whole time because the first day he got hit in the mouth with the stick so I doubt he wanted to risk getting hit again by me) and we were doing badmitton, it really started with me and "Ray" playing but then like 10 other people joined in and by the end of the class it was really just Salad and I hitting it back and forth, which was better than nothing I guess.
Magazine Stories
So right before study hall "Chloe" and I stayed late in another class and by the time we left it the warning bell had already rung. Chloe said that we should forget about the pass since our teacher was leaving but we caught her just in time to get a pass. Which was good because one of the a.p's came into our study hall and told one of the guys in there (this guy "Dave" who plays goalie on the soccer team Frank and Salad play on) who was also late got detention (he was almost suspended but thankfully he wasn't) so Chloe, "Tana" and I talked to him for a little bit before turning to Glamour magazine to criticize the models and look at the products to see what we want. (Not that we would actually get anything but it's still fun) And when we got to the make-up horror stories we read them aloud and laughed while Dave read his sports magazine right behind us. Anyways, he went to the bathroom and while he was gone we got to this page about these women who told everybody about their orgasm which we turned to the minute Dave walked into the room. In a hurry the three of us hid the page from his sight and for awhile he tried to figure out what it is we were covering up which he later found out because as I grabbed it, the page came out in my hand. It was hilarious and a great way to break the ice.
The Prank
Okay so for Thanksgiving instead of spending it in New York like I always do, I'm going to Texas. So as a joke, I said to George and Frank today "Hey guys guess what I'm moving to Texas." It was hilarious because their jaws dropped wide open in surprise, and went right back into place when I told them that I was just going for Thanksgiving. George smiled and said "Good because then we wouldn't have anybody to make fun of"
Karma does great things though because some girls came over and played with George's hair (his hair isn't very long but it's longer than Salad's and Frank's, both of whom cut it recently) and put it up in pigtails which Frank and Rose caught on their cell phones. I even lent the girls my hair thing and got complements on my hair being down so I guess I'll wear it down tomorrow, and play the same prank and Salad...if Frank doesn't ruin it first.
So what can I say about Today? Well I have a lot to say so I'm going to split this one into subcategories, which I promise I won't do too often.
Competitive Nature
I have mentioned numerous amounts of times that I really like Salad (7 posts out of 10 and most of them mentioned his name more than once.) But I never really thought about why I liked him...because it never really occurred to me. See I met him last year, during gym class when we started playing soccer and we hated each other instantly because we were sort of evenly matched despite the age difference and the fact that he's a guy and I'm a girl and girls are supposed to be weaker. And this competitiveness went on with hockey and badminton...but not baseball...we both hate baseball. Anyway, it sometimes got to the point where if we were on opposite teams we could probably rip each others heads off...which at one time last year he pretended to strangle me so I kicked him...that didn't make anything easier. But despite all of that there was one day last year that I really actually liked him, and it didn't last very long...see I was sitting in lunch with my good friend Meka (who I rarely see now) and I saw him sitting with this other guy in our gym class, I figured he was skipping his class because I had never seen him in the cafeteria. Anyway, I pointed him out to Meka and said that I sort of liked him because I sort of did like him...as a friend really, but for the rest of the day I forgot about him and didn't think about liking him until the day of my Spanish Regent where I spent the whole test thinking about him...yet still passed with an 85.
The only reason I'm writing all this down is because we were competing against each other again. See in gym we just finished playing hockey (we were on the same team the whole time because the first day he got hit in the mouth with the stick so I doubt he wanted to risk getting hit again by me) and we were doing badmitton, it really started with me and "Ray" playing but then like 10 other people joined in and by the end of the class it was really just Salad and I hitting it back and forth, which was better than nothing I guess.
Magazine Stories
So right before study hall "Chloe" and I stayed late in another class and by the time we left it the warning bell had already rung. Chloe said that we should forget about the pass since our teacher was leaving but we caught her just in time to get a pass. Which was good because one of the a.p's came into our study hall and told one of the guys in there (this guy "Dave" who plays goalie on the soccer team Frank and Salad play on) who was also late got detention (he was almost suspended but thankfully he wasn't) so Chloe, "Tana" and I talked to him for a little bit before turning to Glamour magazine to criticize the models and look at the products to see what we want. (Not that we would actually get anything but it's still fun) And when we got to the make-up horror stories we read them aloud and laughed while Dave read his sports magazine right behind us. Anyways, he went to the bathroom and while he was gone we got to this page about these women who told everybody about their orgasm which we turned to the minute Dave walked into the room. In a hurry the three of us hid the page from his sight and for awhile he tried to figure out what it is we were covering up which he later found out because as I grabbed it, the page came out in my hand. It was hilarious and a great way to break the ice.
The Prank
Okay so for Thanksgiving instead of spending it in New York like I always do, I'm going to Texas. So as a joke, I said to George and Frank today "Hey guys guess what I'm moving to Texas." It was hilarious because their jaws dropped wide open in surprise, and went right back into place when I told them that I was just going for Thanksgiving. George smiled and said "Good because then we wouldn't have anybody to make fun of"
Karma does great things though because some girls came over and played with George's hair (his hair isn't very long but it's longer than Salad's and Frank's, both of whom cut it recently) and put it up in pigtails which Frank and Rose caught on their cell phones. I even lent the girls my hair thing and got complements on my hair being down so I guess I'll wear it down tomorrow, and play the same prank and Salad...if Frank doesn't ruin it first.
No Bet. No Problem.
Making up for what I missed. This is a short post and the title kind of sums everything up.
So, everybody must have forgotten about the whole bet thing because Will didn't meet me at my locker like he promised he would after I kissed Salad...then again Salad wasn't even there. Which was kind of funny because right before I got into school I said to myself "I bet he won't even be here today" and then after study hall when I was walking down the long path I usually take to get to my next class (where I usually see Salad again) I say to myself "Wouldn't it be funny if he was here now?" and just as I thought that there he was walking straight towards me. Obviously we didn't say anything to each other.
During lunch I asked Frank if Salad was still in our Chem class and he told me this whole long story that Salad was feeling sick this morning and came in later. Whatever, I told him and George all about my bet and now I feel much better in knowing that some people are on my side for this bet. I don't have to do it and I probably won't...but I can still dream about kissing him right?
So, everybody must have forgotten about the whole bet thing because Will didn't meet me at my locker like he promised he would after I kissed Salad...then again Salad wasn't even there. Which was kind of funny because right before I got into school I said to myself "I bet he won't even be here today" and then after study hall when I was walking down the long path I usually take to get to my next class (where I usually see Salad again) I say to myself "Wouldn't it be funny if he was here now?" and just as I thought that there he was walking straight towards me. Obviously we didn't say anything to each other.
During lunch I asked Frank if Salad was still in our Chem class and he told me this whole long story that Salad was feeling sick this morning and came in later. Whatever, I told him and George all about my bet and now I feel much better in knowing that some people are on my side for this bet. I don't have to do it and I probably won't...but I can still dream about kissing him right?
Anna In My School? We'll see...
Back in the summer time, Anna and I had made plans to visit each others schools for one day when the other person didn't have school. So in easier terms, a day that I had school and Anna didn't she would come to my school for the day to see what it was like, and vise versa.
So we mentioned it again over the weekend, went over the dates and stuff like that and then the next day, I was talking to my mom about it at a restaurant. I don't feel like writing it out in paragraphs so here is the dialogue that I can remember.
Me = me of course
C = Mom, (since there are 3 letters in mom and c is the third letter in the alphabet)
Me: So...Anna and I have plans to visit each others schools.
C: Yes I remember you mentioning that over the summer. I don't think that she can handle your workload.
Me: Really?
C: I don't think her school does as much work as you guys do.
Me: Yeah, the last time I was at her house I could easily do her history homework, we did it a week ago in my class, and I pretty much told her exactly what to write on some of her other assignments.
C: And her school isn't as diverse as yours, she probably doesn't know how to talk to black people.
Me: Why wouldn't she? They aren't much different, just because her school has only 5 black kids and we have...a lot more than that...
C: Yeah, but you have over 1000 students, they barely have 500. Your chemistry class is probably about how many people are graduating this year.
Me: True...that is probably true.
And the conversation continues, but when I'm laying on my bed I really start thinking about it. Anna is my best friend, but how well will she get along with my school friends? Frank would probably be nice to her...but George? I dunno...the two of them are a little out there. And what about Angie, Will and Kate? They are great friends but they are completely different from Anna, they are loud while Anna well...isn't. And what would she think of Salad? Would she like him or not? Would she think that he's a good match for me or that I should forget about him? GAH! I never thought this arrangement would be so hard!
So we mentioned it again over the weekend, went over the dates and stuff like that and then the next day, I was talking to my mom about it at a restaurant. I don't feel like writing it out in paragraphs so here is the dialogue that I can remember.
Me = me of course
C = Mom, (since there are 3 letters in mom and c is the third letter in the alphabet)
Me: So...Anna and I have plans to visit each others schools.
C: Yes I remember you mentioning that over the summer. I don't think that she can handle your workload.
Me: Really?
C: I don't think her school does as much work as you guys do.
Me: Yeah, the last time I was at her house I could easily do her history homework, we did it a week ago in my class, and I pretty much told her exactly what to write on some of her other assignments.
C: And her school isn't as diverse as yours, she probably doesn't know how to talk to black people.
Me: Why wouldn't she? They aren't much different, just because her school has only 5 black kids and we have...a lot more than that...
C: Yeah, but you have over 1000 students, they barely have 500. Your chemistry class is probably about how many people are graduating this year.
Me: True...that is probably true.
And the conversation continues, but when I'm laying on my bed I really start thinking about it. Anna is my best friend, but how well will she get along with my school friends? Frank would probably be nice to her...but George? I dunno...the two of them are a little out there. And what about Angie, Will and Kate? They are great friends but they are completely different from Anna, they are loud while Anna well...isn't. And what would she think of Salad? Would she like him or not? Would she think that he's a good match for me or that I should forget about him? GAH! I never thought this arrangement would be so hard!
Hollywood Holy Grail
I meant to type this up over the weekend, but I didn't really feel like blogging so I'll type this up now and once I finish it I'll post my blog for today. I am severely lacking with the posts on here (my plan was to do one a day but obviously that isn't working) so better late than never right?
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Okay so I went to see my bff 4eva Anna (I've known her 4 ever) over the weekend. We really only see each other about once a month which is pretty good considering a couple years ago we were lucky if we saw each other twice in six months. Anyways, back to the story here...I went to her house and we started off the afternoon by running a cake over to her grandparents house, then came back to her house and played with candle wax, and burned our hair then looked at it under a microscope.
Then we watched Clue with our families, danced to the end credits twice and ate and after we ate Anna and I went to her room to watch another movie. We were going to watch a movie we hadn't seen in awhile but instead we watched Blades of Glory because it was already in her dvd player and I hadn't seen it yet. We spent the whole movie making fun of it and watched a ton of behind the scenes stuff. Then we flipped through channels watching Zoey 101, The Discovery Channel and finally The Wizard of Oz. (which if I was about 11 or 12 I would have hated because at that time I really despised that movie because I had seen it so many times, my choir class was singing all the songs to it and the school play was of course The Wizard of Oz.) Right now though it is okay if I watch it because it won't bother me anymore. We watched it on TBS so right before a commercial break there was like a commercial type thing that asked the question "What is considered the Hollywood Holy Grail?"
OF course since this is The Wizard of Oz, the answer would have to be the red ruby slippers, they are on display in a museum in Washington D.C and they are all around fabulous! Seriously, what girl would not want to wear them? They are beautiful and...well beautiful. So it got Anna and I talking. She told me that she really wanted to wear all diamonds all day, all diamonds as in diamond earrings, a diamond necklace, a diamond bracelet, diamond shoes, a diamond outfit, and diamond dust lip gloss. Which is a lot of diamonds for somebody so small to wear at one time. She joked around saying: "Your going to see me on tv with my extremely rich husband and call me up to say that you are coming over tomorrow to get fitted for your own diamond outfit." I really couldn't disagree with that, I would love to wear a whole bunch of diamonds, but I don't have that kind of money and I don't plan on marrying somebody who does have that kind of money.
Which got us on the subject of Dream guys, because I really brought that up. I really wanted an excuse to talk about Salad but at the last minute I decided not to say anything, last time I was at her house I spent a lot of time looking at his picture going, "Isn't he so hot?" which after awhile probably bugged Anna. So I'm guessing that if they met, she might not like him as much...but who am I to know? Anna said that she really hadn't thought about that, and that any guy will do and I said that they had to be a soccer player (duh) which wasn't actually surprising to either of us. Now that I think of it I should have mentioned that if they were Hispanic they got extra points on my radar. Needless to say by that time commercial break was over and the movie had come back on again, with the answer which really was: The red ruby slippers. I was right!
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Okay so I went to see my bff 4eva Anna (I've known her 4 ever) over the weekend. We really only see each other about once a month which is pretty good considering a couple years ago we were lucky if we saw each other twice in six months. Anyways, back to the story here...I went to her house and we started off the afternoon by running a cake over to her grandparents house, then came back to her house and played with candle wax, and burned our hair then looked at it under a microscope.
Then we watched Clue with our families, danced to the end credits twice and ate and after we ate Anna and I went to her room to watch another movie. We were going to watch a movie we hadn't seen in awhile but instead we watched Blades of Glory because it was already in her dvd player and I hadn't seen it yet. We spent the whole movie making fun of it and watched a ton of behind the scenes stuff. Then we flipped through channels watching Zoey 101, The Discovery Channel and finally The Wizard of Oz. (which if I was about 11 or 12 I would have hated because at that time I really despised that movie because I had seen it so many times, my choir class was singing all the songs to it and the school play was of course The Wizard of Oz.) Right now though it is okay if I watch it because it won't bother me anymore. We watched it on TBS so right before a commercial break there was like a commercial type thing that asked the question "What is considered the Hollywood Holy Grail?"
OF course since this is The Wizard of Oz, the answer would have to be the red ruby slippers, they are on display in a museum in Washington D.C and they are all around fabulous! Seriously, what girl would not want to wear them? They are beautiful and...well beautiful. So it got Anna and I talking. She told me that she really wanted to wear all diamonds all day, all diamonds as in diamond earrings, a diamond necklace, a diamond bracelet, diamond shoes, a diamond outfit, and diamond dust lip gloss. Which is a lot of diamonds for somebody so small to wear at one time. She joked around saying: "Your going to see me on tv with my extremely rich husband and call me up to say that you are coming over tomorrow to get fitted for your own diamond outfit." I really couldn't disagree with that, I would love to wear a whole bunch of diamonds, but I don't have that kind of money and I don't plan on marrying somebody who does have that kind of money.
Which got us on the subject of Dream guys, because I really brought that up. I really wanted an excuse to talk about Salad but at the last minute I decided not to say anything, last time I was at her house I spent a lot of time looking at his picture going, "Isn't he so hot?" which after awhile probably bugged Anna. So I'm guessing that if they met, she might not like him as much...but who am I to know? Anna said that she really hadn't thought about that, and that any guy will do and I said that they had to be a soccer player (duh) which wasn't actually surprising to either of us. Now that I think of it I should have mentioned that if they were Hispanic they got extra points on my radar. Needless to say by that time commercial break was over and the movie had come back on again, with the answer which really was: The red ruby slippers. I was right!
Friday, November 9, 2007
The Bet
The Bet is a short story written years ago by some guy who is probably dead now. The story talks about these two guys who make a bet on which is worse being sent to death or being sent to live in prison for years or for life.
The only reason I'm talking about this is because I have made a bet with Will, not willingly but it is still a bet. You see, on Tuesday, I have to kiss Salad on the lips and then walk away. The walking away part does seem like something that I would do but kissing...
Well...that's not my thing.
I don't do that whole kissing thing or touchy-feely thing, and I have my reasons, I think they are pretty good reasons too. Of course those reasons are all secretive and I can't reveal them so it's not like I can explain to anybody why I don't like being kissed or touched. Sad, I know but totally true. Now if there were no consequences, I wouldn't do it, even though I really want to, but there are consequences. Like seriously, I have to kiss Salad or sleep with somebody. I'm sorry but what?
That's not my thing! Kissing Salad would be easier and faster and not terrible...but things are so awkward between us, I mean we haven't talked in so long and just when I was about to talk to him today, "Ralph" pushed me, so I had to push him back instead of saying anything to him. Of course now I think he thinks I'm stalking him...which wouldn't be too far off, since I sort of was today, but that is a completely different story I won't get into right now.
So the bet...it's such a bad idea but what can I do? Wren heard, Jen heard, Kate heard and they all have class with Salad and I when I have to do it. They will make sure I do it, even though Jen doesn't like me, and Kate despises the idea and Wren...well she's just Wren. Then I have to go down to my locker where Will is going to meet me to find out if I did it or not, if I didn't I must suffer the consequences.
So wish me luck, I'm going to need it.
The only reason I'm talking about this is because I have made a bet with Will, not willingly but it is still a bet. You see, on Tuesday, I have to kiss Salad on the lips and then walk away. The walking away part does seem like something that I would do but kissing...
Well...that's not my thing.
I don't do that whole kissing thing or touchy-feely thing, and I have my reasons, I think they are pretty good reasons too. Of course those reasons are all secretive and I can't reveal them so it's not like I can explain to anybody why I don't like being kissed or touched. Sad, I know but totally true. Now if there were no consequences, I wouldn't do it, even though I really want to, but there are consequences. Like seriously, I have to kiss Salad or sleep with somebody. I'm sorry but what?
That's not my thing! Kissing Salad would be easier and faster and not terrible...but things are so awkward between us, I mean we haven't talked in so long and just when I was about to talk to him today, "Ralph" pushed me, so I had to push him back instead of saying anything to him. Of course now I think he thinks I'm stalking him...which wouldn't be too far off, since I sort of was today, but that is a completely different story I won't get into right now.
So the bet...it's such a bad idea but what can I do? Wren heard, Jen heard, Kate heard and they all have class with Salad and I when I have to do it. They will make sure I do it, even though Jen doesn't like me, and Kate despises the idea and Wren...well she's just Wren. Then I have to go down to my locker where Will is going to meet me to find out if I did it or not, if I didn't I must suffer the consequences.
So wish me luck, I'm going to need it.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Secrets Shall Stay Secret
Wow it's been a couple days since my last post! This must mean I have somewhat of a life.
Okay so last post I talked about my story and all that stuff, and a few posts before that I actually talked about my life, surprising I know, and I'm going to do the same thing again right now.
...now!
Okay, so today was a pretty good day, on Monday I confessed my deepest darkest secret to Frank, and then spent the whole day wondering if that was such a good idea. I mean, he was great and all, he promised not to tell anybody, he felt bad, he hasn't abandoned me yet, so...so far so good. Of course I was still a little nervous, and I guess it showed in Math class, after he left for the day. I was zoning out at the beginning of class which Kate and Will took notice to and started poking me to reveal what was bugging me. I said that it was my deepest darkest secret and that only two people know, then all through the period they were trying to figure it out. Of course I won and my secret...it stayed secret.
Yesterday was no school, and people always forget things when they don't have to go to school, so today, when I came back to school, Kate and Will completely forgot about my secret. Thankfully.
Today, started out well...long. Salad wasn't there today so playing floor hockey wouldn't be as good because I won't be able to impress him/stare at him when he's not looking/talk to him at all, Angie decided not to play, and I couldn't find Chris so I wouldn't have anybody to bother through the game. So instead I walked the track, which was boring even though Angie and I talked about boys, how she was over B. and how I want but cannot get over Salad. Blah blah blah, there was some fight today in homeroom I think? I don't know, I wasn't there. Global was...eh...I didn't get my graphic organizer started, I practically just started the book! Which is boring by the way, I don't recommend Dickens to...anybody, unless they actually like his books.
Lunch was okay though, I had all intentions of sitting with "Nate" and them, then after I finished eating I would go and sit with Kate, Angie and Will. That all changed when Frank and "George" asked me to sit with them in the smaller cafeteria, which was quieter, smaller and well overall better. They talked to me and I talked to them, so it wasn't like when I sit with Nate and them, but they know when to back off. They aren't going to go on and on about Salad or stuff like that, like Angie, Kate and Will. It was fun...we talked, joked and made fun of people we don't like. Then I went to math and was bored out of my mind, but Kate, Will and I did make up our own language.
Nac uoy daer em won? Won? Woh tuoba won? he he he. That's fun, but kind of confuzzling, unless your Kate of course...but then you wouldn't know that seirs is cries.
Okay so last post I talked about my story and all that stuff, and a few posts before that I actually talked about my life, surprising I know, and I'm going to do the same thing again right now.
...now!
Okay, so today was a pretty good day, on Monday I confessed my deepest darkest secret to Frank, and then spent the whole day wondering if that was such a good idea. I mean, he was great and all, he promised not to tell anybody, he felt bad, he hasn't abandoned me yet, so...so far so good. Of course I was still a little nervous, and I guess it showed in Math class, after he left for the day. I was zoning out at the beginning of class which Kate and Will took notice to and started poking me to reveal what was bugging me. I said that it was my deepest darkest secret and that only two people know, then all through the period they were trying to figure it out. Of course I won and my secret...it stayed secret.
Yesterday was no school, and people always forget things when they don't have to go to school, so today, when I came back to school, Kate and Will completely forgot about my secret. Thankfully.
Today, started out well...long. Salad wasn't there today so playing floor hockey wouldn't be as good because I won't be able to impress him/stare at him when he's not looking/talk to him at all, Angie decided not to play, and I couldn't find Chris so I wouldn't have anybody to bother through the game. So instead I walked the track, which was boring even though Angie and I talked about boys, how she was over B. and how I want but cannot get over Salad. Blah blah blah, there was some fight today in homeroom I think? I don't know, I wasn't there. Global was...eh...I didn't get my graphic organizer started, I practically just started the book! Which is boring by the way, I don't recommend Dickens to...anybody, unless they actually like his books.
Lunch was okay though, I had all intentions of sitting with "Nate" and them, then after I finished eating I would go and sit with Kate, Angie and Will. That all changed when Frank and "George" asked me to sit with them in the smaller cafeteria, which was quieter, smaller and well overall better. They talked to me and I talked to them, so it wasn't like when I sit with Nate and them, but they know when to back off. They aren't going to go on and on about Salad or stuff like that, like Angie, Kate and Will. It was fun...we talked, joked and made fun of people we don't like. Then I went to math and was bored out of my mind, but Kate, Will and I did make up our own language.
Nac uoy daer em won? Won? Woh tuoba won? he he he. That's fun, but kind of confuzzling, unless your Kate of course...but then you wouldn't know that seirs is cries.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
4000 words in a day!
Wow, just by deciding to work on a different story that already had a thousand words written was one of my best decisions yet!
My new story, which was based on a Hannah Montana fanfiction that I started over the summer is going to be amazing! It'll be the first book in a series and it's something that hasn't been done before!
Think about this:
A car crash
A Dream world where you can be almost anything you want, without changing your appearance
A Nightmare Crisis in Dream World that my fav. characters are going to have to fix.
So far I have 5102 words, 95% of those words were written today over the course of about...5 hours maybe? But who cares how long it took? It's a pretty good story and I have a ton of ideas for it that I can actually write now! Yay!
My new story, which was based on a Hannah Montana fanfiction that I started over the summer is going to be amazing! It'll be the first book in a series and it's something that hasn't been done before!
Think about this:
A car crash
A Dream world where you can be almost anything you want, without changing your appearance
A Nightmare Crisis in Dream World that my fav. characters are going to have to fix.
So far I have 5102 words, 95% of those words were written today over the course of about...5 hours maybe? But who cares how long it took? It's a pretty good story and I have a ton of ideas for it that I can actually write now! Yay!
Writers Block!
Ah! I have writers block and I can't go on with the story I'm writing without sounding like a teenager trying to write a novel. So I've been thinking about changing books but I don't think I'll have the time to finish it...but I also want to work on Unquieted because it's a good story idea. Maybe I should just forget about NaNoWriMo and just work on it so that it will be good and if I just so happen to get 50 thousand words it'll be a plus.
Friday, November 2, 2007
Overcoming the Dream Nightmare
I had this dream last month and it has been haunting me forever! In this dream is mainly just me, Salad and Frank...that I can remember of course. So I decided to write down the dream
So here's the background story:
Last Year
I met Frank about a year ago when he started dating my friend (now ex-friend) "Brie" we were sort of friends at the time but didn't talk much, although with track, biology, and gym with him I learned a lot about him.
I met Salad later in the year during gym class when we were playing soccer, he was one of Frank's crazy friends that joked around, but he was also the fiercest soccer player in our gym class, and the only person I considered real competition. We hated each other at first, so much that when he pretended to strangle me so I kicked him.
This year
This year I see both of them every morning, from around 7:50-9:10 because we have first and second period together. And by the end of last year I was starting to form feelings about Salad after getting over the fact that Frank and I would never be together (although that was in October when Brie decided she liked him) and that we would just be friends.
The Dream:
and that's all I remember...
So now I'm going to attempt to...well...interpret my dream. So let's see here:
In my dream I felt: surprised and fearful
The Color was: Pink which means associated with tenderness and love
The rest of it...well here's what I get from it:
A future relationship between myself and Frank (that's what I got and what the dream stuff gave me)
A wish to tell Salad how I feel about him (at the time I hadn't told him anything yet)
and
that it was time for a new beginning (one I needed since Cael and I had just stopped talking)
So have I got it figured out? Probably, let me talk to you about it in 5 months to see if there really is a relationship between Frank and I. I doubt it, but it would be sort of funny I guess.
So here's the background story:
Last Year
I met Frank about a year ago when he started dating my friend (now ex-friend) "Brie" we were sort of friends at the time but didn't talk much, although with track, biology, and gym with him I learned a lot about him.
I met Salad later in the year during gym class when we were playing soccer, he was one of Frank's crazy friends that joked around, but he was also the fiercest soccer player in our gym class, and the only person I considered real competition. We hated each other at first, so much that when he pretended to strangle me so I kicked him.
This year
This year I see both of them every morning, from around 7:50-9:10 because we have first and second period together. And by the end of last year I was starting to form feelings about Salad after getting over the fact that Frank and I would never be together (although that was in October when Brie decided she liked him) and that we would just be friends.
The Dream:
In the dream, I'm giving birth in my bedroom! Not on a bed of course, by my dresser, in fact I'm leaning up against my dresser for support. The only people that I can easily recognize and are nearby, are Frank and Salad, who are of course at my feet staring at...well you get the picture (all too vividly though) I instantly kick them and say, "Frank I definitely don't want you to be looking there."
"That's not what you'll be saying in six months" he said. After that he left and it was just me and Salad. I leaned forward to kiss him but stopped right in front of him because I chickened out.
"That's not what you'll be saying in six months" he said. After that he left and it was just me and Salad. I leaned forward to kiss him but stopped right in front of him because I chickened out.
and that's all I remember...
So now I'm going to attempt to...well...interpret my dream. So let's see here:
In my dream I felt: surprised and fearful
The Color was: Pink which means associated with tenderness and love
The rest of it...well here's what I get from it:
A future relationship between myself and Frank (that's what I got and what the dream stuff gave me)
A wish to tell Salad how I feel about him (at the time I hadn't told him anything yet)
and
that it was time for a new beginning (one I needed since Cael and I had just stopped talking)
So have I got it figured out? Probably, let me talk to you about it in 5 months to see if there really is a relationship between Frank and I. I doubt it, but it would be sort of funny I guess.
A Total Waste? I Think Not.
So anybody who knows me, knows that recently my bff "Cael" ditched me for what he thinks is popularity...and maybe it is...who knows?
Obviously I don't.
Of course nobody who knows me, knows why Cael ditched me. He says that it is because I'm stupid and bothered him while he was talking to his friend, but I know him so much better than that, and even though he isn't that smart and has been more interested in those other girls I have a feeling it's something much bigger than that.
Of course I can't confide this in many people, they would ask what happened and if I told them they would turn and run for the hills to keep from talking to me again or when they do talk to me, it'll be different and I'd be coddled. Of course the reason is making my head hurt and the little voice in my head has been begging me to tell somebody, but I can't just tell any close friend. I'm afraid of what would happen...so I figure I'd tell "Frank" I mean he's my friend and if I told him he wouldn't run for the hills or treat me differently, he'd still joke around with me. I mean if a person bit you on Halloween just for the sake of biting your arm he wouldn't stop talking to me.
Telling him is actually the problem though, I kept telling myself that I would say something to him today after chemistry where he and "Salad" usually talk. Well, I made my way over there after class about to say something like what I say when I think about it and I was about to say something, I had my mouth open and I was actually able to say the words "I need to talk to you about something." but a friend of mine (not a close friend but still somebody that I would rather not overhear my conversation) Kayla was standing there, and I realized I couldn't do it, not with more people than I would rather. So I said I'd talk about it later, I figured I'd say something at lunch but Rose dragged me outside and when I finally went inside Frank wasn't there. I saw Frank right after Lunch though, he was at my locker and he asked what I wanted to say, but I wasn't ready so I said I'd tell him Monday because I wasn't ready yet, he told me that whatever I needed to tell him, I could and he would understand. I have heard that so many times already...but he's the only person I could ever think of telling...he's like a brother to me. A very annoying older brother that I like to bother....but a brother nonetheless.
I know it seems like I didn't do what I should have done but it wasn't all bad I swear!
I have had the biggest crush on Salad for a month now, and just last Monday I told him, leaving our relationship strained because...well we just stopped talking. I walked away after confessing and he said that the information still needed to sink in. So for the longest time we didn't talk, even though we played hockey together on the same team, we didn't talk. I sent him a note and he didn't read it but I couldn't stop crushing on him. This past Monday we talked for a little bit, I mean he did get hit with the hockey stick I had to ask if he was okay. But it was a quick conversation, basically just consisting of:
Me: Are you okay?
him: Yeah.
Me: What happened?
him: You didn't see?
Me: *shakes head no*
him: I got hit with the hockey stick.
Me: Does it still hurt?
him: *nods*
(Then both of us walk in opposite directions)
But hooray for today! For the first time in a few days we actually had a real conversation, where we actually stopped and talked to each other and he did something nice for me! Which kind of sucks though because I know I shouldn't like him, he's a senior and I'm...not (I'm not a freshman though so at least that's a positive) besides, he doesn't like me back...I think. Still though, just when I start to like him less he draws me back in. I know it sounds stupid but unfortunately it's true.
So today wasn't a total waste...Obviously
Obviously I don't.
Of course nobody who knows me, knows why Cael ditched me. He says that it is because I'm stupid and bothered him while he was talking to his friend, but I know him so much better than that, and even though he isn't that smart and has been more interested in those other girls I have a feeling it's something much bigger than that.
Of course I can't confide this in many people, they would ask what happened and if I told them they would turn and run for the hills to keep from talking to me again or when they do talk to me, it'll be different and I'd be coddled. Of course the reason is making my head hurt and the little voice in my head has been begging me to tell somebody, but I can't just tell any close friend. I'm afraid of what would happen...so I figure I'd tell "Frank" I mean he's my friend and if I told him he wouldn't run for the hills or treat me differently, he'd still joke around with me. I mean if a person bit you on Halloween just for the sake of biting your arm he wouldn't stop talking to me.
Telling him is actually the problem though, I kept telling myself that I would say something to him today after chemistry where he and "Salad" usually talk. Well, I made my way over there after class about to say something like what I say when I think about it and I was about to say something, I had my mouth open and I was actually able to say the words "I need to talk to you about something." but a friend of mine (not a close friend but still somebody that I would rather not overhear my conversation) Kayla was standing there, and I realized I couldn't do it, not with more people than I would rather. So I said I'd talk about it later, I figured I'd say something at lunch but Rose dragged me outside and when I finally went inside Frank wasn't there. I saw Frank right after Lunch though, he was at my locker and he asked what I wanted to say, but I wasn't ready so I said I'd tell him Monday because I wasn't ready yet, he told me that whatever I needed to tell him, I could and he would understand. I have heard that so many times already...but he's the only person I could ever think of telling...he's like a brother to me. A very annoying older brother that I like to bother....but a brother nonetheless.
I know it seems like I didn't do what I should have done but it wasn't all bad I swear!
I have had the biggest crush on Salad for a month now, and just last Monday I told him, leaving our relationship strained because...well we just stopped talking. I walked away after confessing and he said that the information still needed to sink in. So for the longest time we didn't talk, even though we played hockey together on the same team, we didn't talk. I sent him a note and he didn't read it but I couldn't stop crushing on him. This past Monday we talked for a little bit, I mean he did get hit with the hockey stick I had to ask if he was okay. But it was a quick conversation, basically just consisting of:
Me: Are you okay?
him: Yeah.
Me: What happened?
him: You didn't see?
Me: *shakes head no*
him: I got hit with the hockey stick.
Me: Does it still hurt?
him: *nods*
(Then both of us walk in opposite directions)
But hooray for today! For the first time in a few days we actually had a real conversation, where we actually stopped and talked to each other and he did something nice for me! Which kind of sucks though because I know I shouldn't like him, he's a senior and I'm...not (I'm not a freshman though so at least that's a positive) besides, he doesn't like me back...I think. Still though, just when I start to like him less he draws me back in. I know it sounds stupid but unfortunately it's true.
So today wasn't a total waste...Obviously
Thursday, November 1, 2007
This Should Be Easier...
Okay, so since I'm terrible about writing in a diary, maybe I'll be better about writing here since I do spend a lot of time on a computer and this is on a computer. Wow...who knew?
I'm not going to post too much for this first post, I'm really just making a blog because my NaNoWriMo Novel has a blog in it and I need to get a feel of a blog with a real blog.
I don't want to give away too much about the novel because frankly, I don't even know too much about it, which sucks because I'm the one who is writing it! All I can say is that the main character is named Kelsey Leanne Santoll, she has blonde hair and brown eyes and she is going through a tough time in her life during the story.
So...that's all I have to say right now. I'll come back another day with more.
I'm not going to post too much for this first post, I'm really just making a blog because my NaNoWriMo Novel has a blog in it and I need to get a feel of a blog with a real blog.
I don't want to give away too much about the novel because frankly, I don't even know too much about it, which sucks because I'm the one who is writing it! All I can say is that the main character is named Kelsey Leanne Santoll, she has blonde hair and brown eyes and she is going through a tough time in her life during the story.
So...that's all I have to say right now. I'll come back another day with more.
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