10 People Who are out of my life (that I am glad about)
10) Rayna
09) Nate
08) "Josie"
07) "Gwyn"
06) "Jane"
05) "Kelli"
04) "Shanna"
03) Brie
02) Kiki
01) Cael
10 People Who Made it into my life (thank goodness!)
10) Chloe
09) Wren
08) Laquan
07) Will
06) Aaron
05) Salad
04) Kate
03) Angie
02) George
01) Frank
10 BIGGEST MOMENTS in 2007
10) The site I used to spend most of my life in middle school is gone.
09) My cousin and I stopped talking
08) I got the Wii
07) My deepest darkest secret
06) I almost fell for a girl.
05) Harry Potter 5 came out and the 7th and final Harry Potter book came out.
04) I found out how guys really feel about the girl they like/love.
03) I told Salad how I felt about him.
02) I lost all my old friends and gained several new friends.
01) Cael and I stopped talking, started talking, and then stopped talking.
10 People who will never change
10) Cael will always be a backstabber.
09) Brie will always be a slut.
08) Kiki will always be a bitch
07) Rayna will always be a know it all
06) Nate will always try to be popular.
05) Will is always going to be a perv.
04) Salad will always be a hopeless romantic.
03) Chloe will never change how she feels about a guy.
02) George will always be a camera hog.
01) Frank will always be there when I need him.
10 People who might change
10) Aaron
09) Rose
08) Chris
07) Terri
06) Anna
05) Kate
04) Angie
03) Chrissy
02) Sherry
01) John
10 of the Best Songs I heard first in 2007
10) Hate that I love you by Rihanna ft Ne-Yo
09) Our Song by Taylor Swift
08) Like it or Leave it by Aly and AJ
07) Love Song by Sara Bareilles
06) Clumsy by Fergie
05) Going Under by Evanescence
04) He Said, She Said by Ashley Tisdale
03) Goodnight and Go by Imogen Heap
02) Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor Swift
01) Even Angels Fall by Jessica Riddle
10 Books I read first in 2007
10) Telling Christina Goodbye by Lurlene McDaniel
09) Tuesday's With Morrie by Mitch Albom
08) 13 Little Blue Envelopes by Maureen Johnson
07) the 310 Novels by Beth Killian
06) The Scarlet Letterman by Cara Lockwood
05) Wuthering High by Cara Lockwood
04) Someone Like Summer by M.E. Kerr
03) Dreamland by Sarah Dessen
02) DRAMA! The Four Dorothy's by Paul Ruditis
01) DRAMA! Everyone's a Critic by Paul Ruditis
10 Television Shows that I seemed to be Addicted to in 2007
10) Dirty Sexy Money
09) Grey's Anatomy
08) Notes From the Underbelly
07) All My Children
06) Gossip Girl
05) Private Practice
04) About A Girl
03) Smallville
02) Samantha Who?
01) Ugly Betty
10 Answers From 10 Personality Quizzes
10) Your party song style is: Fun
09) You're a "pretending we can be friends" ex
08) You're a part-time party animal
07) Surprise! You're human
06) You're Hermione from the Harry Potter movies
05) Naughty or Nice? : Nice!
04) Skeptical
03) Flying Solo
02) You are happy-go-dateable
01) You Are Literally Hot
10 Things I AM Doing Next Year
10) Get a boyfriend, even if it is only for an hour or two...just to get people off my back about it.
09) Try a new food...something I hadn't even heard of before I tried it.
08) Go to a party...not a birthday party, a REAL high school party.
07) Actually wear some of those low cut shirts I have...maybe when it gets warmer.
06) Telling at least 2 more friends my deepest darkest secret.
05) Get back at Cael for everything he did to me...but in a way that he would never know I did it.
04) Going to an expensive store with my best friend and my cousin, and try on expensive clothes we'll never buy.
03) Learning how to drive a car
02) Finishing the first draft of a novel...I keep procrastinating on this one.
01) Have a better year than I did last year.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
My New Friends
So you have sort of heard about my new friends...but if you knew how I met these people, you would be very surprised that I managed to become friends with some of these people.
The Guys
Chris: He moved into my neighborhood when I was six, we went down to meet him but we really only said hi and stuff. Then we didn't see each other for several months and he had completely forgotten all about me by that time so when I said "hi" he asked me who I was.
Frank: The first time I saw Frank he walked into my biology classroom, but I never really noticed him until gym a few days later when I was sitting out with Jen and another girl. Jen asked me if I thought he was cute, I said he was, and she told me to go sleep with him in the locker room. The first time I really talked to him though was in November though, we were both doing track and since he was "seeing" my friend (at the time) Brie we ended up talking after track for a few minutes.
George: I hadn't seen him until Nate invited me to go to see a movie with Cael, George, Kay and Wren. I met George when I got to the theater and thought he was crazy, especially when we were in the theater and he got up in front of everybody and asked who was a leo (besides me and him). Nobody answered him but it sure was funny. I didn't really see him for months...not until study hall, we didn't talk for most of it but he did once accuse me of staring at him...although he said that I was staring at him like I was going to kill him.
Aaron: Originally he was supposed to be in my math class last year but he was only there for one day and that one day we had a sub. I never thought I would see him again, then I found out he was in my gym class and our first meeting there was when I tripped on the sidewalk and he laughed at me (along with Frank and Salad and some of the other guys.)
Will: I had heard all about him from Cael, how annoying he was, how he "molested girls" and all that stuff and the first time I met him I was 11 and he jumped out and surprised Cael. Nevermind me, I didn't really exist...until I was 13 and I was switched into his science class...and ended up sitting with him, Chris and another girl.
Salad: The first time I met Salad I was playing soccer, we were on opposite teams and at one point we were both trying to get the soccer ball, since we were both sort of evenly matched, it took awhile. The next game we went up against each other once again and this time when I got the ball it was obvious that he was sort of annoyed.
Laquan: The first time we ever really met, I was out with Cael, his sister, his sister's best friend and his grandmother who took us to get a hot dog, I saw Laquan, knew he was from our school and waved...despite the fact that I didn't actually know him. I saw him a few days later at school with Kate and Angie, he asked if Cael and I were siblings, I told him we were cousins and I didn't see him again...until gym this year.
The Girls
Angie: The first time we met, we were 13 and celebrating Halloween at Cael's house with our enemies. We hit it off instantly but didn't get a chance to talk much after that, but we did say hi whenever we saw each other.
Kate: We met in 7th grade, I sat at a table with one of her friends during English class when we had to read this play, and then Kate came and Cael came. The four of us spent the whole class laughing and started doing that whenever we got to be in groups.
Chloe: Chloe had been in my elementary school but our paths had never crossed. We met during lunch in middle school when somebody at her table threw something and it hit me, she apologized and I didn't see her again until this year when we found out we had several of the same classes together.
Lara: We met in elementary school...believe it or not...I can't really remember how we met...I think I was about 8 or 9 years old maybe...I don't really remember that far back, all I know is we didn't hit it off that quickly, and we didn't talk for years because we never saw each other. (we only recently started talking again this year)
Kay: I met her in elementary school too, she was in my girl scout troop, she was quiet around me and I was sort of quiet around her.
Wren: The first time we met it was because of Cael and Nate. Last year they came up with this Hallway tag thing and both of us were playing, at one point the four of us just stood in a circle and tagged each other. After that I saw her a few times talking to other people.
The Guys
Chris: He moved into my neighborhood when I was six, we went down to meet him but we really only said hi and stuff. Then we didn't see each other for several months and he had completely forgotten all about me by that time so when I said "hi" he asked me who I was.
Frank: The first time I saw Frank he walked into my biology classroom, but I never really noticed him until gym a few days later when I was sitting out with Jen and another girl. Jen asked me if I thought he was cute, I said he was, and she told me to go sleep with him in the locker room. The first time I really talked to him though was in November though, we were both doing track and since he was "seeing" my friend (at the time) Brie we ended up talking after track for a few minutes.
George: I hadn't seen him until Nate invited me to go to see a movie with Cael, George, Kay and Wren. I met George when I got to the theater and thought he was crazy, especially when we were in the theater and he got up in front of everybody and asked who was a leo (besides me and him). Nobody answered him but it sure was funny. I didn't really see him for months...not until study hall, we didn't talk for most of it but he did once accuse me of staring at him...although he said that I was staring at him like I was going to kill him.
Aaron: Originally he was supposed to be in my math class last year but he was only there for one day and that one day we had a sub. I never thought I would see him again, then I found out he was in my gym class and our first meeting there was when I tripped on the sidewalk and he laughed at me (along with Frank and Salad and some of the other guys.)
Will: I had heard all about him from Cael, how annoying he was, how he "molested girls" and all that stuff and the first time I met him I was 11 and he jumped out and surprised Cael. Nevermind me, I didn't really exist...until I was 13 and I was switched into his science class...and ended up sitting with him, Chris and another girl.
Salad: The first time I met Salad I was playing soccer, we were on opposite teams and at one point we were both trying to get the soccer ball, since we were both sort of evenly matched, it took awhile. The next game we went up against each other once again and this time when I got the ball it was obvious that he was sort of annoyed.
Laquan: The first time we ever really met, I was out with Cael, his sister, his sister's best friend and his grandmother who took us to get a hot dog, I saw Laquan, knew he was from our school and waved...despite the fact that I didn't actually know him. I saw him a few days later at school with Kate and Angie, he asked if Cael and I were siblings, I told him we were cousins and I didn't see him again...until gym this year.
The Girls
Angie: The first time we met, we were 13 and celebrating Halloween at Cael's house with our enemies. We hit it off instantly but didn't get a chance to talk much after that, but we did say hi whenever we saw each other.
Kate: We met in 7th grade, I sat at a table with one of her friends during English class when we had to read this play, and then Kate came and Cael came. The four of us spent the whole class laughing and started doing that whenever we got to be in groups.
Chloe: Chloe had been in my elementary school but our paths had never crossed. We met during lunch in middle school when somebody at her table threw something and it hit me, she apologized and I didn't see her again until this year when we found out we had several of the same classes together.
Lara: We met in elementary school...believe it or not...I can't really remember how we met...I think I was about 8 or 9 years old maybe...I don't really remember that far back, all I know is we didn't hit it off that quickly, and we didn't talk for years because we never saw each other. (we only recently started talking again this year)
Kay: I met her in elementary school too, she was in my girl scout troop, she was quiet around me and I was sort of quiet around her.
Wren: The first time we met it was because of Cael and Nate. Last year they came up with this Hallway tag thing and both of us were playing, at one point the four of us just stood in a circle and tagged each other. After that I saw her a few times talking to other people.
Honorary Family
While Terri was over my house, she told me about her best friend "Mel" and how Mel has a key to her house and basically comes over whenever she wants, sometimes she just comes over to grab a sandwich and go. Mel was adopted into her family.
My best friend Anna can't do what Mel does though, her house is a 20 minute drive from my house...on a good day. It feels a lot longer though, but Anna has been my best friend for as long as I can remember, and she knows every single person in my family.
This year my cousin Terri is making her confirmation and was allowed to have a party. Since Terri, Anna and I are all close, Terri asked if she could invite Anna, her mother said that Anna wasn't part of the family. Although my aunt doesn't know, that Anna is part of the family, she was adopted into our family years ago, just like Mel has been adopted into Terri's family.
Now, I really have to meet Mel, because I have a feeling that Terri, Anna and I are no longer going to be a threesome but a foursome...because Mel sounds so cool and would fit in perfectly with us!
My best friend Anna can't do what Mel does though, her house is a 20 minute drive from my house...on a good day. It feels a lot longer though, but Anna has been my best friend for as long as I can remember, and she knows every single person in my family.
This year my cousin Terri is making her confirmation and was allowed to have a party. Since Terri, Anna and I are all close, Terri asked if she could invite Anna, her mother said that Anna wasn't part of the family. Although my aunt doesn't know, that Anna is part of the family, she was adopted into our family years ago, just like Mel has been adopted into Terri's family.
Now, I really have to meet Mel, because I have a feeling that Terri, Anna and I are no longer going to be a threesome but a foursome...because Mel sounds so cool and would fit in perfectly with us!
People and Their Stupid Thoughts
I just remembered this...on my last day of school for 2007, while I was waiting to get picked up, I met up with my friend Will, and he told me that he was surprised people didn't think that we were dating because we always hang out and we were walking towards each other.
Truthfully though, now that I think about it, people always thought I was dating Cael because we always hung out, even if people had only seen us for the first time they believed we were dating (they probably think we broke up now because we refuse to acknowledge the others presence) I think the only person who didn't think that right off the bat (and admitted to that) was Laquan.
But it is really annoying that even in today's society when boys and girls do hang out, people still think they are dating. IT IS SOOOO ANNOYING!
Truthfully though, now that I think about it, people always thought I was dating Cael because we always hung out, even if people had only seen us for the first time they believed we were dating (they probably think we broke up now because we refuse to acknowledge the others presence) I think the only person who didn't think that right off the bat (and admitted to that) was Laquan.
But it is really annoying that even in today's society when boys and girls do hang out, people still think they are dating. IT IS SOOOO ANNOYING!
My Year In a Nutshell
Like I mentioned in the last post, my cousin Terri came for Christmas and we hadn't spoken in months. So obviously we had a lot to catch up on.
Her first question was "Tell me all about Cael"
If you don't know, Cael had been my best guy friend since I was 9. He ditched me for this other girl in May or June of 9th grade which really upset me, he tried apologizing but I refused to listen. For several weeks I was prodded by several adults to apologize to him for walking away, but I didn't want to. I even talked to my Guidance Counselor about it, I don't remember what she had told me, but I do remember something about apologies in there. Over the summer I went to his house and told him everything, we took a long walk around his neighborhood, caught up and decided we were friends again. If only it were that simple. I started waiting for him and Nate outside of their math class which is when I started talking to Salad, actually the day I started talking to him, Cael ditched me. So I explained it all to Terri, when she heard Salad though, her eyes lit up.
"Salad...Tell me about him."
I told him, he was cute and that he was a senior, then at home I told her all about his relationship issues with Chrissy, that I told Salad I liked him, that he ignored me for a month, we became friends and he now confides in me with his relationship issues.
I told her that the people that were at the party in August were now out of my life and that I had newer and better friends. That Will had asked me to marry him once and to date him at least 10 times in the past few months. About George and his craziness and about Frank. I told her about all my friends and their weird antics, I even showed her a video of my friends at lunch...the one they took a few weeks ago.
She in turn told me about her friends, how her ex-boyfriend is a whore and how we all really need to get together. Her and her friends, Me and my friends, and Anna and her friends...boy that would be one hell of a party.
Her first question was "Tell me all about Cael"
If you don't know, Cael had been my best guy friend since I was 9. He ditched me for this other girl in May or June of 9th grade which really upset me, he tried apologizing but I refused to listen. For several weeks I was prodded by several adults to apologize to him for walking away, but I didn't want to. I even talked to my Guidance Counselor about it, I don't remember what she had told me, but I do remember something about apologies in there. Over the summer I went to his house and told him everything, we took a long walk around his neighborhood, caught up and decided we were friends again. If only it were that simple. I started waiting for him and Nate outside of their math class which is when I started talking to Salad, actually the day I started talking to him, Cael ditched me. So I explained it all to Terri, when she heard Salad though, her eyes lit up.
"Salad...Tell me about him."
I told him, he was cute and that he was a senior, then at home I told her all about his relationship issues with Chrissy, that I told Salad I liked him, that he ignored me for a month, we became friends and he now confides in me with his relationship issues.
I told her that the people that were at the party in August were now out of my life and that I had newer and better friends. That Will had asked me to marry him once and to date him at least 10 times in the past few months. About George and his craziness and about Frank. I told her about all my friends and their weird antics, I even showed her a video of my friends at lunch...the one they took a few weeks ago.
She in turn told me about her friends, how her ex-boyfriend is a whore and how we all really need to get together. Her and her friends, Me and my friends, and Anna and her friends...boy that would be one hell of a party.
Broken to Whole in 5 minutes flat
Back in August my favorite cousin "Terri" came to stay with me for the week, but the weather sucked and since my parents were both at work all day long, it was really just the two of us (and sometimes Anna) alone with my brother. Needless to say it got boring fast, and by the end of the week, she wanted to leave and I wanted her to leave. We ended off her visit in a sour note...we had a fight over something really stupid.
Really though...both of us were ready to pull our hair out.
We didn't really talk the last few minutes of her visit and then I got a phone call the next day from her apologizing. I tried to call back, but every time I did...she wouldn't answer her cell.
On Christmas Eve, we were supposed to meet up in church, it would be the first time we saw each other in several months. I was nervous all day long, freaking out actually. I tried to tell myself that she wasn't mad at me anymore, or that she must have forgotten about it since school and life had been so hectic.
When I got there, I smiled, she stuck her tongue out and I did the same, she talked to me and we laughed and caught up on every aspect of each others lives. I'll get more into detail about that in another post though.
After dinner, we went up to my room, called Anna and then talked about how bad we felt over the last few months, and it turned out that every time I called her, I was calling somebody else since I had the wrong number. Oops, well I won't have to worry about that anymore, she checked it herself and we promised to call each other more often. Maybe even during school hours.
Really though...both of us were ready to pull our hair out.
We didn't really talk the last few minutes of her visit and then I got a phone call the next day from her apologizing. I tried to call back, but every time I did...she wouldn't answer her cell.
On Christmas Eve, we were supposed to meet up in church, it would be the first time we saw each other in several months. I was nervous all day long, freaking out actually. I tried to tell myself that she wasn't mad at me anymore, or that she must have forgotten about it since school and life had been so hectic.
When I got there, I smiled, she stuck her tongue out and I did the same, she talked to me and we laughed and caught up on every aspect of each others lives. I'll get more into detail about that in another post though.
After dinner, we went up to my room, called Anna and then talked about how bad we felt over the last few months, and it turned out that every time I called her, I was calling somebody else since I had the wrong number. Oops, well I won't have to worry about that anymore, she checked it herself and we promised to call each other more often. Maybe even during school hours.
A Song For All Needs
The reason I changed the quote thing to "Something to think about" was because I have been listening to music that fits my mood for a long time. When I'm upset I put on a depressing song that talks about what made me sad, when I like somebody I listen to a love song that talks about that.
So over this long break I've been thinking about Salad...but surprisingly not the way I have been. Now...I don't like him as much...I mean I still like him but not like I used to. As I mentioned in another post earlier this month, he is hung up over a girl, so I heard this song that fits his emotions right now so well. The song is: Even Angels Fall by Jessica Riddle.
Here's the story I get from it: There is a guy who has fallen in love with a girl, but the girl broke up with him for some reason and the guy is looking for help. His friend (that is a girl) is explaining to him about love and how hard it is while telling him that he will get over her one day and that love hurts and it doesn't just happen to him, it can happen to everybody...even angels. That's what I get out of it, and every time I listen to it, I think of Salad and his broken relationship with Chrissy.
So over this long break I've been thinking about Salad...but surprisingly not the way I have been. Now...I don't like him as much...I mean I still like him but not like I used to. As I mentioned in another post earlier this month, he is hung up over a girl, so I heard this song that fits his emotions right now so well. The song is: Even Angels Fall by Jessica Riddle.
Here's the story I get from it: There is a guy who has fallen in love with a girl, but the girl broke up with him for some reason and the guy is looking for help. His friend (that is a girl) is explaining to him about love and how hard it is while telling him that he will get over her one day and that love hurts and it doesn't just happen to him, it can happen to everybody...even angels. That's what I get out of it, and every time I listen to it, I think of Salad and his broken relationship with Chrissy.
Late Christmas
I'm sorry I took so long, the holidays are important in my household because we always seem to have somebody over and the preparation is time consuming. I've got several days to catch up on, so I'll get started in the next post. Right now I'm just going to post a quick poem I wrote over holiday break.
Friends are people who care
Who tell you right from wrong
Who hug you when your down
Who keep you sane.
Friends know how to cheer you up
What buttons to push
When to stop
And when to bring extra food
Friends pry when you keep secrets
But they do it out of love
And you can always go to them for advice
They keep you happy.
But most of all...
Friends are the people you can always talk to
and in return, they keep you from hurting yourself.
Any friend who doesn't do this...isn't a true friend.
Friends are people who care
Who tell you right from wrong
Who hug you when your down
Who keep you sane.
Friends know how to cheer you up
What buttons to push
When to stop
And when to bring extra food
Friends pry when you keep secrets
But they do it out of love
And you can always go to them for advice
They keep you happy.
But most of all...
Friends are the people you can always talk to
and in return, they keep you from hurting yourself.
Any friend who doesn't do this...isn't a true friend.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Reasons for My Ways...
12/20/07
Salad- We beat you guys again today. I have so much fun playing soccer in that gym especially when i score. What{s up with you.
A- Yeah of course u like it when u score. Who doesn't?
Nothing's really up with me...i'm really doing nothing. What's up with u?
Salad- i am going to a youth group today like every wednesday. We play soccer in there and i get to see two of my best friends B and L are really cool. We also play soccer with them since they like it so much as well as i do. Im also getting family from FLORIDA this Friday. All of these is helping me forget about Chrissy. Its really hard. Trust me it really is
A- Cool sounds like a lot of fun, I have family coming down on Christmas eve.
I trust you on that...I've felt that way about a boyfriend before. It is hard.
Salad- Uhhh yeah.... could be but we are all different. Im nor the type of person that forgets about others easily when i like them. But whatever i wish it didnt matter. you are writting a noverl cool. ill see you tomorrow because im getting ready to leave.
A- Ok, see you tomorrow...and good luck in trying to get Chrissy off your mind.
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That was a convo between Salad and I on myspace...and as I reread it, I realized how dumb I must sound talking about an ex boyfriend. That is why whenever something like this comes up, I use examples from other people. My love life...was really...really bad...and I think Salad thought I was talking about him.
You see, Cael and Nate are two of my ex boyfriends, and one of their friends "Justin" is also one of their friends and my ex boyfriend. And those after-relationships didn't go well...I really don't talk to any of them anymore. And my last boyfriend...that's a whole other story...so I don't like talking about it, and when it comes up, it brings up an awkward conversation (unless you are Chris or Will) so there's my reasoning...if anybody really wants to know about any of those guys, they can ask...but unless they ask it's locked up in a safe so it doesn't get thrown into conversations or advice I have or give.
Salad- We beat you guys again today. I have so much fun playing soccer in that gym especially when i score. What{s up with you.
A- Yeah of course u like it when u score. Who doesn't?
Nothing's really up with me...i'm really doing nothing. What's up with u?
Salad- i am going to a youth group today like every wednesday. We play soccer in there and i get to see two of my best friends B and L are really cool. We also play soccer with them since they like it so much as well as i do. Im also getting family from FLORIDA this Friday. All of these is helping me forget about Chrissy. Its really hard. Trust me it really is
A- Cool sounds like a lot of fun, I have family coming down on Christmas eve.
I trust you on that...I've felt that way about a boyfriend before. It is hard.
Salad- Uhhh yeah.... could be but we are all different. Im nor the type of person that forgets about others easily when i like them. But whatever i wish it didnt matter. you are writting a noverl cool. ill see you tomorrow because im getting ready to leave.
A- Ok, see you tomorrow...and good luck in trying to get Chrissy off your mind.
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That was a convo between Salad and I on myspace...and as I reread it, I realized how dumb I must sound talking about an ex boyfriend. That is why whenever something like this comes up, I use examples from other people. My love life...was really...really bad...and I think Salad thought I was talking about him.
You see, Cael and Nate are two of my ex boyfriends, and one of their friends "Justin" is also one of their friends and my ex boyfriend. And those after-relationships didn't go well...I really don't talk to any of them anymore. And my last boyfriend...that's a whole other story...so I don't like talking about it, and when it comes up, it brings up an awkward conversation (unless you are Chris or Will) so there's my reasoning...if anybody really wants to know about any of those guys, they can ask...but unless they ask it's locked up in a safe so it doesn't get thrown into conversations or advice I have or give.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Jealousy
According to Dictionary.com, Jealousy is: vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
My guy friends definition of Jealousy is: Do something that will help make that guy want her more.
As you can imagine, it was yet another attempt at Salad. This time though...it was a completely different situation.
My school had this pep rally thing for reading on Friday, and right before the pep rally, I had been waiting for Kate and Charlotte who were taking forever and when we finally got out the door, I saw Salad walking down the hall (of course we see each other in the math wing...that's the only place we ever see each other) so I was really excited because that meant he'd be at the pep rally.
I got to the pep rally and met up with my all my friends, and near the beginning of the pep rally (after almost giving up hope) I saw Salad, sitting right across the gym from me. I showed Angie, who in turn pretty much showed everybody else. So will told Laquan to hug me when Salad was looking so that he would get jealous. So he did, and then I was trying to explain to the guys that he sees me hugging Aaron everyday and he knows that I hang out with a lot of guys...I doubt he'd get jealous. Although I did find it funny that the whole time he was listening to his music, not paying attention, while his friend next to him was practically begging him to watch the people dance.
So...if he got jealous...I dunno. I haven't talked to him yet...I probably could now since he's on myspace but since it is late I'm not going to...but I doubt he's jealous...I doubt he even saw. He's still hung up on his ex...and I am trying to help him through it...aren't I a good friend? :)
My guy friends definition of Jealousy is: Do something that will help make that guy want her more.
As you can imagine, it was yet another attempt at Salad. This time though...it was a completely different situation.
My school had this pep rally thing for reading on Friday, and right before the pep rally, I had been waiting for Kate and Charlotte who were taking forever and when we finally got out the door, I saw Salad walking down the hall (of course we see each other in the math wing...that's the only place we ever see each other) so I was really excited because that meant he'd be at the pep rally.
I got to the pep rally and met up with my all my friends, and near the beginning of the pep rally (after almost giving up hope) I saw Salad, sitting right across the gym from me. I showed Angie, who in turn pretty much showed everybody else. So will told Laquan to hug me when Salad was looking so that he would get jealous. So he did, and then I was trying to explain to the guys that he sees me hugging Aaron everyday and he knows that I hang out with a lot of guys...I doubt he'd get jealous. Although I did find it funny that the whole time he was listening to his music, not paying attention, while his friend next to him was practically begging him to watch the people dance.
So...if he got jealous...I dunno. I haven't talked to him yet...I probably could now since he's on myspace but since it is late I'm not going to...but I doubt he's jealous...I doubt he even saw. He's still hung up on his ex...and I am trying to help him through it...aren't I a good friend? :)
Fighting The Dementors
Every other day, I have gym after chem and since soccer is the sport we're playing now, every day Salad and I spend up to a minute...or two talking about how one of us is going to win and it isn't going to be the other person. (In other words I tell him I'm going to win, he tells me he's going to win) Friday...that didn't happen.
Salad and I barely talked in chem and we didn't play soccer in gym so...yeah.
Instead, since we were having this reading pep rally thing later that day, some people were dressed up, and Wren was dressed up as Hermione Granger, she had a wand and everything. So my friends and I were playing around. Laquan was pretending to be Harry Potter and he was going to fight the dementors, and since I had a black sweat jacket I was the dementor, Lara helped me make it look like you could only see my mouth...which was cool...except for the fact that I couldn't see out of the opening, so when Laquan was running I couldn't see where he was running, but when he finally did use the spell, I fell to the ground and it was supposedly hilarious. Yeah...I have a feeling I won't be living that down for awhile...but it was fun and it definitely passed the time.
Salad and I barely talked in chem and we didn't play soccer in gym so...yeah.
Instead, since we were having this reading pep rally thing later that day, some people were dressed up, and Wren was dressed up as Hermione Granger, she had a wand and everything. So my friends and I were playing around. Laquan was pretending to be Harry Potter and he was going to fight the dementors, and since I had a black sweat jacket I was the dementor, Lara helped me make it look like you could only see my mouth...which was cool...except for the fact that I couldn't see out of the opening, so when Laquan was running I couldn't see where he was running, but when he finally did use the spell, I fell to the ground and it was supposedly hilarious. Yeah...I have a feeling I won't be living that down for awhile...but it was fun and it definitely passed the time.
Math...Math...Math
So Thursday we had a sub in math class and Kate and Will weren't talking...so it was definitely a different day.
Kate did her work with Wren and Jazz while I did mine with Will and "Buffoon" which was definitely interesting. The three of us are terrible together, we are perverted and spend more time laughing and not paying attention than doing anything else. I think my face was as red as an apple when the class was over. I'm not going to get into all the details about it because I don't remember much and what I do remember I can't write into a blog...but it was funny so I will let all you readers use your imagination.
Kate did her work with Wren and Jazz while I did mine with Will and "Buffoon" which was definitely interesting. The three of us are terrible together, we are perverted and spend more time laughing and not paying attention than doing anything else. I think my face was as red as an apple when the class was over. I'm not going to get into all the details about it because I don't remember much and what I do remember I can't write into a blog...but it was funny so I will let all you readers use your imagination.
Apparently...I still like Salad
Once upon a time...a few days ago, I was walking down the math wing to my locker. Okay...so this was Thursday, but I really was going to my locker...honestly...Will just doesn't believe me.
You see chem had finished and I was going to homeroom and I decided to go down the nearest staircase (which Salad takes to get to his homeroom) and we were both walking down the hallway (nowhere near each other) and Will saw us, and the minute he saw Salad go into his homeroom he goes up to me and accuses me of stalking Salad, and just as I'm explaining that I was going to my locker which is right nearby, Salad comes out and walks over to us. Awkward isn't it? Then Aaron comes over just as I'm explaining to Salad that he isn't interrupting anything important...or anything at all. So that was...definitely something I wish I had video taped...I mean it wasn't funny...it was just...um...weird.
Then during 7th period, Will accused me of flirting with Salad while he was talking to me...sure I said that I wasn't but now that I think about it, I was...
You see chem had finished and I was going to homeroom and I decided to go down the nearest staircase (which Salad takes to get to his homeroom) and we were both walking down the hallway (nowhere near each other) and Will saw us, and the minute he saw Salad go into his homeroom he goes up to me and accuses me of stalking Salad, and just as I'm explaining that I was going to my locker which is right nearby, Salad comes out and walks over to us. Awkward isn't it? Then Aaron comes over just as I'm explaining to Salad that he isn't interrupting anything important...or anything at all. So that was...definitely something I wish I had video taped...I mean it wasn't funny...it was just...um...weird.
Then during 7th period, Will accused me of flirting with Salad while he was talking to me...sure I said that I wasn't but now that I think about it, I was...
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
My Friends...the Weirdos
Have I ever mentioned that my friends are weirdos? The answer: Not really.
Well I just did, and it is true. They are weird! I love them anyway though.
You see it all started in chem (isn't that where all my interesting stories start?) at the end of class it was the terrible six (that's CoaHR talk for myself, Angie, Aaron, Kate, Frank and Salad) standing in the back of the classroom being idiots. We talked about shoveling and sleeping...apparently the average person sleeps for half of their lifetime (a little trivia brought to you by Salad) which was a very interesting conversation.
Frank: I'm tired.
Kate: There's this little thing called sleep.
Salad: (scoff) Who has time to sleep?
Frank and Aaron: (Agree)
Salad: The average person sleeps for half their lifetime...especially you people.
Kate, Angie and I: What?
Kate: (points to herself) This person sleeps for five hours weekdays!
Salad: Good for you.
(long silence)
Okay...it was funny when I was there...so maybe you have to be there to really understand it.
Then before homeroom, I was walking down the hall with Kate, Angie, Frank and Lara when Lara pushed Frank and he ended up falling onto the ground. It was f-ing hilarious! During study hall, Angie and I went elsewhere and Angie made fun of our chem teacher right after she left the room! And when I went downstairs Salad was acting...well I would say stupidly but it was funny and he does that often. He really just did a funny gesture. And George during lunch was...definitely a sight. I promised to give him some pictures on myspace. But I have to admit they are weirdos...I can't explain it all in words...but they are.
Well I just did, and it is true. They are weird! I love them anyway though.
You see it all started in chem (isn't that where all my interesting stories start?) at the end of class it was the terrible six (that's CoaHR talk for myself, Angie, Aaron, Kate, Frank and Salad) standing in the back of the classroom being idiots. We talked about shoveling and sleeping...apparently the average person sleeps for half of their lifetime (a little trivia brought to you by Salad) which was a very interesting conversation.
Frank: I'm tired.
Kate: There's this little thing called sleep.
Salad: (scoff) Who has time to sleep?
Frank and Aaron: (Agree)
Salad: The average person sleeps for half their lifetime...especially you people.
Kate, Angie and I: What?
Kate: (points to herself) This person sleeps for five hours weekdays!
Salad: Good for you.
(long silence)
Okay...it was funny when I was there...so maybe you have to be there to really understand it.
Then before homeroom, I was walking down the hall with Kate, Angie, Frank and Lara when Lara pushed Frank and he ended up falling onto the ground. It was f-ing hilarious! During study hall, Angie and I went elsewhere and Angie made fun of our chem teacher right after she left the room! And when I went downstairs Salad was acting...well I would say stupidly but it was funny and he does that often. He really just did a funny gesture. And George during lunch was...definitely a sight. I promised to give him some pictures on myspace. But I have to admit they are weirdos...I can't explain it all in words...but they are.
Monday, December 17, 2007
SET UP!?!?
Okay, so Will decided that I need a boyfriend to get my mind off Salad and he is going to find one for me, he promised the guy would be good and that I would like him.
There's a whole list of things that the guy has to be, here are a few things:
There's a whole list of things that the guy has to be, here are a few things:
- Not Racist (the last guy I liked apparently was, so Frank and George wouldn't let me date him)
- Caring
- Loyal
- Likes the same things I like (Good luck with that)
- Athletic
Good for Nothing or What?
During my study hall, Chloe, Angie, Tawnee and I were talking about guys. Things like turn-ons, and turn-offs, engagement rings and all that stuff.
Sure we were thinking into the future, but that's what we do! We dream up our perfect guy, ring, engagement, wedding dress, prom dress and all that stuff without being extremely picky on the details. For example we say things like: white, black, hispanic, asian, blue eyes, curly hair, a nice ring, a frilly dress. Nothing too specific is mentioned.
Of course Chloe brought up that guys are good for nothing but lust and heartbreaking, she said that she would never marry for love, just money.
Although Angie, Tawnee and I rolled our eyes and groaned...somehow I can't help but agree with her. Maybe guys aren't worth much to me besides friendship. That doesn't mean I'm going to date girls though...I mean I did like a girl once but that didn't last long. Salad kind of began to mean more to me than any other guy. But who knows right? Maybe I just need the right person.
Sure we were thinking into the future, but that's what we do! We dream up our perfect guy, ring, engagement, wedding dress, prom dress and all that stuff without being extremely picky on the details. For example we say things like: white, black, hispanic, asian, blue eyes, curly hair, a nice ring, a frilly dress. Nothing too specific is mentioned.
Of course Chloe brought up that guys are good for nothing but lust and heartbreaking, she said that she would never marry for love, just money.
Although Angie, Tawnee and I rolled our eyes and groaned...somehow I can't help but agree with her. Maybe guys aren't worth much to me besides friendship. That doesn't mean I'm going to date girls though...I mean I did like a girl once but that didn't last long. Salad kind of began to mean more to me than any other guy. But who knows right? Maybe I just need the right person.
The Ballad of Salad
Salad and I are competitive...and we have been since the day we met. And take me seriously when I say competitive here. We have an unspoken rule that whoever wins a game of badminton, baseball, hockey and soccer...especially soccer...has bragging rights until the next game. And if the other person makes any mistake, the other person can laugh openly at them.
So today, I figured that was how it would be. We play, I lost, when we see each other again, he brags for a few minutes, we leave and don't talk to each other until the next day. It was how we worked I guess, even though I didn't like it. But that's not what happened.
I got out of study hall and walked over to the math wing, and Salad came over and started gloating and we talked about that for a little bit, then he mentioned that he was mad. So I asked him why he was mad and why yesterday he was so upset...and he told me...everything!
"Chrissy." Salad said simply.
"What happened now?" I asked.
"She's weird."
"Chrissy? Weird? How?"
"She's just...weird."
"How?"
"She broke up with me."
"O...kay..."
"I didn't date anybody for a year and I planned everything out perfectly so I wouldn't end up like this."
"That sucks."
"So where are you going next?"
"uhm...I'm going to art."
"Okay come on." Salad and I start walking down the hallway towards art, still talking as we're walking.
"I don't get it...what's not to like about you? Your sweet, caring...and you play soccer!"
"It's not me...it's her."
"okay..."
"I asked her why she told me that it was because I was still in love with my last girlfriend."
"What?"
"I mentioned her a few times but it's hard not too..."
"When you've known somebody for so long..."
Yeah, and when you hang out with somebody for so long."
"Where's your old girlfriend now?"
"She graduated"
"Oh."
"Yeah, I haven't seen her in a year!
"But get this, right after she said that I was still in love with my ex and then she said that I loved her too much."
"That's impossible! No girl can be loved too much."
"Yeah, and how can I be so in love with my ex-girlfriend and Chrissy at the same time!?" (insert long sigh here) "Don't you think Chrissy's weird?"
"Uhm...I really don't know her that well."
"Even after all I told you, you don't think she's weird?"
"Okay, Okay! She's weird!"
"Thanks...now you have lunch now right?"
"No...art."
"Oh." (long pause) "See you later then."
"Yeah, see you."
We both walk away.
Now, if I had it my way, I would have told Angie all about it but on my way to lunch, I ran into Salad and he told me not to tell them...so I didn't. But it sucks though...love I mean. And now I'm being set up with a guy so who knows what's going to happen with that...I really don't want to end up like Salad.
So today, I figured that was how it would be. We play, I lost, when we see each other again, he brags for a few minutes, we leave and don't talk to each other until the next day. It was how we worked I guess, even though I didn't like it. But that's not what happened.
I got out of study hall and walked over to the math wing, and Salad came over and started gloating and we talked about that for a little bit, then he mentioned that he was mad. So I asked him why he was mad and why yesterday he was so upset...and he told me...everything!
"Chrissy." Salad said simply.
"What happened now?" I asked.
"She's weird."
"Chrissy? Weird? How?"
"She's just...weird."
"How?"
"She broke up with me."
"O...kay..."
"I didn't date anybody for a year and I planned everything out perfectly so I wouldn't end up like this."
"That sucks."
"So where are you going next?"
"uhm...I'm going to art."
"Okay come on." Salad and I start walking down the hallway towards art, still talking as we're walking.
"I don't get it...what's not to like about you? Your sweet, caring...and you play soccer!"
"It's not me...it's her."
"okay..."
"I asked her why she told me that it was because I was still in love with my last girlfriend."
"What?"
"I mentioned her a few times but it's hard not too..."
"When you've known somebody for so long..."
Yeah, and when you hang out with somebody for so long."
"Where's your old girlfriend now?"
"She graduated"
"Oh."
"Yeah, I haven't seen her in a year!
"But get this, right after she said that I was still in love with my ex and then she said that I loved her too much."
"That's impossible! No girl can be loved too much."
"Yeah, and how can I be so in love with my ex-girlfriend and Chrissy at the same time!?" (insert long sigh here) "Don't you think Chrissy's weird?"
"Uhm...I really don't know her that well."
"Even after all I told you, you don't think she's weird?"
"Okay, Okay! She's weird!"
"Thanks...now you have lunch now right?"
"No...art."
"Oh." (long pause) "See you later then."
"Yeah, see you."
We both walk away.
Now, if I had it my way, I would have told Angie all about it but on my way to lunch, I ran into Salad and he told me not to tell them...so I didn't. But it sucks though...love I mean. And now I'm being set up with a guy so who knows what's going to happen with that...I really don't want to end up like Salad.
The "Terrible" Double Trio
So in my chem class today, there were only 11 people there and since there was a delay, it was a 30 minute class and all we had were a few definitions.
So...I decided to sit in front of Kate, who sits next to Angie, and Aaron sat in between Kate and Salad, and Frank sat in front of Salad...and we spent a lot of time talking and goofing around when we were supposed to be doing our work. It was so much fun! Our teacher had to tell us so many times to stop talking and do our work...we were louder than Kat and Jen!
But it was fun, we talked about soccer, chem, and a few other things. So we laughed...a lot. It was definitely a morning to remember, and I would have taken pictures of it but my chem teacher didn't seem to be in a good mood so that wasn't a good idea.
And in gym...all of us...except for Kate played soccer. Frank, Angie and Salad (plus others) against Aaron and I. (plus others) Aaron and I ended up losing 2-0 but the fun was in the time we all spent together...along with a whole bunch of other people. Of course Angie and I were the only girls in that group but we had tons of fun nonetheless.
So...I decided to sit in front of Kate, who sits next to Angie, and Aaron sat in between Kate and Salad, and Frank sat in front of Salad...and we spent a lot of time talking and goofing around when we were supposed to be doing our work. It was so much fun! Our teacher had to tell us so many times to stop talking and do our work...we were louder than Kat and Jen!
But it was fun, we talked about soccer, chem, and a few other things. So we laughed...a lot. It was definitely a morning to remember, and I would have taken pictures of it but my chem teacher didn't seem to be in a good mood so that wasn't a good idea.
And in gym...all of us...except for Kate played soccer. Frank, Angie and Salad (plus others) against Aaron and I. (plus others) Aaron and I ended up losing 2-0 but the fun was in the time we all spent together...along with a whole bunch of other people. Of course Angie and I were the only girls in that group but we had tons of fun nonetheless.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Class Online
Today, my school had a snow day because there was a prediction of snow (none had fallen yet), So, I did what every teenager would do...sleep in and then when you wake up, go on the computer. And since a few days earlier I had made a myspace, I went there, mostly to see if Salad had accepted my friend request...and if anybody else I sent a friend request to accepted it. I got on and noticed that Salad was on, "Leah" was on, Nate was on, Kat was on...okay so in short most students in my high school were on myspace that morning.
So now I'm glad we have no school, even though I wanted to get out earlier, I still got to talk to Salad...but it wasn't like what it would have been if we were at school. All he basically said was:
Hey A wut's up? No school 2day, c u tomorrow if we have school.
Pretty pathetic huh? Oh well, my message back was just as pathetic so it's not like it put his to shame. (I am waiting for him to come on again later, maybe I'll talk to him again but more.)
I'll admit it though, I've never had so much interest in myspace before...and I probably only like it because of Salad.
So now I'm glad we have no school, even though I wanted to get out earlier, I still got to talk to Salad...but it wasn't like what it would have been if we were at school. All he basically said was:
Hey A wut's up? No school 2day, c u tomorrow if we have school.
Pretty pathetic huh? Oh well, my message back was just as pathetic so it's not like it put his to shame. (I am waiting for him to come on again later, maybe I'll talk to him again but more.)
I'll admit it though, I've never had so much interest in myspace before...and I probably only like it because of Salad.
Can't Take It Much Longer!
I've known this girl Rose since I was like...6 years old. She was nice, and I liked hanging out with her but we've been growing apart since middle school.
Rose is my problem, not growing apart...I have to admit this...but Kiki was right...Rose is annoying. I guess I didn't notice it in elementary school because Rose didn't like the guy I liked, she liked the guy Kiki liked. No, Rose doesn't like Salad...but she likes to torment me about him...but only because Will and Kate started it. She bugs Angie about eating...and boys too, but Angie jumps around from guy to guy really quickly so it's hard to peg what guy to make fun of...not like my interest in Salad.
Anyway, Rose started sitting with me on the first day of school, and went with me no matter where I sat. At first I didn't mind, even when I went to sit with Frank and George, I didn't mind...until she started "sticking up" for me. (Rose is as old as Frank, Salad and George are but is in my grade for various reasons and since I'm the youngest...yeah.) Anyway, I tried to ignore it but she's been getting on my nerves, I try to act nice but yesterday I was starting to snap...she was really getting on my nerves, and it didn't help that Salad and Frank had made it harder for me that morning and George was making it harder for me during class.
Last year around this time, the girls at my lunch table kicked off this really annoying girl, but we got her to leave because she thought we were talking about her behind her back...which we were but we would never tell her that. So she left...it's not going to be that easy with Rose but I'm hoping that sooner or later she'll want to go sit with some of her other friends. I'm also really hoping that it happens sooner, not later.
Rose is my problem, not growing apart...I have to admit this...but Kiki was right...Rose is annoying. I guess I didn't notice it in elementary school because Rose didn't like the guy I liked, she liked the guy Kiki liked. No, Rose doesn't like Salad...but she likes to torment me about him...but only because Will and Kate started it. She bugs Angie about eating...and boys too, but Angie jumps around from guy to guy really quickly so it's hard to peg what guy to make fun of...not like my interest in Salad.
Anyway, Rose started sitting with me on the first day of school, and went with me no matter where I sat. At first I didn't mind, even when I went to sit with Frank and George, I didn't mind...until she started "sticking up" for me. (Rose is as old as Frank, Salad and George are but is in my grade for various reasons and since I'm the youngest...yeah.) Anyway, I tried to ignore it but she's been getting on my nerves, I try to act nice but yesterday I was starting to snap...she was really getting on my nerves, and it didn't help that Salad and Frank had made it harder for me that morning and George was making it harder for me during class.
Last year around this time, the girls at my lunch table kicked off this really annoying girl, but we got her to leave because she thought we were talking about her behind her back...which we were but we would never tell her that. So she left...it's not going to be that easy with Rose but I'm hoping that sooner or later she'll want to go sit with some of her other friends. I'm also really hoping that it happens sooner, not later.
Confused
This blog seems to talk about Salad a lot doesn't it? Since I started this blog, I've mentioned him 104 times which is a considerable amount because Frank is mentioned 66 times and everybody else is mentioned less than 35 times, with the exception of George who is mentioned 39 times. (The numbers are the amount of times the name is brought up from 11/1/07 the post right before this one)
Anyway, I came across this problem yesterday during school: Salad and Chrissy. The day before, Salad told me that they were over but he still wanted to be friends with her...but after chem class was over, he walked up behind her and started talking to her when Sherry took a picture of them and squeeled with delight. Now I wouldn't be hurt or anything...if Salad hadn't told me earlier that they broke up. Now either Sherry doesn't know they broke up, or Salad lied to me...which I doubt he would do because earlier during that class, Kate, Angie, Chrissy, 'Skye' and I were working on our lab, when all of the sudden this rock comes flying at us from out of nowhere. Actually...it came from Frank, Aaron and Salad's table...so I went over there and hit Frank who said Salad did it, so I hit both of them, hugged Aaron and left...after being called weird by Salad.
Salad and I, did of course share a moment...sort of...okay so it wasn't really a moment...or not a love/like one, just a friendship one...I think. Really it was me, Angie, Salad, Kate and Frank in the chem classroom. Frank said something in Spanish and Salad asked if he knew any other words in Spanish...Frank made a very short list of words he knew. Salad said something to him in Spanish that he didn't know (and Kate and Angie didn't know either because they take French) and Salad and I just looked at each other and smiled. It was nice...like he knew something, I didn't know...we didn't talk later that day though...Chris made it impossible because he was talking to me when Salad walked by...I hope Salad doesn't think I'm dating Chris...and if he does, I hope nobody told him that Chris gave me cookies as an early Christmas present on Tuesday before gym.
Anyway, I came across this problem yesterday during school: Salad and Chrissy. The day before, Salad told me that they were over but he still wanted to be friends with her...but after chem class was over, he walked up behind her and started talking to her when Sherry took a picture of them and squeeled with delight. Now I wouldn't be hurt or anything...if Salad hadn't told me earlier that they broke up. Now either Sherry doesn't know they broke up, or Salad lied to me...which I doubt he would do because earlier during that class, Kate, Angie, Chrissy, 'Skye' and I were working on our lab, when all of the sudden this rock comes flying at us from out of nowhere. Actually...it came from Frank, Aaron and Salad's table...so I went over there and hit Frank who said Salad did it, so I hit both of them, hugged Aaron and left...after being called weird by Salad.
Salad and I, did of course share a moment...sort of...okay so it wasn't really a moment...or not a love/like one, just a friendship one...I think. Really it was me, Angie, Salad, Kate and Frank in the chem classroom. Frank said something in Spanish and Salad asked if he knew any other words in Spanish...Frank made a very short list of words he knew. Salad said something to him in Spanish that he didn't know (and Kate and Angie didn't know either because they take French) and Salad and I just looked at each other and smiled. It was nice...like he knew something, I didn't know...we didn't talk later that day though...Chris made it impossible because he was talking to me when Salad walked by...I hope Salad doesn't think I'm dating Chris...and if he does, I hope nobody told him that Chris gave me cookies as an early Christmas present on Tuesday before gym.
I've been Slacking
...I know and I'm sorry, you see December 11th, I had a truly amazing day...with Salad!
It all started in gym class when I realized that we were playing soccer. Soccer is my favorite sport and Salad loves it too (Which means we've known each other for about a year now, since we met playing indoor soccer last year) and since Frank can finally play sports now and Aaron is also a soccer player, it was going to be amazing! And it was...I knew I was going to win...until I got my team. It was Frank, Aaron, Salad, Rayna, Angie, Chris and Karl against me, John, Lyle, "Jazz", "Lara", and two other guys who could actually play soccer. In other words the other team had the advantage and we lost 5-0. But on the bright side I rammed Frank and got the ball from Salad and Chris several times.
So I was pretty bummed that we lost, but can you blame me? Soccer is my sport and I lost to...well, I can't say losers because 3 of them can actually play soccer, and the other 4 can act like they can play soccer...so I just lost...to weirdos.
On the bright side though, Angie came to study hall that day and we had so much fun! Angie, Chloe, "Tawnee" and I were acting like idiots but it was so funny! We talked about hot boys, television, music, art...and anything else that came into our minds! I got a great picture of the three of them in our study hall!
After study hall I went to see Salad, and we ended up talking longer than I thought we would! First we talked about soccer;
Salad: Ha! In your face!
Me: Okay...you won.
Salad: 5 to nothing!
Me: At least I got the ball from you a few times.
Salad: (thinks for a minute) Yeah...you did...once. But I was in a bad mood.
Me: Why?
Salad: my girlfriend and I broke up. (for those of you who don't know, he's been "seeing" this girl that I've known since 6th grade)
Me: Wow...that was fast. Why'd you break up?
Salad: She's weird.
Me: (not convinced) She's weird?
Salad: And I'm weird too.
Me: Okay, I can agree with that.
(pause)
Me: You know...they were talking about you..."Chrissy" and "Sherry."
Salad: What'd they say?
Me: I dunno, Sherry said something like..."I'll talk to him for you"...but this was a while ago...so I don't remember exactly what she said.
Salad: I think I know when your talking about...was this after you sent me that note?
Me: A while after.
(pause)
Salad: You have to go to class right?
Me: Oh...just art.
Salad: Okay...well do you have a myspace or something?
Me: I used to but I got rid of it.
Salad: Get a new one, I want to talk to you on myspace.
Me: Okay.
And for the rest of that day, I was on top of the world, thinking that maybe...just maybe...I had a chance with him. I told Angie everything and she promised to keep everything a secret from everybody else. And when I got home...I set up my myspace.
It all started in gym class when I realized that we were playing soccer. Soccer is my favorite sport and Salad loves it too (Which means we've known each other for about a year now, since we met playing indoor soccer last year) and since Frank can finally play sports now and Aaron is also a soccer player, it was going to be amazing! And it was...I knew I was going to win...until I got my team. It was Frank, Aaron, Salad, Rayna, Angie, Chris and Karl against me, John, Lyle, "Jazz", "Lara", and two other guys who could actually play soccer. In other words the other team had the advantage and we lost 5-0. But on the bright side I rammed Frank and got the ball from Salad and Chris several times.
So I was pretty bummed that we lost, but can you blame me? Soccer is my sport and I lost to...well, I can't say losers because 3 of them can actually play soccer, and the other 4 can act like they can play soccer...so I just lost...to weirdos.
On the bright side though, Angie came to study hall that day and we had so much fun! Angie, Chloe, "Tawnee" and I were acting like idiots but it was so funny! We talked about hot boys, television, music, art...and anything else that came into our minds! I got a great picture of the three of them in our study hall!
After study hall I went to see Salad, and we ended up talking longer than I thought we would! First we talked about soccer;
Salad: Ha! In your face!
Me: Okay...you won.
Salad: 5 to nothing!
Me: At least I got the ball from you a few times.
Salad: (thinks for a minute) Yeah...you did...once. But I was in a bad mood.
Me: Why?
Salad: my girlfriend and I broke up. (for those of you who don't know, he's been "seeing" this girl that I've known since 6th grade)
Me: Wow...that was fast. Why'd you break up?
Salad: She's weird.
Me: (not convinced) She's weird?
Salad: And I'm weird too.
Me: Okay, I can agree with that.
(pause)
Me: You know...they were talking about you..."Chrissy" and "Sherry."
Salad: What'd they say?
Me: I dunno, Sherry said something like..."I'll talk to him for you"...but this was a while ago...so I don't remember exactly what she said.
Salad: I think I know when your talking about...was this after you sent me that note?
Me: A while after.
(pause)
Salad: You have to go to class right?
Me: Oh...just art.
Salad: Okay...well do you have a myspace or something?
Me: I used to but I got rid of it.
Salad: Get a new one, I want to talk to you on myspace.
Me: Okay.
And for the rest of that day, I was on top of the world, thinking that maybe...just maybe...I had a chance with him. I told Angie everything and she promised to keep everything a secret from everybody else. And when I got home...I set up my myspace.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Good Day...Bad Day
This is probably going to be short, but here's a list of good and bad parts of my day.
Good Things
Good Things
- Two hour delay
- Shortened Classes
- Two substitutes
- Kate and Angie were there today!
- Frank finally gave me my confessional back.
- I didn't do anything for the last hour of school
- My letter to the editor was read by people and it was in the paper!
- I did okay on my chem test.
- Chloe and Kay were in my lunch period for a little bit.
- There was practically no shampoo left when I took a shower
- I had two periods of chem
- Salad wasn't there at all.
- My chem teacher was in a bad mood
- I have TOO much chem homework.
- There were a lot of people absent today.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
"You Need a Guy"
Wow...in the past week...I've heard that a lot. Kate thinks that I should get one so I'll be completely over Salad now that he has a girlfriend. And Will's girlfriend thinks that I should get one too...probably for the same reasons. But apparently I am incapable of picking out the right guy because after Salad, every other guy I've liked doesn't live up to any of my friends standards.
"He's racist."
"He's ugly."
"You deserve better"
"Him? You like him? Out of all people him!?"
"No, keep that crush locked up inside the back of your mind and don't tell anybody that ever again."
"If you date him, in 4 months I will get a phone call from you in tears because of what he did to you, so forget about it now."
"I'm telling you this as a friend...a good friend. Don't date him...ever!"
Wow...they are harsh...well at least my parents have less to worry about because the guy I like has to go through my friends thorough examination before I'm allowed to develop any feelings for him. And people wonder why I still need a boyfriend. Of course they always say (before I tell them) I won't say anything about it, I'll say yeah, sure, great...yeah right they always have a comment about who I like. Technically the only guy they have all agreed on was Salad, after that whenever I start to feel over Salad and like another guy, my friends have something to say about him...and it usually isn't that great. Do they want me to keep liking him? Or do they want me to get over him? Because they're sending me mixed signals here. My friends...not the guys I like.
"He's racist."
"He's ugly."
"You deserve better"
"Him? You like him? Out of all people him!?"
"No, keep that crush locked up inside the back of your mind and don't tell anybody that ever again."
"If you date him, in 4 months I will get a phone call from you in tears because of what he did to you, so forget about it now."
"I'm telling you this as a friend...a good friend. Don't date him...ever!"
Wow...they are harsh...well at least my parents have less to worry about because the guy I like has to go through my friends thorough examination before I'm allowed to develop any feelings for him. And people wonder why I still need a boyfriend. Of course they always say (before I tell them) I won't say anything about it, I'll say yeah, sure, great...yeah right they always have a comment about who I like. Technically the only guy they have all agreed on was Salad, after that whenever I start to feel over Salad and like another guy, my friends have something to say about him...and it usually isn't that great. Do they want me to keep liking him? Or do they want me to get over him? Because they're sending me mixed signals here. My friends...not the guys I like.
The Un-Perks of Being the Baby
Out of all my friends, I am considered the baby no matter who I hang out with. Not only am I younger than most of my friends, I'm also apparently the least mature and I am treated like it. Actually...a lot of times I'm treated like I'm a f-ing 4 year-old and yes I have reasons to back up my thoughts.
Whenever I like a guy...my friends add their input
I guess it comes with age or something, but whenever I like a guy and my friends find out, they make sure that they tell me exactly what they are thinking. And usually they are thinking something like: "Are you Fucking kidding me?" then they list everything that's wrong with the guy and make a huge deal about it. I had no idea my love life was that important.
I get a lot of: Don't Make These Mistakes
I'm told a lot of times that when I do get a boyfriend (well that's going to be hard after what they do whenever I do like one) I should be careful about what I let him do. I got that a lot today.
"You Aren't Old Enough"
I got that a lot with my old friends, never mind that the oldest ones were 4 months older than me, the next was 2 days older than me, and the youngest is about a month younger than me. Apparently they forgot about that a lot.
Maybe one day I'll make more friends that are younger than me, then I can boss them around like my friends do now.
Whenever I like a guy...my friends add their input
I guess it comes with age or something, but whenever I like a guy and my friends find out, they make sure that they tell me exactly what they are thinking. And usually they are thinking something like: "Are you Fucking kidding me?" then they list everything that's wrong with the guy and make a huge deal about it. I had no idea my love life was that important.
I get a lot of: Don't Make These Mistakes
I'm told a lot of times that when I do get a boyfriend (well that's going to be hard after what they do whenever I do like one) I should be careful about what I let him do. I got that a lot today.
"You Aren't Old Enough"
I got that a lot with my old friends, never mind that the oldest ones were 4 months older than me, the next was 2 days older than me, and the youngest is about a month younger than me. Apparently they forgot about that a lot.
Maybe one day I'll make more friends that are younger than me, then I can boss them around like my friends do now.
Time Heals All Wounds
Earlier yesterday, I was having a shitty day. I came to school because I wanted to see Salad but I was sent to school to take my math test and my chem test. Well I think I failed that chem test but I could at least look forward to 'my guys' right? Eh...
I played badminton in gym with Karl, Frank, Salad, Chris, Aaron, and a couple other guys who randomly came in and left. Kay and another girl "Bee" played a little bit too. Anyway, we play badminton like ancient civilizations played soccer: Brutally. Can't picture it? Picture people swinging rackets hard and fast, people jumping and falling to get the birdie and like...10 teenage boys. So when I was the only girl playing, Salad hit the birdie and I jumped to get it but it was over my head and racket so I missed it. All of them (Starting with Salad) started laughing at me, and I was enjoying it (I love attention from guys...especially Salad) until Frank came and Salad left to be with the girl he liked...I think they are dating now but I'm not sure. I didn't think anything of it until I saw them walking arm and arm around the gym. Since when has Salad walked around the gym instead of playing a sport?
That wasn't the only thing that got me, after our math test, I heard Will talking to his friend saying that his girlfriend might be pregnant. I was surprised, I mean...it didn't surprise me that he was sleeping with his girlfriend because I kind of figured they were. Just the thought that a friend of yours is in a situation like that...it's hard.
Thankfully refuge came at the end of the day! I watched a rated R movie in Journalism class since we had a sub and the guys brought it in! And it snowed! I walked outside into a winter wonderland! It was so amazing! I was talking to George, who was waiting for his friend for a ride when Kate and Paris passed by playing around. Paris was singing and joking around and Kate was laughing. Then I walked across the street and talked to Chris, Kay and Wren. Kay and Wren were talking and Wren did a little dance and everything felt better.
Then I got home, listened to Taylor Swift, Jordan Pruitt and Rihanna for about an hour, shoveled the driveway and went out to dinner then felt so much better!
I played badminton in gym with Karl, Frank, Salad, Chris, Aaron, and a couple other guys who randomly came in and left. Kay and another girl "Bee" played a little bit too. Anyway, we play badminton like ancient civilizations played soccer: Brutally. Can't picture it? Picture people swinging rackets hard and fast, people jumping and falling to get the birdie and like...10 teenage boys. So when I was the only girl playing, Salad hit the birdie and I jumped to get it but it was over my head and racket so I missed it. All of them (Starting with Salad) started laughing at me, and I was enjoying it (I love attention from guys...especially Salad) until Frank came and Salad left to be with the girl he liked...I think they are dating now but I'm not sure. I didn't think anything of it until I saw them walking arm and arm around the gym. Since when has Salad walked around the gym instead of playing a sport?
That wasn't the only thing that got me, after our math test, I heard Will talking to his friend saying that his girlfriend might be pregnant. I was surprised, I mean...it didn't surprise me that he was sleeping with his girlfriend because I kind of figured they were. Just the thought that a friend of yours is in a situation like that...it's hard.
Thankfully refuge came at the end of the day! I watched a rated R movie in Journalism class since we had a sub and the guys brought it in! And it snowed! I walked outside into a winter wonderland! It was so amazing! I was talking to George, who was waiting for his friend for a ride when Kate and Paris passed by playing around. Paris was singing and joking around and Kate was laughing. Then I walked across the street and talked to Chris, Kay and Wren. Kay and Wren were talking and Wren did a little dance and everything felt better.
Then I got home, listened to Taylor Swift, Jordan Pruitt and Rihanna for about an hour, shoveled the driveway and went out to dinner then felt so much better!
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Hate That I Like You
So my last entry was long, long enough to get you all by for a day...or two-ish. It certainly has kept Frank busy for that long...and I don't think he even finished reading it yet. Whatever, here's another entry:
So, Salad said to me two days ago in between chemistry classes that he wanted to talk more because we were barely talking. Who was I to argue with that? I figured that I would give him some space but he thought I was mad at him or something. Once we got that figured out we were pestered by Frank, who called us both girls because we sounded like girls.
I didn't think that we would talk much, but he's been pestering me if I don't talk to him. I like talking to him but here's the problem...I'm not completely over him yet. I thought I was but I still get that excited feeling right before I see him after study hall...even when I'm not talking to him. And yes this is bad because he likes this other girl I know and I do want them to get together (I AM a good friend to those guys...a damn good friend!) so I can't like him...that's like being a hypocrite or something. So right now I hate that I like him because I do...and he doesn't like me like that. Why are boys so confusing?
It isn't just Salad that's bugging me though, George and Frank too. They pestered Aaron to tell them who I liked now (I don't like the guy anymore but oh well.) and when they found out, they came to lunch and listed several reasons why I shouldn't like him/go out with him.
I appreciate what your doing guys...but I can stand up for myself and make my own decisions.
Speaking of standing up for myself, my "friend" Rose has been bugging me lately. I once used her iced tea to throw some of it on Frank...the iced tea accidentally came out and splattered him...it looked like he wet his pants! (It was funny!) Ever since that, she's been using it as a threat to the guys and yesterday when George was going to try to draw a smiley face on my hand, at first I rebelled but once I let him, Rose poured her whole tea on George's head (the one day he had it in a Mohawk) and when I confronted her about it she said it was because he was doing it against my will so she "helped" (I'm adding those air quotes) by pouring the tea on his head...and my hand. I never felt so little, useless and weak in my entire 10th grade year until that one little comment.
So, Salad said to me two days ago in between chemistry classes that he wanted to talk more because we were barely talking. Who was I to argue with that? I figured that I would give him some space but he thought I was mad at him or something. Once we got that figured out we were pestered by Frank, who called us both girls because we sounded like girls.
I didn't think that we would talk much, but he's been pestering me if I don't talk to him. I like talking to him but here's the problem...I'm not completely over him yet. I thought I was but I still get that excited feeling right before I see him after study hall...even when I'm not talking to him. And yes this is bad because he likes this other girl I know and I do want them to get together (I AM a good friend to those guys...a damn good friend!) so I can't like him...that's like being a hypocrite or something. So right now I hate that I like him because I do...and he doesn't like me like that. Why are boys so confusing?
It isn't just Salad that's bugging me though, George and Frank too. They pestered Aaron to tell them who I liked now (I don't like the guy anymore but oh well.) and when they found out, they came to lunch and listed several reasons why I shouldn't like him/go out with him.
I appreciate what your doing guys...but I can stand up for myself and make my own decisions.
Speaking of standing up for myself, my "friend" Rose has been bugging me lately. I once used her iced tea to throw some of it on Frank...the iced tea accidentally came out and splattered him...it looked like he wet his pants! (It was funny!) Ever since that, she's been using it as a threat to the guys and yesterday when George was going to try to draw a smiley face on my hand, at first I rebelled but once I let him, Rose poured her whole tea on George's head (the one day he had it in a Mohawk) and when I confronted her about it she said it was because he was doing it against my will so she "helped" (I'm adding those air quotes) by pouring the tea on his head...and my hand. I never felt so little, useless and weak in my entire 10th grade year until that one little comment.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Why So Important?
I'm sure everybody reading this knows ALL about how stars are followed by paparazzi and the public just seems to know everything about them...or at least more than they would like to know? Well I had always liked to read up on stars and what they were up to, especially the little brief things because they were, well...brief. I never, ever thought of course, what my life would be like if people actually followed it and watched me because who in their right mind would watch me? I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not a dumb person but I'm not the best example either.
But, once upon a time I wasn't so important, and no I didn't get famous overnight...at least I don't think I did. Anyway, once upon a time, I was just a girl who had no drama, or I didn't have too much drama in my life. No, I spent my days with my four best friends, Cael, Nate, Rayna and Brie who got on my nerves often. When I think about it now I wonder why I didn't just stop hanging out with them first, but then I realize that I'm a nice person and stop thinking about that. I do think about how my life was with the four of them, we were all completely different.
Rayna was extremely thin, very athletic, artistic and had musical abilities with any instrument but she was more concerned about her grades than anything and freaked if she did any worse than a 95. Brie was almost the complete opposite, I don't want to be mean but she wasn't very thin but went anorexic and/or bulimic, (depending on who you ask) and the only activity I've ever seen her participate in was cheerleading, on the positive side though she was a great artist and could sing well. Nate was...different I guess, like me he was a writer but wrote more plays than I did. He was interesting and different, he believed in magic more than the rest of us combined but he had a bad temper. And Cael...Cael was more like me than anybody I had ever met. We both liked Broadway, magic, reading, writing and the computer, plus various other things I'm sure I don't remember but for as long as I can remember he's always been shy-ish. Together the five of us became "The Order" don't ask for any more details, I can't provide any more than that. Together the order would go shopping (especially in the Oriental store), go to movies (usually scary movies), have parties, write, and eat.
It seems so unreal doesn't it? That 5 very different people could hang out together like that, it's like your waiting to hear the but aren't you? Good, I hope I didn't have you fooled thinking that our lives were perfect because they weren't. Every night I was called at least once by Nate or Cael (Brie and Rayna rarely called me) who would vent about something somebody else in the order did. Nate had a tendency to call several times a day especially on a day where we had made plans, and Cael had a tendency to talk a lot. I didn't mind though, I hated talking on the phone anyway, I was more interested in listening and helping with the problem. After awhile, whenever one of them started whining about something, I knew exactly what upset them and I would just sit and listen to their problem. I think the last time I checked, I went about 12 minutes without listening to Brie talk about her boy problems at a time and a little longer than that for Nate, Cael and Rayna's problems. But they never asked about my problems, so for example, at Cael and Nate's 15th birthday party (which Cael, Nate, Brie and I attended at Chili's) we brought up possible date ideas for Cael and Nate and talked about Brie's relationship problems through the whole dinner. I even refused to let my feelings get in the way of anything that happened, like for example after my 13th birthday, (which was in the middle of Brie and Rayna's) Rayna had just had her bat-mitzvah and Brie was about to have a party but me...my mom thought I was too old for birthday parties so I didn't have a party. But while we were walking home, Rayna suggested to Brie and Cael that we throw a surprise party for me which both of them rejected the minute they heard it, Brie even threw a fit because we weren't throwing one for her. I wasn't hurt at all...okay so maybe I was a little bit, I mean, I was standing right next to her, she could have at least whispered it.
So I guess you would say that in May of last year, when Cael stopped talking to me, Brie rarely, if ever came to the lunch table and the fact that I only say Rayna and Nate for 40 minutes every day I would be estatic. I wasn't.
Hard to believe isn't it? After everything they put me through, like making me feel like I wasn't smart enough (all of them), I wasn't interesting enough (Rayna), I couldn't play any instrument (Cael really...he told me that I wasn't as musical as Rayna), I wasn't a good singer (Brie), I wasn't pretty enough (Brie again), I wasn't artistic enough(Brie and Rayna), I wasn't fast enough (Rayna), and I wasn't as good of a writer/poet (all of them really)...and well, you get the point right? If you don't, here's the shortened version: My self esteem was severely lowered, but what could I do? I didn't have too many other friends that would be able to hang out with me.
So, even though they caused me so much pain without even knowing it, I couldn't help but feeling terrible, like it was all my fault or something. So when I went on vacation, needless to say I didn't miss anybody. But when I got back I did end up becoming friends with them again, for awhile at least. They came to a party my parents had right after my birthday but they spent most of the time playing on my laptop than they did talking to me.
By the time this school year started things were okay between all of us...that lasted 3 weeks before we were all mad at each other. And this time the friendship was broken forever, which I'm totally fine with because I had other friends that I saw more often now. And besides, over the summer I realized a month lost memory (which is my secret) and when I think about it now, sometimes I wonder if they were behind it all. Cael and Brie did stop talking to me after that, and Rayna and Nate weren't as friendly to me after it.
And because of all the drama I had sustained from in the past...this year I got hit hard. To keep myself from getting too close to anybody I ended up telling Salad that I liked him so I would stop liking him because after my secret I had trouble getting too close to boys, even though most of my friends are guys. Then I found out that some other guy friends had once liked me, and one of them even proposed to me! And then today I was pestered by some people about two past times: hanging out with Cael and singing in a choir. I gave up singing after last year, even though I loved it, I didn't like singing in a choir and that chapter of my life is over. But I do find it interesting that people I barely talked to in the past are surprised that Cael and I aren't talking anymore.
But at least something good has come out of all this, my new friends actually have some interest in my life and problems. I guess I kind of like that because in the past, I was never able to tell my friends anything about my life and my problems...not that they would have cared much in the first place. If it wasn't about them, they didn't care. So right now I'm grateful for my "new" friends because they care more about me than my closest friends did.
So like the topic says: Why So Important? One day I'm just a nobody trying to get through life, and now...I have no self esteem issues and good friends who actually care. Plus some people I barely talk to actually notice me...when did I become a big celebrity?
But, once upon a time I wasn't so important, and no I didn't get famous overnight...at least I don't think I did. Anyway, once upon a time, I was just a girl who had no drama, or I didn't have too much drama in my life. No, I spent my days with my four best friends, Cael, Nate, Rayna and Brie who got on my nerves often. When I think about it now I wonder why I didn't just stop hanging out with them first, but then I realize that I'm a nice person and stop thinking about that. I do think about how my life was with the four of them, we were all completely different.
Rayna was extremely thin, very athletic, artistic and had musical abilities with any instrument but she was more concerned about her grades than anything and freaked if she did any worse than a 95. Brie was almost the complete opposite, I don't want to be mean but she wasn't very thin but went anorexic and/or bulimic, (depending on who you ask) and the only activity I've ever seen her participate in was cheerleading, on the positive side though she was a great artist and could sing well. Nate was...different I guess, like me he was a writer but wrote more plays than I did. He was interesting and different, he believed in magic more than the rest of us combined but he had a bad temper. And Cael...Cael was more like me than anybody I had ever met. We both liked Broadway, magic, reading, writing and the computer, plus various other things I'm sure I don't remember but for as long as I can remember he's always been shy-ish. Together the five of us became "The Order" don't ask for any more details, I can't provide any more than that. Together the order would go shopping (especially in the Oriental store), go to movies (usually scary movies), have parties, write, and eat.
It seems so unreal doesn't it? That 5 very different people could hang out together like that, it's like your waiting to hear the but aren't you? Good, I hope I didn't have you fooled thinking that our lives were perfect because they weren't. Every night I was called at least once by Nate or Cael (Brie and Rayna rarely called me) who would vent about something somebody else in the order did. Nate had a tendency to call several times a day especially on a day where we had made plans, and Cael had a tendency to talk a lot. I didn't mind though, I hated talking on the phone anyway, I was more interested in listening and helping with the problem. After awhile, whenever one of them started whining about something, I knew exactly what upset them and I would just sit and listen to their problem. I think the last time I checked, I went about 12 minutes without listening to Brie talk about her boy problems at a time and a little longer than that for Nate, Cael and Rayna's problems. But they never asked about my problems, so for example, at Cael and Nate's 15th birthday party (which Cael, Nate, Brie and I attended at Chili's) we brought up possible date ideas for Cael and Nate and talked about Brie's relationship problems through the whole dinner. I even refused to let my feelings get in the way of anything that happened, like for example after my 13th birthday, (which was in the middle of Brie and Rayna's) Rayna had just had her bat-mitzvah and Brie was about to have a party but me...my mom thought I was too old for birthday parties so I didn't have a party. But while we were walking home, Rayna suggested to Brie and Cael that we throw a surprise party for me which both of them rejected the minute they heard it, Brie even threw a fit because we weren't throwing one for her. I wasn't hurt at all...okay so maybe I was a little bit, I mean, I was standing right next to her, she could have at least whispered it.
So I guess you would say that in May of last year, when Cael stopped talking to me, Brie rarely, if ever came to the lunch table and the fact that I only say Rayna and Nate for 40 minutes every day I would be estatic. I wasn't.
Hard to believe isn't it? After everything they put me through, like making me feel like I wasn't smart enough (all of them), I wasn't interesting enough (Rayna), I couldn't play any instrument (Cael really...he told me that I wasn't as musical as Rayna), I wasn't a good singer (Brie), I wasn't pretty enough (Brie again), I wasn't artistic enough(Brie and Rayna), I wasn't fast enough (Rayna), and I wasn't as good of a writer/poet (all of them really)...and well, you get the point right? If you don't, here's the shortened version: My self esteem was severely lowered, but what could I do? I didn't have too many other friends that would be able to hang out with me.
So, even though they caused me so much pain without even knowing it, I couldn't help but feeling terrible, like it was all my fault or something. So when I went on vacation, needless to say I didn't miss anybody. But when I got back I did end up becoming friends with them again, for awhile at least. They came to a party my parents had right after my birthday but they spent most of the time playing on my laptop than they did talking to me.
By the time this school year started things were okay between all of us...that lasted 3 weeks before we were all mad at each other. And this time the friendship was broken forever, which I'm totally fine with because I had other friends that I saw more often now. And besides, over the summer I realized a month lost memory (which is my secret) and when I think about it now, sometimes I wonder if they were behind it all. Cael and Brie did stop talking to me after that, and Rayna and Nate weren't as friendly to me after it.
And because of all the drama I had sustained from in the past...this year I got hit hard. To keep myself from getting too close to anybody I ended up telling Salad that I liked him so I would stop liking him because after my secret I had trouble getting too close to boys, even though most of my friends are guys. Then I found out that some other guy friends had once liked me, and one of them even proposed to me! And then today I was pestered by some people about two past times: hanging out with Cael and singing in a choir. I gave up singing after last year, even though I loved it, I didn't like singing in a choir and that chapter of my life is over. But I do find it interesting that people I barely talked to in the past are surprised that Cael and I aren't talking anymore.
But at least something good has come out of all this, my new friends actually have some interest in my life and problems. I guess I kind of like that because in the past, I was never able to tell my friends anything about my life and my problems...not that they would have cared much in the first place. If it wasn't about them, they didn't care. So right now I'm grateful for my "new" friends because they care more about me than my closest friends did.
So like the topic says: Why So Important? One day I'm just a nobody trying to get through life, and now...I have no self esteem issues and good friends who actually care. Plus some people I barely talk to actually notice me...when did I become a big celebrity?
Sunday, December 2, 2007
A Quote Straight from: Gym Class
This is just a quick little post, I just figured I'd post this because it was funny and I really don't have anything else to do right now.
Me: I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
Aaron: What?
Me: I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
Christian: What?
Me: (slowly) I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
John: I want to see that!
Me: I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
Aaron: What?
Me: I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
Christian: What?
Me: (slowly) I almost walked out of the locker room in just my gym pants and my bra.
John: I want to see that!
PAR-TAY
So yesterday (December 1st) my family had a Christmas party and my bff Anna came over and we chatted for awhile while we watched Jeff Dunham (which provided us with 3 hours of enjoyment) and then we ate some of the cake Anna decorated and did a whole lot of other stuff. I was really glad to have her around, I don't get to see her often and I won't see her for another 2 weeks.
I got a lot of compliments on how pretty I looked (I guess it was a good thing I got my hair cut, straighted, and washed that morning.) and I even saw some "family members" that I rarely ever see, who commented on how tall, thin and old (in a good way) I was.
It was a good party...until midnight when everybody was gone and I had to help clean up...which wouldn't have been that bad if it wasn't so freaking cold outside! (They said there was supposed to be a huge, monstrously terrible storm today leading into tomorrow but apparently that wasn't the case. It barely snowed!)
I got a lot of compliments on how pretty I looked (I guess it was a good thing I got my hair cut, straighted, and washed that morning.) and I even saw some "family members" that I rarely ever see, who commented on how tall, thin and old (in a good way) I was.
It was a good party...until midnight when everybody was gone and I had to help clean up...which wouldn't have been that bad if it wasn't so freaking cold outside! (They said there was supposed to be a huge, monstrously terrible storm today leading into tomorrow but apparently that wasn't the case. It barely snowed!)
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Glass, Rulers and Chem Labs! Oh MY!
Here's another post that just so happens to be a day late, which wouldn't be that bad except it is considered a December post, not a November post. But I was lazy last night and didn't make another post like I said I would...oh well. Anyway, here's yesterday's summary:
So, we had a half day yesterday, and we only had to go to periods 1-5. Which meant most of my day was spent upstairs and almost half of it was spent in Chemistry...which wasn't so bad because she didn't give us much to do...but still...it was torture.
My chem teacher let us work on our labs, which I (of course) just so happened to lose which is just my luck, and then Kate, Angie and I got into an argument because I had a different lab cover than they did. We ended up not talking for about...5 minutes. Our silence pretty much ended when Salad, Frank and Aaron "broke" some glass beaker, they said they didn't do anything but who believes them? The three of them are trouble...I mean Trouble (I forgot the capital t.) And since then our chemistry teacher does not trust them very much around glass...just like they don't trust me with liquids.
Their terror continued right after Kara and I were pretending to hit our heads on the door, which I ended up hitting...which hurt...a lot! Kara and I were laughing our heads off when a flying ruler hit right near us, we looked up and the guys were throwing rulers. Aaron and I met up when we were trying to pick up the rulers. Instead of putting them back with the other rulers, we were using them as swords and having a ruler fight that ended when we heard our chem teacher tell everybody to take a seat.
After that...there wasn't much more interesting things though...1st period chem just blows everything else out of the water.
So, we had a half day yesterday, and we only had to go to periods 1-5. Which meant most of my day was spent upstairs and almost half of it was spent in Chemistry...which wasn't so bad because she didn't give us much to do...but still...it was torture.
My chem teacher let us work on our labs, which I (of course) just so happened to lose which is just my luck, and then Kate, Angie and I got into an argument because I had a different lab cover than they did. We ended up not talking for about...5 minutes. Our silence pretty much ended when Salad, Frank and Aaron "broke" some glass beaker, they said they didn't do anything but who believes them? The three of them are trouble...I mean Trouble (I forgot the capital t.) And since then our chemistry teacher does not trust them very much around glass...just like they don't trust me with liquids.
Their terror continued right after Kara and I were pretending to hit our heads on the door, which I ended up hitting...which hurt...a lot! Kara and I were laughing our heads off when a flying ruler hit right near us, we looked up and the guys were throwing rulers. Aaron and I met up when we were trying to pick up the rulers. Instead of putting them back with the other rulers, we were using them as swords and having a ruler fight that ended when we heard our chem teacher tell everybody to take a seat.
After that...there wasn't much more interesting things though...1st period chem just blows everything else out of the water.
Friday, November 30, 2007
You want me to WHAT?!?!?!?!
Okay so yesterday I broke the news to Will that Salad told me he liked two other girls and neither of them were me.
Now Will is a good friend and I knew he would be angry when he heard that (Most of my friends would...come to think of it) so I told him not to tell anybody and not to beat him up or inflict any harm on him in any way, then at the end of math class I took the note, stuffed it in my backpack and threw it out once I got home.
But it wasn't just telling him about me and Salad...there was something else to it...Will asked me to...get this...MARRY HIM! Now I saw that and I was stunned, I learned last month that in 8th grade he had liked me (I didn't believe him though) but since he has two girlfriends (who are both dating him and each other) and I liked other boys, I figured he was over me. Apparently not. I told him no, and he asked me why not.
Now understand that yesterday all my friends were asking about Salad, for awhile it was a quiet topic but yesterday there was nothing quiet about it. Rose asked about him, and I told her that we decided to just be friends, this annoying kid in my math class asked the same question, to which I replied with the same answer, and now this...
Truthfully I wasn't (and still am not) completely over him, I don't know why exactly but it is taking me a long time to get over him. I couldn't let anybody know that I was broken up about this because I didn't want that kind of cooing and coddling (same with my secret) so I just said that I liked somebody else.
It wasn't a complete lie, I do like somebody else but I know I don't have a shot with him so it won't last long but at least it's something to tell 'em.
Now Will is a good friend and I knew he would be angry when he heard that (Most of my friends would...come to think of it) so I told him not to tell anybody and not to beat him up or inflict any harm on him in any way, then at the end of math class I took the note, stuffed it in my backpack and threw it out once I got home.
But it wasn't just telling him about me and Salad...there was something else to it...Will asked me to...get this...MARRY HIM! Now I saw that and I was stunned, I learned last month that in 8th grade he had liked me (I didn't believe him though) but since he has two girlfriends (who are both dating him and each other) and I liked other boys, I figured he was over me. Apparently not. I told him no, and he asked me why not.
Now understand that yesterday all my friends were asking about Salad, for awhile it was a quiet topic but yesterday there was nothing quiet about it. Rose asked about him, and I told her that we decided to just be friends, this annoying kid in my math class asked the same question, to which I replied with the same answer, and now this...
Truthfully I wasn't (and still am not) completely over him, I don't know why exactly but it is taking me a long time to get over him. I couldn't let anybody know that I was broken up about this because I didn't want that kind of cooing and coddling (same with my secret) so I just said that I liked somebody else.
It wasn't a complete lie, I do like somebody else but I know I don't have a shot with him so it won't last long but at least it's something to tell 'em.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Take Me Away
Today was...eh...I wouldn't say uneventful but I wouldn't say that it was particularly great.
So Salad and I are definitely friends, Aaron and Frank once again...present for that...of course hanging out with those three, making deals, and stuff made me late for homeroom. But who cares? It's homeroom, everybody is late for homeroom.
Yeah...not much else really happened. I started working on "Your Winter" and I got a few people reading it and actually enjoying it. So that is an accomplishment...and George wasn't there so for lunch it was me, Frank, Rose and another girl "Joellyn" and we had fun.
And I learned something this week, hot sauce, ketchup and mustard makes an addicting combo.
Other than that...yeah...I've got nothing.
So Salad and I are definitely friends, Aaron and Frank once again...present for that...of course hanging out with those three, making deals, and stuff made me late for homeroom. But who cares? It's homeroom, everybody is late for homeroom.
Yeah...not much else really happened. I started working on "Your Winter" and I got a few people reading it and actually enjoying it. So that is an accomplishment...and George wasn't there so for lunch it was me, Frank, Rose and another girl "Joellyn" and we had fun.
And I learned something this week, hot sauce, ketchup and mustard makes an addicting combo.
Other than that...yeah...I've got nothing.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Strength Test
Okay, as you all may or may not know, most of my friends are guys so yes, I do have to be pretty tough to survive. (I still get bruises though, my first week eating lunch with Frank and George, I ended up with a huge bruise on my leg and right now I have a cut on my finger.) Today the debate on men vs women came up during lunch and strength didn't really get involved.
You see, I am a soccer player (if I wasn't then I probably wouldn't be talking to or be friends with Salad, Frank or Aaron) and Frank mentioned to George at lunch that there would be an indoor soccer season this winter...for guys. So I said that I wanted to go and they told me that I couldn't go because I was a girl and girls can't play soccer...you know maybe I should just make a script thing:
F = Frank
A = Me
G = George
F- Did you hear there is an indoor soccer team this winter? You should try out for goalie (to me) He's a great goalie.
G- I used to be the best. Unlike you I'm sure.
A- True...I suck at being goalie, but I'm a good soccer player.
G- But you can't go.
F- Yeah because you're a girl.
A- I play better than most boys.
F- True.
A- I'm gonna go.
G- You're a girl.
A- I'll disguise myself as a guy, I'll put a wig on and I'll wear one of Frank's shirts.
G- No!
Anyway as you can imagine this went on and on. Now that I think about it, even though girls are considered to be less physically fit than guys are, they aren't. Frank and George joked that if we ever had a woman president it would be terrible because women are too emotional. That's not entirely true but here's my look on it:
Boys
1) don't think as much
2) rely on girls for some things
3) They barely wait to go to the bathroom!
4) Are considered to be "dominant"
5) Are paid a normal salary
6) ROBOTS!
7) Can stand some pain.
Girls
1) over analyze, think constantly
2) Usually have to do those some things
3) They wait for hours just to go to the bathroom!
4) Crawled our way up from being the "underdog" we now have just as many rights as the guys do.
5) Are paid about .375 cents less than men.
6) Unlike boys, girls have emotions and they do use them.
7) Seriously? They go through a lot more pain than boys could ever imagine!
I'm sure there are plenty more things to add but I really can't think of any more right now. Comment if you have any other ideas that I can add to this.
Anyway...as you can see what girls don't have with muscles they make up for with in brains and emotion. They have more passion than a guy will ever see...besides, most guys are sexist, good for nothing losers who need to be kept on a chain by the girls.
I have a few examples for that based on my own experiences.
Nick- "Oh yeah, we're best friends." puh-lease he spent more time with the girls who hate my guts than he did with me yet still claimed we were close.
John- I mentioned before that he's overly flirtatious, especially with me and my friends, sex talk comes up a lot when it comes to him.
Frank- Read The Rant Above.
George- See Frank's and do what it says.
Salad- ...after a lot of thought I came up with: He didn't tell me that he liked somebody despite the fact that we were "good friends" he waited until after I embarrassed myself in front of 3 of my guy friends to say that and then tells me he likes another girl and after he feeds me all that information he ignores me just like Cael did...like other guys have or are doing now...
Cael- Okay...Cael and I were best friends for about 6 or 7 years and he ditched me to hang out with the girls who hate my guts for several reasons, that I will put up here at a later date.
Aaron- Can be very touchy-feely, which kind of bugs me.
Chris- Flirtatious, show-offy annoying person, who has been annoying me since he moved to my neighborhood when I was like...6.
Will- TOO MUCH SEX TALK! That's like all he talks about and after awhile it's soo annoying!
You see, I am a soccer player (if I wasn't then I probably wouldn't be talking to or be friends with Salad, Frank or Aaron) and Frank mentioned to George at lunch that there would be an indoor soccer season this winter...for guys. So I said that I wanted to go and they told me that I couldn't go because I was a girl and girls can't play soccer...you know maybe I should just make a script thing:
F = Frank
A = Me
G = George
F- Did you hear there is an indoor soccer team this winter? You should try out for goalie (to me) He's a great goalie.
G- I used to be the best. Unlike you I'm sure.
A- True...I suck at being goalie, but I'm a good soccer player.
G- But you can't go.
F- Yeah because you're a girl.
A- I play better than most boys.
F- True.
A- I'm gonna go.
G- You're a girl.
A- I'll disguise myself as a guy, I'll put a wig on and I'll wear one of Frank's shirts.
G- No!
Anyway as you can imagine this went on and on. Now that I think about it, even though girls are considered to be less physically fit than guys are, they aren't. Frank and George joked that if we ever had a woman president it would be terrible because women are too emotional. That's not entirely true but here's my look on it:
Boys
1) don't think as much
2) rely on girls for some things
3) They barely wait to go to the bathroom!
4) Are considered to be "dominant"
5) Are paid a normal salary
6) ROBOTS!
7) Can stand some pain.
Girls
1) over analyze, think constantly
2) Usually have to do those some things
3) They wait for hours just to go to the bathroom!
4) Crawled our way up from being the "underdog" we now have just as many rights as the guys do.
5) Are paid about .375 cents less than men.
6) Unlike boys, girls have emotions and they do use them.
7) Seriously? They go through a lot more pain than boys could ever imagine!
I'm sure there are plenty more things to add but I really can't think of any more right now. Comment if you have any other ideas that I can add to this.
Anyway...as you can see what girls don't have with muscles they make up for with in brains and emotion. They have more passion than a guy will ever see...besides, most guys are sexist, good for nothing losers who need to be kept on a chain by the girls.
I have a few examples for that based on my own experiences.
Nick- "Oh yeah, we're best friends." puh-lease he spent more time with the girls who hate my guts than he did with me yet still claimed we were close.
John- I mentioned before that he's overly flirtatious, especially with me and my friends, sex talk comes up a lot when it comes to him.
Frank- Read The Rant Above.
George- See Frank's and do what it says.
Salad- ...after a lot of thought I came up with: He didn't tell me that he liked somebody despite the fact that we were "good friends" he waited until after I embarrassed myself in front of 3 of my guy friends to say that and then tells me he likes another girl and after he feeds me all that information he ignores me just like Cael did...like other guys have or are doing now...
Cael- Okay...Cael and I were best friends for about 6 or 7 years and he ditched me to hang out with the girls who hate my guts for several reasons, that I will put up here at a later date.
Aaron- Can be very touchy-feely, which kind of bugs me.
Chris- Flirtatious, show-offy annoying person, who has been annoying me since he moved to my neighborhood when I was like...6.
Will- TOO MUCH SEX TALK! That's like all he talks about and after awhile it's soo annoying!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Going Out of My Mind
I mentioned before that I was thinking about telling Salad my secret and my fears (Frank would hear more of my fears) but that didn't go as planned. I did go up and tell them that I needed to talk to them but we never got around to talking. Which is okay because I was beginning to have second thoughts about it.
I made up my mind though, tomorrow I will tell Salad my secret no matter what.
In the meantime...I've got homework and a lot of it I don't understand or I can't do, I need to do something therapeutic to do with my time, so tonight while Dwts is on, instead of writing, I think I'll draw something. The editor-in-chief of the school paper has been bugging me about my sketches (he says he really wants to see them) so maybe I'll do that and tomorrow I will get through everything that comes my way.
I made up my mind though, tomorrow I will tell Salad my secret no matter what.
In the meantime...I've got homework and a lot of it I don't understand or I can't do, I need to do something therapeutic to do with my time, so tonight while Dwts is on, instead of writing, I think I'll draw something. The editor-in-chief of the school paper has been bugging me about my sketches (he says he really wants to see them) so maybe I'll do that and tomorrow I will get through everything that comes my way.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Show Information
Since the writers strike, I've been trying to write a television series (that's sort of based on my life) so that the people of America will have a television show to tune into that isn't re-runs or reality because I would write the scripts even if I didn't make much or any money at all.
The show is called: "Your Winter" and it takes place in the fictional town of Winter Plains, New York. And unlike most other shows this show has more diversity (it has to if it's based off of a Poughkeepsie school) and maybe if the audience likes the show and the Arabella/Sal couple, I would write it in even if Salad and I didn't go together in reality. Hey I did say that it was based off of my life in 10th grade, I never said it went exactly as is. Of course some of the quotes are the same as they were in reality, especially if they are funny, it isn't as good if they aren't funny. Because reality is funny as well as dramatic, and the bad girl...doesn't have to be in every stinkin' episode, my main characters can cause enough trouble without her.
And of course the tagline: Who says Guys and Girls can't be friends?
Hmm...maybe the age old question will finally be answered.
The show is called: "Your Winter" and it takes place in the fictional town of Winter Plains, New York. And unlike most other shows this show has more diversity (it has to if it's based off of a Poughkeepsie school) and maybe if the audience likes the show and the Arabella/Sal couple, I would write it in even if Salad and I didn't go together in reality. Hey I did say that it was based off of my life in 10th grade, I never said it went exactly as is. Of course some of the quotes are the same as they were in reality, especially if they are funny, it isn't as good if they aren't funny. Because reality is funny as well as dramatic, and the bad girl...doesn't have to be in every stinkin' episode, my main characters can cause enough trouble without her.
And of course the tagline: Who says Guys and Girls can't be friends?
Hmm...maybe the age old question will finally be answered.
Home Again
So yesterday I got home at around 10:00 and I was so happy! New York and Texas are completely different and I really didn't like sharing a bed with my cousin because I barely know her and it was just weird sleeping in a bed with somebody you barely know.
I didn't get the chance to blog yesterday but can you blame me? After traveling for 11 hours I was exhausted and worried because I didn't want my mp3 player to run out of power before I reached home, otherwise it would be a long trip before I got home.
I took a few pictures of things that people wanted, like: the lone star, a pony, a cowboy boot, a cowboy hat etc. I don't know when I'll be able to show everybody their gifts and I haven't exactly thought about it. Right now there are other things I need to get through. After a lot of thought I decided that since I've bugged Salad enough about the girls he likes and his stuff maybe I should tell him something that a lot of other people have been trying to find out about. I've been thinking about telling him about it for awhile but I just now think that I'm ready to do it. I'm sure if I told Frank he would be skeptical about it since it is a touchy subject that has so many other problems attached to it. But over the break, on that one night where I had my cousin's room to myself I started thinking about that (probably because I had a nightmare about it the night before) and after much thought I decided that if anybody should know besides Frank (who already knows) it would have to be Salad, George and maybe Aaron...actually no...just Salad and George. Aaron would be just like Kate and Angie would and I don't want that, I want people who will still be the same around me, without worrying. And it's a known fact that boys are less likely to think about that stuff than girls are...they are less likely to care (Frank and Cael are perfect examples of that but they still reacted differently) which is fine because I'd probably cry if somebody kept asking me about it, and I don't want that. I've had the reputation of cry baby before and I don't want to get it again, which means I will stay strong and to stay strong I can't tell this to anybody who will make a big deal about it and will see me and try to make me feel good or will change what they do because I'm around.
I don't want that and I don't think I deserve that kind of compassion about this.
I didn't get the chance to blog yesterday but can you blame me? After traveling for 11 hours I was exhausted and worried because I didn't want my mp3 player to run out of power before I reached home, otherwise it would be a long trip before I got home.
I took a few pictures of things that people wanted, like: the lone star, a pony, a cowboy boot, a cowboy hat etc. I don't know when I'll be able to show everybody their gifts and I haven't exactly thought about it. Right now there are other things I need to get through. After a lot of thought I decided that since I've bugged Salad enough about the girls he likes and his stuff maybe I should tell him something that a lot of other people have been trying to find out about. I've been thinking about telling him about it for awhile but I just now think that I'm ready to do it. I'm sure if I told Frank he would be skeptical about it since it is a touchy subject that has so many other problems attached to it. But over the break, on that one night where I had my cousin's room to myself I started thinking about that (probably because I had a nightmare about it the night before) and after much thought I decided that if anybody should know besides Frank (who already knows) it would have to be Salad, George and maybe Aaron...actually no...just Salad and George. Aaron would be just like Kate and Angie would and I don't want that, I want people who will still be the same around me, without worrying. And it's a known fact that boys are less likely to think about that stuff than girls are...they are less likely to care (Frank and Cael are perfect examples of that but they still reacted differently) which is fine because I'd probably cry if somebody kept asking me about it, and I don't want that. I've had the reputation of cry baby before and I don't want to get it again, which means I will stay strong and to stay strong I can't tell this to anybody who will make a big deal about it and will see me and try to make me feel good or will change what they do because I'm around.
I don't want that and I don't think I deserve that kind of compassion about this.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Texas Bound part 3
Obviously, you aren't getting the full story on my trip here, but if you know me then you'll probably hear about all the key events later.
Anyway, here's today's "letter"
Dear everybody,
The other night my cousin got sick so I had the whole room to myself...and I ended up thinking a lot about you guys. Well...really only a few people in particular stuck out in my mind and I realized that I wasn't missing everybody back in Poughkeepsie...well I missed maybe 10 people (exactly 10 people not one more or one less) and I'm not going to make a list of people because the people who aren't on the list would be upset, and the people who are actually on the list would gloat. Anyway, so when I woke up the next morning I jumped in the shower, got dressed, ate breakfast and ran out of the house to go Black Friday shopping.
Now, as we all know shopping on Black Friday is hectic, I imagined it to be like it is in New York. People fighting over the last thing on the shelf and sleeping outside the mall at midnight. And since I left around 9:30-10:00, I expected to be fighting the crowds.
Was I wrong or what?
As I passed by some stores on the road, I noticed that the parking lots were borderline empty, and then I got to the closest mall (45 minutes away from my aunt and uncle's house) and there were plenty of parking spaces. It wasn't even that crowded in the stores! Actually, that's a lie, it got more crowded just as we were leaving so instead of going to get fast food like we had originally planned, we stopped at a hot dog stand right in the parking lot.
So we ate our hot dogs in the car and rushed to the museum to see the movie "Polar Express" in 3-D. The movie was okay, it was sort of boring but it was interesting watching the train ride in 3-D. It was after the movie that interested me, we went to the #1 bookstore in America (in the year 2005) and the people who worked there were amazing! One person who worked there gave me so many recommendations for books, I couldn't choose what books to buy with the money I had! I ended up only getting 2 books out of the 10 books I had originally picked out, and now I owe my parents $10 because of the money I borrowed from them to get my books, and since Wren's birthday is tomorrow, I figure I'd give her the bag from the bookstore.
So after the bookstore my whole family headed to the restaurant to eat dinner, I had chili and some of my brother's chicken while telling my family all about you guys...okay not all about every one of you but about a couple of you. Really I was just talking about how Frank and George were the craziest people I know right now. After dinner we went to the grocery store, well my parents, brother and I sat in the car while everybody else went to get banana's for desert. (Isn't that what George wanted from Texas?)
So, here I am now! In front of my computer listening to music, while typing up this letter so you guys know what I have been doing in Texas. Today ends the Texas Bound letters because at this time tomorrow, I'll be back at home relaxing after eating at my favorite restaurant. I'll miss Texas, but I'd probably miss it more if it were warmer here in Texas than it is in New York.
Missing 10 of you,
A
Anyway, here's today's "letter"
Dear everybody,
The other night my cousin got sick so I had the whole room to myself...and I ended up thinking a lot about you guys. Well...really only a few people in particular stuck out in my mind and I realized that I wasn't missing everybody back in Poughkeepsie...well I missed maybe 10 people (exactly 10 people not one more or one less) and I'm not going to make a list of people because the people who aren't on the list would be upset, and the people who are actually on the list would gloat. Anyway, so when I woke up the next morning I jumped in the shower, got dressed, ate breakfast and ran out of the house to go Black Friday shopping.
Now, as we all know shopping on Black Friday is hectic, I imagined it to be like it is in New York. People fighting over the last thing on the shelf and sleeping outside the mall at midnight. And since I left around 9:30-10:00, I expected to be fighting the crowds.
Was I wrong or what?
As I passed by some stores on the road, I noticed that the parking lots were borderline empty, and then I got to the closest mall (45 minutes away from my aunt and uncle's house) and there were plenty of parking spaces. It wasn't even that crowded in the stores! Actually, that's a lie, it got more crowded just as we were leaving so instead of going to get fast food like we had originally planned, we stopped at a hot dog stand right in the parking lot.
So we ate our hot dogs in the car and rushed to the museum to see the movie "Polar Express" in 3-D. The movie was okay, it was sort of boring but it was interesting watching the train ride in 3-D. It was after the movie that interested me, we went to the #1 bookstore in America (in the year 2005) and the people who worked there were amazing! One person who worked there gave me so many recommendations for books, I couldn't choose what books to buy with the money I had! I ended up only getting 2 books out of the 10 books I had originally picked out, and now I owe my parents $10 because of the money I borrowed from them to get my books, and since Wren's birthday is tomorrow, I figure I'd give her the bag from the bookstore.
So after the bookstore my whole family headed to the restaurant to eat dinner, I had chili and some of my brother's chicken while telling my family all about you guys...okay not all about every one of you but about a couple of you. Really I was just talking about how Frank and George were the craziest people I know right now. After dinner we went to the grocery store, well my parents, brother and I sat in the car while everybody else went to get banana's for desert. (Isn't that what George wanted from Texas?)
So, here I am now! In front of my computer listening to music, while typing up this letter so you guys know what I have been doing in Texas. Today ends the Texas Bound letters because at this time tomorrow, I'll be back at home relaxing after eating at my favorite restaurant. I'll miss Texas, but I'd probably miss it more if it were warmer here in Texas than it is in New York.
Missing 10 of you,
A
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Texas Bound part 2
Here is my second installment, in the four part "Texas Bound" series. Right now I have no idea why I am calling it Texas bound because I'm already here, I'm not heading for it.
Dear everybody,
Okay, so after all the events today, I haven't had too much time to work on my letters. Everybody else is doing something, and I just want a few minutes to myself. So far today, I watched 3 movies, kicked a soccer ball around in the cold for about half an hour, played video games, did some artwork, and I ate a full Thanksgiving meal and since it is my cuz's birthday, I had cookies for desert. It doesn't seem like a lot right now, but trust me, it's about 8:00 right now, and I woke up 11 hours ago. All of that has gotten me through the day.
Despite the fact that it's cold here, it is actually really nice...well, inside it is. It isn't exactly like I remember it but it's still nice here. I do miss having the companionship of other teenagers though but it's nice hanging out with my family...but I really don't like being asked "So what did you dream about last night?"
Good news though, I actually found some cacti! I'll bring a piece home with me and if I remember, I'll bring it to school. I haven't found much else though, but I'm going shopping tomorrow, on black Friday. I don't have any money but I figure I'd take a picture and maybe give Jordan a quote for his article on black Friday for the paper. Believe it or not, despite all I've done today, there really isn't anything else I want to write, except: I miss you guys...believe it or not...but, you know, last time I left the state I left things in pretty bad shape with my friends. None of them were talking to me, and I wasn't talking to them. Now...now, I've gotten rid of a couple of them (actually they got rid of me, but that isn't the point here) and I got friends that are...so much better. I mean, you guys know when I'm down and want to help me through whatever problems I have...and you make fun of my old best friends! And right now, I actually need that. Besides, over the summer, I gave up on boys and all hope of having a crush but right now...there are actually two boys that I like.
Can't wait to see all of you!
-A
Dear everybody,
Okay, so after all the events today, I haven't had too much time to work on my letters. Everybody else is doing something, and I just want a few minutes to myself. So far today, I watched 3 movies, kicked a soccer ball around in the cold for about half an hour, played video games, did some artwork, and I ate a full Thanksgiving meal and since it is my cuz's birthday, I had cookies for desert. It doesn't seem like a lot right now, but trust me, it's about 8:00 right now, and I woke up 11 hours ago. All of that has gotten me through the day.
Despite the fact that it's cold here, it is actually really nice...well, inside it is. It isn't exactly like I remember it but it's still nice here. I do miss having the companionship of other teenagers though but it's nice hanging out with my family...but I really don't like being asked "So what did you dream about last night?"
Good news though, I actually found some cacti! I'll bring a piece home with me and if I remember, I'll bring it to school. I haven't found much else though, but I'm going shopping tomorrow, on black Friday. I don't have any money but I figure I'd take a picture and maybe give Jordan a quote for his article on black Friday for the paper. Believe it or not, despite all I've done today, there really isn't anything else I want to write, except: I miss you guys...believe it or not...but, you know, last time I left the state I left things in pretty bad shape with my friends. None of them were talking to me, and I wasn't talking to them. Now...now, I've gotten rid of a couple of them (actually they got rid of me, but that isn't the point here) and I got friends that are...so much better. I mean, you guys know when I'm down and want to help me through whatever problems I have...and you make fun of my old best friends! And right now, I actually need that. Besides, over the summer, I gave up on boys and all hope of having a crush but right now...there are actually two boys that I like.
Can't wait to see all of you!
-A
Texas Bound part 1
Okay, so yesterday I took an 11 hour trip to Texas. It was about 2 hours in the car, another 2 or 3 hours waiting in the airport, a 4 hour flight to Texas, and then a 45 minute trip to my aunt and uncle's house. Every day of my trip I'll post a blurb on things that have happened so far and after I get home, I'll print it all out and show my friends what I really did in Texas. So maybe the next time I go I won't be bombarded with requests for guns and cowboy hats. (Although I did see a couple cow boy hats in the airport, but the store was closed and I left my money back at home.)
Anyway....
Dear everybody,
Hey what's up? I left the house at about 12:30 and believe it or not I was actually excited. I wanted to see everybody's look when they saw the list of "presents" and I also couldn't wait to see the family I never get to see and get out of Poughkeepsie. (Isn't that what we are all planning on doing sooner or later?) The car ride to the airport was extremely long, the car was hot and I was scrunched in the back between two people, but I was listening to my music so I was able to forget about the trip and focus on what I was listening to for a couple minutes. The airport was...well it was a different airport than I usually go to so I was in a word...lost. After about an hour of waiting to get all the luggage checked in, getting our boarding passes and getting through airport security, I was extremely hungry. The airport only had two places to eat, Burger King and Sam Adams. So we all got a seat and waited for something to eat. I think that waiting for food took as long as the car ride, and for what seemed like an hour wait for soda and a pizza, it wasn't that good.
After we ate, we went down to the gate where we were supposed to be waiting...only for me to learn that the plane was headed to Alabama. Who in their right mind would go to F***ing Alabama? What's in Alabama anyway? I was reassured though, that the plane would only be stopping there for 15 minutes to re-fuel at a stop and then go from Alabama to Texas. The flight was supposed to be at 5:30 and it didn't seem like there were any problems, but apparently there were because my flight was delayed until 8 that night and after we called my aunt and uncle to tell them that the flight was delayed 2 1/2 hours the flight time was changed to 6...and then 6:30.
I don't know the exact time we actually left the airport though, it was probably almost 7...and the trip to Alabama was harsh, there were a lot of winds so the plane was pushed around in the air a little bit, and the pizza? It wasn't sitting well. (Sorry to tell you guys this but I said I'd give the full story) The layover in Alabama was much longer than 15 minutes and we had to stay on the plane, so...sorry guys but I didn't get you any gifts from Alabama, I barely set foot in there anyway. After about an hour in Birmingham, Alabama the plane took off again, and this time it went to Austin, Texas.
The flight was less harsh than the last flight, but there were thunderstorms so it still wasn't exactly a smooth ride, but at least when we got the airport in Austin, we could find out luggage easily and could leave quickly. Then we began our trek to my aunt and uncles house, we got lost several times (maybe we should have bought neverlost for the trip) and finally ended up at their front door around 11:3o. Oh and before I forget...in the airport in Austin, there was a store that had a rack full of cowboy hats of all colors, if the store wasn't closed maybe I would have bought one...and in the same store there were a ton of cups, shirts and other miscellaneous objects with the words "Keep Austin Weird" painted on them, just thought you guys would get a kick out of that.
Sincerely,
A.
Anyway....
Dear everybody,
Hey what's up? I left the house at about 12:30 and believe it or not I was actually excited. I wanted to see everybody's look when they saw the list of "presents" and I also couldn't wait to see the family I never get to see and get out of Poughkeepsie. (Isn't that what we are all planning on doing sooner or later?) The car ride to the airport was extremely long, the car was hot and I was scrunched in the back between two people, but I was listening to my music so I was able to forget about the trip and focus on what I was listening to for a couple minutes. The airport was...well it was a different airport than I usually go to so I was in a word...lost. After about an hour of waiting to get all the luggage checked in, getting our boarding passes and getting through airport security, I was extremely hungry. The airport only had two places to eat, Burger King and Sam Adams. So we all got a seat and waited for something to eat. I think that waiting for food took as long as the car ride, and for what seemed like an hour wait for soda and a pizza, it wasn't that good.
After we ate, we went down to the gate where we were supposed to be waiting...only for me to learn that the plane was headed to Alabama. Who in their right mind would go to F***ing Alabama? What's in Alabama anyway? I was reassured though, that the plane would only be stopping there for 15 minutes to re-fuel at a stop and then go from Alabama to Texas. The flight was supposed to be at 5:30 and it didn't seem like there were any problems, but apparently there were because my flight was delayed until 8 that night and after we called my aunt and uncle to tell them that the flight was delayed 2 1/2 hours the flight time was changed to 6...and then 6:30.
I don't know the exact time we actually left the airport though, it was probably almost 7...and the trip to Alabama was harsh, there were a lot of winds so the plane was pushed around in the air a little bit, and the pizza? It wasn't sitting well. (Sorry to tell you guys this but I said I'd give the full story) The layover in Alabama was much longer than 15 minutes and we had to stay on the plane, so...sorry guys but I didn't get you any gifts from Alabama, I barely set foot in there anyway. After about an hour in Birmingham, Alabama the plane took off again, and this time it went to Austin, Texas.
The flight was less harsh than the last flight, but there were thunderstorms so it still wasn't exactly a smooth ride, but at least when we got the airport in Austin, we could find out luggage easily and could leave quickly. Then we began our trek to my aunt and uncles house, we got lost several times (maybe we should have bought neverlost for the trip) and finally ended up at their front door around 11:3o. Oh and before I forget...in the airport in Austin, there was a store that had a rack full of cowboy hats of all colors, if the store wasn't closed maybe I would have bought one...and in the same store there were a ton of cups, shirts and other miscellaneous objects with the words "Keep Austin Weird" painted on them, just thought you guys would get a kick out of that.
Sincerely,
A.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Stressed or not? You decide
Okay, so today had it's ups and it's downs, sometimes I felt so stressed out and just full out terrible but other times I felt calm and rejuvenated, and of course those guys made all the difference.
Frank and George
...The two of them can relax me and make me feel so much better no matter what. It's like a special trait they possess. They talk to me when I need to be talked to and make me laugh, but they know when to show up...unlike some people...who will remain unnamed. Although, we did talk about weight today and I felt extremely thin but other than that...no problems.
Chris and Salad
I don't know what they did more of...stressing me out or de-stressing me. Salad didn't come to chem, which we took a test in...a test I obviously failed. Which isn't exactly a problem...sort of. Anyway, so gym class came and he was having a long talk with "Sherry" at first I thought he liked her but now I have other ideas...which I will share tomorrow. Anyway, Salad finally came over when John and I were playing with the racquet's and asked, "Why didn't you start?" and then we all went to a net and played badminton...with Chris unfortunately. It was me, John and Chris versus Angie, Aaron, and Salad for most of the game. I got a lot of anger and frustration out until Chris suggested trading John for Salad. Now don't get me wrong, I do like Salad and he is a good badminton player but the point of this was to play against him, not with him. Then later on, Salad started giving me pointers, now I know I'm not perfect at the sport but seriously?! We didn't talk for weeks, then he tells me out of the blue that he likes a girl, then the next school day he tells me that he likes two girls but can't decide which he likes better and expects me to understand and be friends...which I want to be with him but it is still hard to watch the person you like tell you that he likes two other girls and then that you aren't trying hard enough, which became even harder when Chris and John totally ditched me and "Karl" and "Lyle" had to come and play on my side, which they suck and Lyle fell down at least 3 times, which Salad of course took advantage of.
And then to top it all off, a nightmare that I recently had kept replaying in my mind. ARGH!!!
Frank and George
...The two of them can relax me and make me feel so much better no matter what. It's like a special trait they possess. They talk to me when I need to be talked to and make me laugh, but they know when to show up...unlike some people...who will remain unnamed. Although, we did talk about weight today and I felt extremely thin but other than that...no problems.
Chris and Salad
I don't know what they did more of...stressing me out or de-stressing me. Salad didn't come to chem, which we took a test in...a test I obviously failed. Which isn't exactly a problem...sort of. Anyway, so gym class came and he was having a long talk with "Sherry" at first I thought he liked her but now I have other ideas...which I will share tomorrow. Anyway, Salad finally came over when John and I were playing with the racquet's and asked, "Why didn't you start?" and then we all went to a net and played badminton...with Chris unfortunately. It was me, John and Chris versus Angie, Aaron, and Salad for most of the game. I got a lot of anger and frustration out until Chris suggested trading John for Salad. Now don't get me wrong, I do like Salad and he is a good badminton player but the point of this was to play against him, not with him. Then later on, Salad started giving me pointers, now I know I'm not perfect at the sport but seriously?! We didn't talk for weeks, then he tells me out of the blue that he likes a girl, then the next school day he tells me that he likes two girls but can't decide which he likes better and expects me to understand and be friends...which I want to be with him but it is still hard to watch the person you like tell you that he likes two other girls and then that you aren't trying hard enough, which became even harder when Chris and John totally ditched me and "Karl" and "Lyle" had to come and play on my side, which they suck and Lyle fell down at least 3 times, which Salad of course took advantage of.
And then to top it all off, a nightmare that I recently had kept replaying in my mind. ARGH!!!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Recipe for Disaster
So most of my excitement today came from Chem. since that's where all the interesting stuff usually happens because it involves a recipe for disaster.
Recipe:
1 Salad
1 Frank
1 Aaron
1 Angie
1 Kay
1 Wren
1 Kate
1 Me
Dangerous Chemicals
A small enclosed space
(mix together for 41 minutes, until the bell rings then release)
Like I said. Recipe for disaster. But we had fun today, because we were originally supposed to have a test but it would have had to start right at the beginning of the period but there were only 5 people there so that idea was scratched. Instead the test was postponed until tomorrow and since she had nothing planned for us we basically just sat around and talked, until 2nd period when we saw a thermite reaction...but that only lasted for about 10 minutes.
Anyway, so it was definitely interesting. Salad and I actually had a couple real conversations, and it seems like we're friends again, Aaron and Frank thought I was crazy because I can easily "sit" on my feet without actually sitting, Kate, Angie and I were...ourselves. Aaron lifted up Kay and me, Wren bitched about our chem teacher and we all studied for our history test next period (or...like 8 of us did).
Then the big shocker...dun dun duh! So Frank and I have been bad people, I told Salad that he told me who he liked (it turned out that the girl was only one out of two girls he liked) and Frank told Salad that I asked if Salad was gay. Which seemed like a funny thing to say at the time...until Salad asked me if I seriously thought he was gay...which was sort of funny but at the same time it wasn't. But at least we're even now right? Even so, to be completely equal, Salad can get a few secrets about me from Frank, then all three of us will be equal and I can totally beat Salad at badminton tomorrow!
Recipe:
1 Salad
1 Frank
1 Aaron
1 Angie
1 Kay
1 Wren
1 Kate
1 Me
Dangerous Chemicals
A small enclosed space
(mix together for 41 minutes, until the bell rings then release)
Like I said. Recipe for disaster. But we had fun today, because we were originally supposed to have a test but it would have had to start right at the beginning of the period but there were only 5 people there so that idea was scratched. Instead the test was postponed until tomorrow and since she had nothing planned for us we basically just sat around and talked, until 2nd period when we saw a thermite reaction...but that only lasted for about 10 minutes.
Anyway, so it was definitely interesting. Salad and I actually had a couple real conversations, and it seems like we're friends again, Aaron and Frank thought I was crazy because I can easily "sit" on my feet without actually sitting, Kate, Angie and I were...ourselves. Aaron lifted up Kay and me, Wren bitched about our chem teacher and we all studied for our history test next period (or...like 8 of us did).
Then the big shocker...dun dun duh! So Frank and I have been bad people, I told Salad that he told me who he liked (it turned out that the girl was only one out of two girls he liked) and Frank told Salad that I asked if Salad was gay. Which seemed like a funny thing to say at the time...until Salad asked me if I seriously thought he was gay...which was sort of funny but at the same time it wasn't. But at least we're even now right? Even so, to be completely equal, Salad can get a few secrets about me from Frank, then all three of us will be equal and I can totally beat Salad at badminton tomorrow!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Tests, Tests, Tests...
So tomorrow I have several tests. My first and test and probably the one I am least prepared for is my chem test, then my history test and finally my math test, which I am sure I'll ace since this is easy stuff. But the test I'm most afraid and maybe even less prepared for than my chem test is my guy test.
I know, I've been talking about guys a lot lately but I'm a teenage girl...we talk about guys all the time! But this guy test isn't like other tests...I have to try to convince Salad that we should still be friends, tell him that the girl he likes may like him back (without telling him how I found out who he liked in the first place) and I have to tell him why I told him I liked him in the first place...without saying what really happened (because I had this dream a Wednesday night that the next person I told my deepest darkest secret to, would die.). So instead of worrying about Chemistry, I have Salad to worry about!
I know, I've been talking about guys a lot lately but I'm a teenage girl...we talk about guys all the time! But this guy test isn't like other tests...I have to try to convince Salad that we should still be friends, tell him that the girl he likes may like him back (without telling him how I found out who he liked in the first place) and I have to tell him why I told him I liked him in the first place...without saying what really happened (because I had this dream a Wednesday night that the next person I told my deepest darkest secret to, would die.). So instead of worrying about Chemistry, I have Salad to worry about!
Guys and Girls can't be friends? Wha?
So while surfing google on Mozilla Firefox, I typed in guys and girls when I was upset and one thing that came up was "Guys and Girls Can't be Friends" So naturally I clicked on that because most of my friends are guys.
Needless to say that I found a lot of interesting things about why guys and girls can't be friends and I realized something that was good. See a few posts ago, "Teardrops on my Guitar post" I quote that
But when I think about it now, maybe that's a good thing. Not many people can pull of a guy-girl friendship but for me, most of my friendships have been with guys and that's a good thing. Right? I mean, so far I've done pretty well with mostly guy friends and even if I liked a few of them for awhile...it doesn't mean I can't still be friends with them. Who needs to be #1? First is worst, second is best! That's how the rhyme goes and for most guys, I'm the #2 girl. In other words, not the girlfriend but a close friend that just so happens to be a girl.
Needless to say that I found a lot of interesting things about why guys and girls can't be friends and I realized something that was good. See a few posts ago, "Teardrops on my Guitar post" I quote that
"In the past I had so many guy friends and if I ever started to develop feelings for them, I was jolted back to reality when I found out that they liked another girl. It has happened with every one of my guy friends, even the guys I don't like, like another girl better than me! Doesn't that suck? I'll always be some guy's "good friend" but I'll never be close enough to be considered his 'girl friend.'"
But when I think about it now, maybe that's a good thing. Not many people can pull of a guy-girl friendship but for me, most of my friendships have been with guys and that's a good thing. Right? I mean, so far I've done pretty well with mostly guy friends and even if I liked a few of them for awhile...it doesn't mean I can't still be friends with them. Who needs to be #1? First is worst, second is best! That's how the rhyme goes and for most guys, I'm the #2 girl. In other words, not the girlfriend but a close friend that just so happens to be a girl.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Boys...good or bad?
So as we all know, I've been having guy problems lately, and I've done stuff like this before where I make lists, and after I make a list I feel a lot better about my subject...and my subject usually is the guys I know. So here is a list of reasons why boys can be good or bad.
The Good
Frank- Well...he listens to me, and is there when I need him...plus he gives me valuable information about the other guys I know.
George- He is one of the few people who can make me laugh when I'm having a hard time. He and Frank always make me feel better when I'm depressed.
Salad- When we were "good friends" (which we are going to become again) he was pretty sweet to me, he'd talk to me and was actually competitive with me during sports. Plus he said he'd get rid of the picture of Cael and I really like that.
Nick- He's been my best friend since 7th grade! He'll listen to me and I'll listen to him, plus he's funny.
Cael- He used to be my best friend, and my writing partner, we did practically everything together.
Aaron- He's another good friend, I can talk to him easily and we can laugh at each other openly.
Chris- Well...he's cool...in the lowest sense of cool.
Will- He's fun to be around, and kind of crazy but fun...
John- I dunno what to say, he's fun to be around despite the fact that he's too flirtatious.
The Bad
Frank- ...wow...um...let's see...he likes Chemistry. I dunno he's really a good person, kind of dumb, but a good person, except when we fool around too much and I end up getting hurt.
George- um...he get's annoying sometimes, and when we fool around we both end up getting hurt somehow.
Salad- I told him my feelings and he ignored me because he likes another girl, and then like...a month later he tells me that he likes another girl.
Nick- We barely talk, and I think he's secretly hoping that I stay in Texas. But who isn't?
Cael- He ditched me to be with Kat, Jen & all of their friends 3 times, and ignores me and the people I talk to (except for Nick, Chloe and Angie)
Aaron- Sometimes he's too touchy-feely with me, and that bugs me.
Chris- Um...how about I don't like him more than a friend but he's showing off for me, wants to be near me, keeps inviting me to dances, and is making me a ring.
Will- See Aaron's but times it by 10 and also add completely annoying in the mix.
John- He flirts way too much!
My First Thoughts on These Guys...
(This is so funny to think about, the words in italics are what I thought when I first saw that person and in normal text is what I think of that first statement)
Frank- "Oh my God! He's cute but since he's cute and in my biology class then he must be dumb and a jerk"
^ Wow...I was off with that comment, he is sort of cute and dumb but a jerk? Never, Frank is sweet.
George- "This guy must be a wierdo! He hangs out with Nick and Cael at lunch!"
^ not totally off, he is sort of a wierdo but in a good way, and he doesn't hang out with those two anymore.
Salad- "I hate him, he thinks he's so cool because he can play soccer."
^ Um...true, I did hate him for most of my freshman year, and he didn't like me either because we were constantly competing for the soccer ball...but he doesn't think he's so cool.
Nick- "New kid. Hmm...yeah I'll probably never talk to him"
^ Only part true there, he was new at the time but I ended up talking to him at lunch that day, and it was the beginning of a great friendship.
Cael- "He's ugly, he looks like he has no neck!"
^ What can I say? That's totally true!
Aaron- "He's a geek, and I probably won't ever talk to him."
^ Wrong and wrong again, we ended up talking a month or two later, and he is not a geek.
Chris- "New neighbor, yeah whatever, I'm never going to see him."
^ Sort of true, for a while we never talked or even acknowledged each other's presence. Now though...I wish we didn't acknowledge each other's presence.
Will- "He really is a wierdo"
^ Finally something that's true!
John- "He's kind of cute...not as cute as Salad though."
^ First part = totally stupid thing for me to think, second part = totally true, Salad is hotter than John...but he's three years older.
The Good
Frank- Well...he listens to me, and is there when I need him...plus he gives me valuable information about the other guys I know.
George- He is one of the few people who can make me laugh when I'm having a hard time. He and Frank always make me feel better when I'm depressed.
Salad- When we were "good friends" (which we are going to become again) he was pretty sweet to me, he'd talk to me and was actually competitive with me during sports. Plus he said he'd get rid of the picture of Cael and I really like that.
Nick- He's been my best friend since 7th grade! He'll listen to me and I'll listen to him, plus he's funny.
Cael- He used to be my best friend, and my writing partner, we did practically everything together.
Aaron- He's another good friend, I can talk to him easily and we can laugh at each other openly.
Chris- Well...he's cool...in the lowest sense of cool.
Will- He's fun to be around, and kind of crazy but fun...
John- I dunno what to say, he's fun to be around despite the fact that he's too flirtatious.
The Bad
Frank- ...wow...um...let's see...he likes Chemistry. I dunno he's really a good person, kind of dumb, but a good person, except when we fool around too much and I end up getting hurt.
George- um...he get's annoying sometimes, and when we fool around we both end up getting hurt somehow.
Salad- I told him my feelings and he ignored me because he likes another girl, and then like...a month later he tells me that he likes another girl.
Nick- We barely talk, and I think he's secretly hoping that I stay in Texas. But who isn't?
Cael- He ditched me to be with Kat, Jen & all of their friends 3 times, and ignores me and the people I talk to (except for Nick, Chloe and Angie)
Aaron- Sometimes he's too touchy-feely with me, and that bugs me.
Chris- Um...how about I don't like him more than a friend but he's showing off for me, wants to be near me, keeps inviting me to dances, and is making me a ring.
Will- See Aaron's but times it by 10 and also add completely annoying in the mix.
John- He flirts way too much!
My First Thoughts on These Guys...
(This is so funny to think about, the words in italics are what I thought when I first saw that person and in normal text is what I think of that first statement)
Frank- "Oh my God! He's cute but since he's cute and in my biology class then he must be dumb and a jerk"
^ Wow...I was off with that comment, he is sort of cute and dumb but a jerk? Never, Frank is sweet.
George- "This guy must be a wierdo! He hangs out with Nick and Cael at lunch!"
^ not totally off, he is sort of a wierdo but in a good way, and he doesn't hang out with those two anymore.
Salad- "I hate him, he thinks he's so cool because he can play soccer."
^ Um...true, I did hate him for most of my freshman year, and he didn't like me either because we were constantly competing for the soccer ball...but he doesn't think he's so cool.
Nick- "New kid. Hmm...yeah I'll probably never talk to him"
^ Only part true there, he was new at the time but I ended up talking to him at lunch that day, and it was the beginning of a great friendship.
Cael- "He's ugly, he looks like he has no neck!"
^ What can I say? That's totally true!
Aaron- "He's a geek, and I probably won't ever talk to him."
^ Wrong and wrong again, we ended up talking a month or two later, and he is not a geek.
Chris- "New neighbor, yeah whatever, I'm never going to see him."
^ Sort of true, for a while we never talked or even acknowledged each other's presence. Now though...I wish we didn't acknowledge each other's presence.
Will- "He really is a wierdo"
^ Finally something that's true!
John- "He's kind of cute...not as cute as Salad though."
^ First part = totally stupid thing for me to think, second part = totally true, Salad is hotter than John...but he's three years older.
This is why I changed my blog's name
*takes a deep breath* In the post "Teardrops on My Guitar" I mentioned that Salad liked this other girl in our Chem class but wouldn't tell me. Well I found out who it was...Frank and George told me...well actually Frank told me and George instantly knew who we were talking about. So...I kinda guessed the answer and they kind of gave it away. I thought that I would be glad to know who he liked as long as it wasn't Kat and/or Jen or Ray, I was fine. But I guess I was wrong about feeling okay because I feel as bad as I did yesterday, maybe because I'm pretty sure that she likes him back. I guess if she didn't like him back I wouldn't feel this way about the subject because maybe just maybe...he'll decide that he likes me more...that probably won't happen anytime soon.
I won't mention who the girl is because if anybody from my school reads this they may, sooner or later figure out who the girl is...and who everybody else is for that matter.
I won't mention who the girl is because if anybody from my school reads this they may, sooner or later figure out who the girl is...and who everybody else is for that matter.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Guys like what girls?
You would think that after having a ton of friends that are guys (Salad, Frank, "Aaron", Will, Chris, Cael, George, John and Nick to name a few) I would know just what guys look for in girls...and this is what I've come up with so far: low cut shirts (isn't that what all guys like though?). After that things vary...Cael likes smart girls who like reading, Nick, John, Will, Chris and Aaron'll probably date any girl who wants him, Frank liked girls with make-up and low cut shirts (don't know if he still likes that now because I don't know his girlfriend.) and I have no clue what George and Salad like.
Still though...my guess is that they like prettier girls (anything better than me I suppose.) but how am I supposed to know? Girls and guys have completely different mindsets and thoughts, I could hang out with them every second for the next month and still not know everything about them...which would be pretty hard because how would we go to the bathroom?
Still though, can't a guy like a girl like me for once? One with little or no make-up, decent grades, one that'll actually play most sports with them unless it's baseball or basketball and won't run away when the ball is coming right at them.
Still though...my guess is that they like prettier girls (anything better than me I suppose.) but how am I supposed to know? Girls and guys have completely different mindsets and thoughts, I could hang out with them every second for the next month and still not know everything about them...which would be pretty hard because how would we go to the bathroom?
Still though, can't a guy like a girl like me for once? One with little or no make-up, decent grades, one that'll actually play most sports with them unless it's baseball or basketball and won't run away when the ball is coming right at them.
Hard Times
I just want to use this as a spot to vent about school.
For one class we had to read Hard Times by Charles Dickens in about a week and a half. The book is 300 f***ing pages long and doesn't get interesting until after page 100! Then in Chemistry my teacher gives us a ton of homework to do, an essay that's due Monday which is when our next test is. Speaking of tests I have a math test tomorrow based on what we learned yesterday and also on Monday I have a history test and I barely know the material since I'm so worried about finishing the organizer for the book Hard Times.
School is too hard sometimes.
For one class we had to read Hard Times by Charles Dickens in about a week and a half. The book is 300 f***ing pages long and doesn't get interesting until after page 100! Then in Chemistry my teacher gives us a ton of homework to do, an essay that's due Monday which is when our next test is. Speaking of tests I have a math test tomorrow based on what we learned yesterday and also on Monday I have a history test and I barely know the material since I'm so worried about finishing the organizer for the book Hard Times.
School is too hard sometimes.
Teardrops on My Guitar
You may be wondering why I'm posting a video of Taylor Swift on my blog because I'm not even much of a Country music fan. But I heard this song a few weeks ago and it just started going through my head today. Why?
Well here's my little story...
Today started out to be a normal day, it was rainy and sort of warm and it was a Thursday...and Thursday's are my favorite day of the week because my favorite shows Smallville, Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy come on today so I usually can't wait to watch them. But today I realized that I have to work a lot on my graphic organizer for Global because it is due tomorrow, and I haven't completely finished it yet (but at least I'm ahead of most of the class...who didn't even finish the book yet) That wasn't the worst of my problems though, during the break between my double chem class I talked to a couple of my friends and then talked to Salad. I told him that I was going to Texas, I meant for it to be a joke but apparently he knew before I said anything that I was joking. (Stupid Frank!) You know here's our little dialogue.
S = Salad
Me = me (duh)
Me: Hey Salad, I've got good news for you.
S: What?
Me: I'm going to Texas.
S: For Thanksgiving?
Me: No I'm moving there.
S: *not at all convinced* Really?
Me: No, I've just been telling people that as a joke.
S: Hey I need to talk to you 4th period...or between 4th and 5th.
Me: Good because I need to talk to you too.
And that's really the end of that conversation, I went over to Frank told him I needed to tell him something but before I could say anything Angie and Kate pulled me over to talk to them.
So blah blah blah, I couldn't wait to get out of all my classes so I could go see Salad, even though I knew very well that he was going to say something like, "I don't want to break your heart or anything" and then I would say, "After what my friend Cael did to me I don't think my heart can break."
But I was really, really wrong. So I walked the way I usually walk to see Salad between 4th and 5th and when I got to that hallway I slowed down because so far I hadn't seen him. 'Oh great, he bailed on me..." was my first thought when I didn't see him. So I continued walking and surprise surprise I passed Cael and Nick as they were coming out of their class, so I said hey to Nick but not Cael (I'm not stupid here) and when Salad finally came by I was so grateful because Nick and Cael were right nearby (I'll explain later) I was waiting for him to say that he didn't like me like that or if I was extremely lucky: I like you too.
But I wasn't prepared for what happened next...
So we started talking, and he told me that he was caught off guard with my comment because he thought of me as a good friend that he could play soccer with and that he liked another girl in our chem class but even after much prodding he wouldn't tell me who the girl is!
Okay so that doesn't sound that bad because after all we are friends and we are talking to each other but the issue is coming up soon, I promise.
So I went to lunch later on and sat with Frank and George (after Frank had shaven George's head so instead of the sort of long hair he used to have, he has a Mohawk now. That's not the problem though) and now instead of it being the three of us, there are three other girls there who the guys like to bother and while two of the girls were wrestling with Frank and George, all of Salad's words came back to me...most of all: "Your my good friend"
That's when I realized something. In the past I had so many guy friends and if I ever started to develop feelings for them, I was jolted back to reality when I found out that they liked another girl. It has happened with every one of my guy friends, even the guys I don't like, like another girl better than me! Doesn't that suck? I'll always be some guy's "good friend" but I'll never be close enough to be considered his "girl friend." So much for getting a boyfriend this year, I doubt that'll happen with my luck with guys.
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